I wrote the following over 2 years ago in an email to someone who asked my perspective on this whole STS / STO schtuff, duality, channeling.
They asked if they could post it and did. I did not have a blog myself then, but now I do, so guess I’ll post it now.
Without naming them, I thank them for their questions.
Well, service to self in what way? At what level? At what frequency? At a 3D level – with greed, selfish inconsiderateness, not caring who ya step on or ab-use / misuse? Purely for money or for fame or a following? Or lust or perhaps out of fear… of being lonely or whatever other dis-empowered motive.
Or service to self at a higher level – self-respect, self-love, getting healed… …. to then be able to turn around and help the planet by transmuting millennia of shit energy out or help others and not because you heard someone say some fancy term or line and want to parrot it to others but because you’ve experienced it yourself FIRST, you’ve LIVED it, you KNOW it, you know what works and what doesn’t.
Because you know if you don’t take care of yourself and heal and self-nurture then you really have nothing to offer the next person. Because if you’re dead you have no help to offer the 3D world. Because, as I said before, what we TRULY have to offer anyone else is our consciousness and how can you offer it to the next person if you don’t get there yourself, FIRST?!
“If you can’t love yourself, how the hell you gonna love somebody else?”
And on the flip side, service to others in what way, at what level, at what frequency, from what agenda or motive? People who have egos and subconscious that are programmed in dis-empowered ways are often ass-kissers, boot-lickers, will do anything to make a buck, to keep a job, to get along, to have a friend, to be popular, to be liked, to have low frequency “power”.
To be “slothful”, to follow someone else’s agenda rather than their own agenda, to “go with the flow” to “fit in”, no matter what the cost to themselves or others, doing all the wrong things because others do and they want to “succeed” at low frequency levels and cave in to all the things they feel in their gut and heart and intuition to be wrong because “that’s just the way it is”.
People who don’t have the guts to tell someone what they need to hear to heal. People who will enable other’s dysfunction so as not to rock the boat… that often so desperately needs to be rocked. People who don’t want to rouse the rabble that so desperately needs to be roused.
Then again, duality in what way? That there are just some things that are complementary, like masculine and feminine? Neither is bad, but that difference is most certainly part of duality. Both could stand to be integrated within each individual and no one needs to be androgynous or have a sex change to incorporate both. Just one example of complements, which means “to make complete”.
Other examples of duality though, in some cases, some dark sides of things could stand to be let go of like ignorance and thinking there are things that just can’t be known. Like ego issues that on one side make one feel grandiose while on the other side make people “play small” and claim “I’m only human” as some sort of cop-out, some excuse to not be all they can be.
And societal programming that deems that some things are bad or wrong when in reality there may be nothing wrong with them or in some cases, these things judged as “wrong” or “bad” are actually strengths and are downright healthy.
In this planetary ascension, those who get themselves to a 5D level are serving themselves , serving their own soul by healing, clearing, releasing and upgrading. Nothing wrong with that. If 7 billion people would have been self-centered (centered on self) in THAT way, we and Gaia would have all been outta here long ago and the work, the burden would have been spread around evenly and not just put on a small minority of people.
Heal themselves first, then and only then can they go on to serve the planet and others in any higher level energetic capacity.
And yet along the way, in the effort to offer consciousness they can do that for the next person on some topic that they are even 1/2 a step ahead on.
Yeah, I don’t like the ambiguity of these terms STS & STO. Those terms are very black and white and biased in its perspective, in its assumption that everyone will just see it the right way, the most healthy way for all involved… and those terms are too easily misunderstood / misinterpreted in a very harmful and dis-empowering way… and nobody bothers to explain.
Btv (Below The Veil – BTV) or atv (Above The Veil – ATV) there are WAY too many assumptions that just because different entities / beings are using the same terms / words, there must be an understanding, there must be the SAME interpretations and definitions because it’s the same word. Errr! Wrong answer!
A recent channeled message said this:
“Even though the techniques necessary to fulfill your dreams have been outlined for some time, those techniques were ignored, misunderstood or denied.”
Ok, if we apply that to your run-of-the-mill LW (Lightworker – Information Worker), yep.
But look at all the channelled messages that didn’t get these people on the right track in the first place. How many channelled messages have said some emotions are good and some bad? Don’ feel angry or bored or whatever. What?
From a bunch of unemotional non-humans who don’t know wtf they are talking about?! Oh, they are proving now they can dish out the tough love message (about time) and yet where are they accepting the responsibility for their part, their role in the misunderstanding? How many times have the human channeller’s gotten the message wrong, stated it wrong or misinterpreted it after the fact and yet where are these channeling entities to make that correction?
