Service to Self, Service to Others

I wrote the following over 2 years ago in an email to someone who asked my perspective on this whole STS / STO schtuff, duality, channeling.

They asked if they could post it and did.  I did not have a blog myself then, but now I do, so guess I’ll post it now.

Without naming them, I thank them for their questions.

Well, service to self in what way?  At what level? At what frequency? At a 3D level – with greed, selfish inconsiderateness, not caring who ya step on or ab-use / misuse?  Purely for money or for fame or a following?  Or lust or perhaps out of fear… of being lonely or whatever other dis-empowered motive. 

Or service to self at a higher level – self-respect, self-love, getting healed… ….  to then be able to turn around and help the planet by transmuting millennia of shit energy out or help others and not because you heard someone say some fancy term or line and want to parrot it to others but because you’ve experienced it yourself FIRST, you’ve LIVED it, you KNOW it, you know what works and what doesn’t.

Because you know if you don’t take care of yourself and heal and self-nurture then you really have nothing to offer the next person.  Because if you’re dead you have no help to offer the 3D world. Because, as I said before, what we TRULY have to offer anyone else is our consciousness and how can you offer it to the next person if you don’t get there yourself, FIRST?!

“If you can’t love yourself, how the hell you gonna love somebody else?” 

And on the flip side, service to others in what way, at what level, at what frequency, from what agenda or motive? People who have egos and subconscious that are programmed in dis-empowered ways are often ass-kissers, boot-lickers, will do anything to make a buck, to keep a job, to get along, to have a friend, to be popular, to be liked, to have low frequency “power”.

To be “slothful”, to follow someone else’s agenda rather than their own agenda, to “go with the flow” to “fit in”, no matter what the cost to themselves or others, doing all the wrong things because others do and they want to “succeed” at low frequency levels and cave in to all the things they feel in their gut and heart and intuition to be wrong because “that’s just the way it is”.

People who don’t have the guts to tell someone what they need to hear to heal.  People who will enable other’s dysfunction so as not to rock the boat… that often so desperately needs to be rocked.  People who don’t want to rouse the rabble that so desperately needs to be roused.  

Then again, duality in what way?  That there are just some things that are complementary, like masculine and feminine?  Neither is bad, but that difference is most certainly part of duality.  Both could stand to be integrated within each individual and no one needs to be androgynous or have a sex change to incorporate both.  Just one example of complements, which means “to make complete”.

Other examples of duality though, in some cases, some dark sides of things could stand to be let go of like ignorance and thinking there are things that just can’t be known.  Like ego issues that on one side make one feel grandiose while on the other side make people “play small” and claim “I’m only human” as some sort of cop-out, some excuse to not be all they can be.

And societal programming that deems that some things are bad or wrong when in reality there may be nothing wrong with them or in some cases, these things judged as “wrong” or “bad” are actually strengths and are downright healthy.

In this planetary ascension, those who get themselves to a 5D level are serving themselves , serving their own soul by healing, clearing, releasing and upgrading.  Nothing wrong with that.  If 7 billion people would have been self-centered (Centered on Self) in THAT way, we and Gaia would have all been outta here long ago and the work, the burden would have been spread around evenly and not just put on a small minority of people.  

Heal themselves first, then and only then can they go on to serve the planet and others in any higher level energetic capacity.

And yet along the way, in the effort to offer consciousness they can do that for the next person on some topic that they are even 1/2 a step ahead on.

Yeah, I don’t like the ambiguity of these terms STS & STO.  Those terms are very black and white and biased in its perspective, in its assumption that everyone will just see it the right way, the most healthy way for all involved… and those terms are too easily misunderstood / misinterpreted in a very harmful and dis-empowering way… and nobody bothers to explain.

Btv (Below The Veil – BTV) or atv (Above The Veil – ATV) there are WAY too many assumptions that just because different entities / beings are using the same terms / words, there must be an understanding, there must be the SAME interpretations and definitions because it’s the same word.  Errr!  Wrong answer!