“Hey there dear human, we can tell by what you told others that you did not correctly interpret our message, so we’d like to explain further…” Do they even bother to check in and see how humans, especially their own channeling human is interpreting their message?
And why are human channellers just swallowing all these messages without question? And even when the message is a good one, why aren’t they making sure that they themselves actually understand it and LIVE it? ETs and LWs, a match made in hell. The blind leading the blind.
TRUE service is never bad!
This whole STS / STO business superficially makes it sound like serving oneself is bad while serving others is good. That right there is one of the most disempowering programs running in this world.
You must make and keep yourself your top priority!
And there are those “lightworkers” who have so much dysfunctional dogma to defend around this whole STS / STO line and would love to distract you with the tomes of it that I’m sure there is, whether it takes all that to get the gist across or not. They have no clue how steeped in their “religion” they are. They don’t like to be alone in their distraction and “worshipping” of entities who like to push this STS / STO line, but eventually they’ll have to face the reality that putting one self first is the proper order of things. Anything else is just keeping them from moving forward on their own healing, empowerment and ascension path… and hence, keeping them from being of any TRUE service to others. The more they resist their own healing and Divine connection, the longer they postpone their ability to even BE of much TRUE SERVICE to anyone else.
I told someone it’s about frequency so perhaps expressing it in “light vs. dark” instead of “self vs. other” terms would have been better.
They said that “in Ra’s cosmology dark has its purpose”. Gee, ya think?!
But there’s so much dogma they have to defend in their worship of Ra. Who the hell is Ra?! That’s a rhetorical question… for all you info-overload / news addicts types who’d now like to tell me who “Ra” is. lol (Yeah, yeah, I’ve utilized so-called “Ra energy”, once upon a time. *yawn*) Overuse your pea brain much? A little unbalanced there perhaps? (And Ra is not the only channeled ET source to talk about this whole STS / STO thing. *yawn* Old crap that just seems to keep catching more new people.)
Is Ra your higher self? Is Ra God? (“God is Source. Everything else is just Re-Source.”) Then who the hell is Ra? To you?! A frickin’ nobody, that’s who. He’s your peer at best… if even. I’m glad that the Ra Material spoke to you… how long ago now? You’ve not learned and grown any since? Perhaps it’s time to step out of grade school and get on to high school. No doubt you’re allowing Ra to serve as a “middleman” when you could instead be utilizing your direct connection to God / Prime Creator / All-That-Is… as Sovereign Beings do. Ooh, but that just might require you put yourself first, eh? Dang. Gosh oh gee, now who do you think is going to best serve others, those who are utilizing their direct connection to God or those who aren’t?
I told them in MY cosmology, SELF has its purpose. Duh. Goodness sakes but this whole healing and ascension business IS about SELF, gee, ya know, since Self is the part of All-That-Is that YOU were put in charge of, that YOU have anything resembling control over. Ready to actually take some Responsibility yet?
You don’t make choices for others or for the collective, you make YOUR OWN CHOICES. The whole collective connection thing just is AND IS THE SINGLE BIGGEST INFLUENCE YOU HAVE ON OTHERS. By making certain choices, you energetically are making that choice more available or perceivable to others, but you still don’t get to choose for them.
So now, what do YOU have to donate to that Collective Innernet? Is it worth a darn? Maybe cleaning up your own back yard would put the absolute best quality energy out there to others, eh? Use your Inner Technology to that end instead of the headless-chicken “altruism” tango.
Our Inner Causal Realms CREATE the World of Outer Effects. Your preoccupation with “helping” / “saving” / “rescuing” others is like… stepping up to a mirror, seeing you have something on your face and trying to wipe it off… in your reflection. The “in here” CREATES the “out there”. Your greatest creative work, MOST ESPECIALLY TOWARDS HELPING OTHERS, is done within!
But people like this think they can somehow magically “join with others” when they’ve yet to tend to joining all aspects of themselves. Their priorities are screwed up. They are caught up / distracted in “serving” others “out there” with their rabid altruism – that often does more harm than good as it is often truly based in their own ego issues not on True Divine Service as guided by the All-That-Is – when they would BEST serve others by tending to their own self stuff FIRST / as their top priority “in here”. They dis the very simple but wise guidance even from the “flight attendant” who advises them to don their own oxygen mask before assisting others with theirs.
In reality, TRULY serving self is actually what best enables one TO serve others. Priorities!
And there is an awful lot of disservice parading around as service because people have yet to learn what truly SERVES oneself and others and what does not. Perhaps some discussion with the Divine on such things would be in order. (just skip the middlemen)