A recent channeled message said this:
“Even though the techniques necessary to fulfill your dreams have been outlined for some time, those techniques were ignored, misunderstood or denied.”

Ok, if we apply that to your run-of-the-mill LW (Lightworker – Information Worker), yep.

But look at all the channelled messages that didn’t get these people on the right track in the first place.  How many channelled messages have said some emotions are good and some bad?  Don’t feel angry or bored or whatever.  What?  From a bunch of unemotional non-humans who don’t know wtf they are talking about?!   Oh, they are proving now they can dish out the tough love message (about time) and yet where are they accepting the responsibility for their part, their role in the misunderstanding? 

How many times have the human channeller’s gotten the message wrong, stated it wrong or misinterpreted it after the fact and yet where are these channeling entities to make that correction?  “Hey there dear human, we can tell by what you told others that you did not correctly interpret our message, so we’d like to explain further…”  Do they even bother to check in and see how humans, especially their own channeling human is interpreting their message?

And why are human channellers just swallowing all these messages without question?  And even when the message is a good one, why aren’t they making sure that they themselves actually understand it and LIVE it?  ETs and LWs, a match made in hell.  The blind leading the blind.

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Bottom line?

TRUE service is never bad!

This whole STS / STO business superficially makes it sound like serving oneself is bad while serving others is good.  That right there is one of the most disempowering programs running in this world and also dualistic and polarizing.  By using such terminology you are energizing / feeding / refreshing that old disempowering program.

Many a “spiritualist” and “lightworker” are steeped in that disempowering program, putting other over self, wanting to help the next person heal when they have yet to heal themselves.  Their priorities are screwed up.  As some would say, “Lightwork is an INSIDE job.”  I can’t emphasize enough – DOING YOUR OWN INNER WORK HELPS OTHERS WITH THEIRS MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE YOU COULD DO FOR THEM.

If you truly want to serve self and others, you must make and keep yourself your top priority!  You can only give as much as you’ve got.  That applies to everything from material things to Healing and Consciousness.  

And there are those “lightworkers” who have so much dysfunctional dogma to defend around this whole STS / STO line, as they proselytize their “Ra Religion”… and would love to distract you with the tomes of it that I’m sure there is, whether it takes all that to get the gist across or not – boys n’ girls, can you say “distraction”?  I knew ya could.  They have no clue how steeped in their “religion” they are.  They don’t like to be alone in their distraction and “worshipping” of entities who like to push this STS / STO line, but eventually they’ll have to face the reality that putting one self first is the proper order of things.  Anything else is just keeping them from moving forward on their own healing, empowerment and ascension path… and hence, keeping them from being of any TRUE service to others.  The more they resist their own healing and Divine connection, the longer they postpone their ability to even BE of much TRUE SERVICE to anyone else.

I told someone it’s about frequency, a difference in level of consciousness, so perhaps expressing it in “light vs. dark” instead of “self vs. other” terms would have been better.

The Ra Religion people parroting their dogma never compare apples with apples.  So, let’s assume – because that IS the case – that STS and STO both have a low frequency end and a high frequency end.  But these people mindlessly saying this crap always compare the low freq. end of STS to the high freq. end of STO.  Why not compare the low freq. end of STO to the high freq. end of STS and see which looks better then?!  Doh!

Someone else said that Service to Self really means “Service to Self against Others”.  Oh, ok.  Fine and well, but I’ve yet to hear them discuss “Service to Others against Self”.  *shaking head*  The whole world, each brainwashed individual has been in Service to Other against Self for centuries, unwittingly serving the cabal’s agenda… or anyone else’s agenda other than their own.  That’s what the Enneagram of Personality (personality typing method) would call “sloth”.  Not about being physically lazy but instead sloth is about going along with someone else’s agenda rather than setting your own.  The slothful personality types like to say they are “just going with the flow”.  Whose flow?  Best learn to make it about your own and the Divine’s flow and not anyone else’s.  Time to quit giving authority of your life away, something that can be done as easily as worrying what the neighbors will think, including the neighbors who aren’t even having one passing thought about you.

Why do these Ra religion people not compare the low frequency end of each of STS and STO to each other and same for the high ends of each?  

But these Ra religion people don’t ever even mention the low frequency end of Service to Others.

The other day, someone compared what Ra had to say about STS to the satanists.  Yep, ‘cuz that’s the low frequency end of STS that Ra spoke of.  It begs the question – why did this Ra character never speak of the EMPOWERING end of the STS spectrum?  Why did Ra not speak of the dark / disempowering end of STO?  Hmm?  Are you SURE that Ra character had / has ANYONE’S best interest in mind or at heart?

I’d just love to see them talk about how the cabal have kept humanity in STO mode, keeping others above self.  The utmost in disempowerment.  In “Atlas Shrugged“, Ayn Rand spoke of how the people who ran the world (communists, which she just never named as such, but she knew communist rule on a personal basis from her time in the Soviet Union) were always encouraging people to essentially sacrifice their own personal interests for “the public”, which was a very nebulous thing.  No matter who you were, you were somehow not part of “the public” and yet everyone was to place “the public” above themselves.  The covert term for communism these days is “progressive / progressivism”.  Were you aware of that?

There seems to be a total disconnect with these Ra parrots… about their own inconsistencies… even just in the space between the beginning and the end of one of their blog posts.   They parrot their b.s. Ra line, then spend the rest of the post “elaborating” on this b.s. line, but everything else they write negates the first line.  I told someone that I didn’t care if they agreed with me or not, but for their sake it might be worth it to make some effort to actually agree with themselves.

But there’s so much dogma they have to defend in their worship of Ra.  Who the hell is Ra?!  That’s a rhetorical question… for all you info-overload / news addicts types who’d now like to tell me who “Ra” is.  (just can’t wait to proselytize can ya?)  lol   Overuse your pea brain much?  A little unbalanced there perhaps?  (And Ra is not the only channeled ET source to talk about this whole STS / STO thing.  *yawn*  Old crap that just seems to keep catching more new people.)

Is Ra your higher self?  Is Ra God?  (“God is Source.  Everything else is just Re-Source.”)  Then who the hell is Ra?  To you?!  A frickin’ nobody, that’s who.  He’s your peer at best… if even.  I’m glad that the Ra Material spoke to you… how long ago now?  You’ve not learned and grown any since?  Perhaps it’s time to step out of grade school and get on to high school.  (*looking around*  Where are those big kid pants?!)  No doubt you’re allowing Ra to serve as a “middleman” when you could instead be utilizing your direct connection to God / Prime Creator / All-That-Is… as Sovereign Beings do.  Ooh, but that just might require you put yourself first, eh?  Dang.  Gosh oh gee, now who do you think is going to best serve others, those who are utilizing their direct connection to God or those who aren’t?

Circling back around to “self / other” vs “light / dark”…. This person said that “in Ra’s cosmology, dark has its purpose”.  Gee, ya think?!

I told them in MY cosmology, SELF has its purpose (“my” is important there because I’ll be a son of gun if I’m gonna give authority of my life over to this chump named Ra).  Duh.  Goodness sakes but this whole healing and ascension business IS about SELF, gee, ya know, since Self is the part of All-That-Is that YOU were put in charge of (Responsibility), that YOU have anything resembling control (Power) over.  Ready to actually take some Responsibility yet?  Ya know, over something YOU actually have any Power to change, ya know… YOU!  What you have for Other is just influence, no real Power.  Get the biggest bang for your buck in truly helping them by seizing the Power you ACTUALLY have and deal with YOU as YOUR TOP PRIORITY… to set the example.

You don’t make choices for others or for the collective, you make YOUR OWN CHOICES.  You have neither the Power nor the Responsibility over or for the next person.  The whole collective connection thing just is AND IS THE SINGLE BIGGEST INFLUENCE YOU HAVE ON OTHERS.  By making certain choices, you energetically are making that choice more available or perceivable to others, but you still don’t get to choose for them.

So now, what do YOU have to donate to that Collective Innernet?  Is it worth a darn?  Maybe cleaning up your own back yard would put the absolute best quality energy out there to others, eh?  Use your Inner Technology to that end instead of the headless-chicken “altruism” tango.

Our Inner Causal Realms CREATE the World of Outer Effects.  Your preoccupation with “helping” / “saving” / “rescuing” others is like… stepping up to a mirror, seeing you have something on your face and trying to wipe it off… in your reflection.  The “in here” CREATES the “out there”.  Your greatest creative work, MOST ESPECIALLY TOWARDS HELPING OTHERS, is done within!

But people like this think they can somehow magically “join with others” (“horizontal unity”) when they’ve yet to tend to joining all aspects of themselves (“Vertical Unity”).  Their priorities are screwed up.  They are caught up / distracted in “serving” others “out there” with their rabid altruism – that often does more harm than good as it is often truly based in their own ego issues not on True Divine Service as guided by the All-That-Is – when they would BEST serve others by tending to their own “self” stuff FIRST / as their top priority “in here”.  They dis the very simple but wise guidance even from the “flight attendant” who advises them to don their own oxygen mask before assisting others with theirs.

In reality, TRULY serving self is actually what best enables one TO serve others.  Priorities!

You can only give as much as you’ve got.  You can’t pour from an empty cup.  And if you don’t take care of yourself, as a bare minimum and also as your top priority, then there’s risk of not only you not doing well but you then become a burden on others.  And this all helps anyone / everyone how?  You are your Responsibility.  Take care of you.

Many lightworkers are caught up in “serving” others when their top priority ought to be to serve themselves FIRST.  So dysfunctional.  They are so preoccupied with helping others heal that they are not knocking out their own healing and hence are truly NOT serving.  Someone had said, rightly so, that serving self IS serving others.  Indeed.  Someone else put out a post titled “Deal with your sh*t.  Then serve.”  Indeed again.  Get your nose out of other people’s business until you’ve cleaned up your own backyard.   Your “advice” isn’t worth a darn until you do… as evidenced by this STS / STO nonsense you insist on parroting.  As I’ve said before, if 7 billion people would have been “self centered”, as in, Centered on Self, in a healthy, healing way, THAT would have served everyone.  I certainly would have appreciated how it would have served me and others like me, by not having us few carry such a heavy burden in this ascension project for far too long.  AGAIN, the best thing you CAN do for others is TO serve yourself as your top priority.  So, by being obsessed with helping others at the expense of doing your own inner work, you are not serving anyone.

And there is an awful lot of disservice parading around as service because people have yet to learn what truly SERVES oneself and others and what does not.  They are often coming from old disempowering programming as they attempt to determine what is service and what is not.  The result is that they often “enable someone’s dysfunction“, their own included.  Perhaps some discussion with the Divine on such things would be in order.  (just skip the middlemen)

Also see Individuation vs. Collectives. Both sides of this are important.  Sometimes, leaving Duality behind means not setting up “either / or” scenarios that don’t need to be.  Like you have to choose between Self and Other, as if you can only have one or the other.    Where’s the “unity” and “integration” in that?  You can have it all… and you will… IF you get your priorities straight!

I got this concept years ago, which is why I wrote the book on it, but now, years after my own “completion”, as I observe others completing, they get it too.  They understand that Self Love and a whole lot of other “self” stuff needs to take top priority.  They’ve learned that the whole headless-chicken “altruism” tango they’d been doing is not serving anyone.

Also see:

Self Love
“If ya can’t love yourself, how the hell ya gonna love somebody else?”

Healthy Selfishness
You can’t pour from an empty cup.

Unity
Self (vertical) unity first.  Unity with all others just is… and when you are self-unified, you’ll KNOW that.

Individuation and Collectives
Each and every one of us is an Individuated Soul having an Individuated Experience. We are also part of a Collective. It does not serve / is not serving you or any collectives you are a part of to deny either side of this – your Individuation or your Energetic Connection to the Collective.

Unconditional Love
… distinguish between the SOUL that is standing in front of you and the ENERGIES which they are currently carrying.