Ascension Update Six

Gaia wanted to play cards today.

This is very direct verbiage from someone’s definition of the cards… as I have been directed by God and Gaia to use.


Tarot reading:

To 2nd Wave Lightworkers (those who just completed in the last year or so) on down through the lightworker ranks:

Now is a time to learn understanding and control while affirming and expressing your nurturing qualities, your earthiness.


To all lightworkers at every level:

You are now at a point to reap results from the positive efforts you have made in the past.  


To humanity at large:

A young woman with an active imagination and insight is willing to help you.  Stay centered and own your own power.  Flow toward new experiences, moving past the ordinary reality into Otherworldly dimensions.  



Last Call – You Don’t Have to Go Home, But Ya Can’t Stay Here

We’re right on top of a BIG shift.

Quite the buzz has been going on online about it, people have different takes on what’s coming, but all sense a very significant change.

Some are speaking of “The Event”, ya know, “The Event is coming!”  Whatever the f*ck “The Event” is.  I had to laugh to read someone pick apart some of this “The Event” nonsense – things that make it sound like there will be waving of magic wands to make change happen instantly.  Well, that’s not how it works… until it does, but most of that “instant” stuff will only happen after your transition, in full, to 5D.

Screw “The Event”.  No offense to whomever but… Don’t get distracted!

Focus on the MAIN EVENT here folks, which is ASCENSION.  Make it and keep it the main thing.

  • 1st – Gaia and the 1st wave (the Original ~145,000 and another million forerunners) will ascend NOW!  (hopefully that’s more the kind of “now” that we understand, as opposed to the whole “eternal now” version those above the veil like to use) We WILL be going HOME (we’ve had enough to “drink” anyway – “last call” has been too long in coming for the Original ~145,000).  We, the ones TRANSITIONING IN FULL, will be the ones who have major instantaneous outward shift.  The rest of you may very well feel some energetic shift, but…
  • 2nd – The truth about the mundane world and the global cabal will very soon surface in a big way.  You may be blown away yourself by some of it and yet you’re more than likely better prepared to deal than those who will be waking up to a whole heap all at once.  Boys n’ girls, can you say “paradigm shift”?   I knew ya could.  These folks could use your light and support.
  • 3rd – Freshly Ascended Masters, from the first wave, will return and assist humanity in awakening to ASCENSION.  Even those awakened to the global cabal don’t necessarily know about the ASCENSION.  Some may have heard about it but unfortunately have heard from some charlatan so-called “lightworkers” / self-help types, so have been turned off of the topic and who could blame them.  If their discernment skills work at all they probably don’t want anything to do with that malarkey.  Good.

Now, I have no frickin’ idea what people mean by “The Event”, and they don’t seem so sure themselves and there’s seemingly not so much consensus, but, by God, these 3 items I listed above sound rather eventful, eh?

There will be a bit of time between these 3 things, but not long.  Initially I was told weeks, then that went down to days.

I saw someone had gotten some info through another’s higher self that beings will come and help humanity… because humanity is so far behind.  Yep, some of the forerunners will come back and help out.

That would be the REAL forerunners folks.  I am now seeing some who are not even 2nd wave, aka NOT complete and probably no where’s near, who are now calling themselves “the forerunners of the forerunners”.  LMAO  Boy will they be surprised… or perhaps just reinforce their denial… when the REAL forerunners show up.  *shaking head*  Well, I guess old ego trips die hard.  Perhaps they think they are leading from behind.  lol  I’m telling ya folks, if these non-forerunner LWs are not aware of the REAL forerunners, ya gotta question their consciousness levels.  They’re probably not as “all that” as they make themselves sound… I don’t care how big their following is.  And… do they even know where GAIA’S ascension is at?  Do they care?

We indeed ARE a bit behind on this ascension project.  It seemed to be like pulling teeth to get the more seasoned (older / awakened for many years) lightworkers (LWs) to move along to completion to become the 2nd wave.

And now that some have been complete for almost a year now, a year and a half for others, they have still been having to release fears of showing their True Self.  Goodness sakes.  But, not to worry, the irritation of not being themselves will get to them even faster than ever before, helping them finally get over it.

Those above the veil had to keep the Cosmic Cattle Prod up their butts to keep them moving.  And yet kudos to the recent ~6 million who did push on and completed… since they still left many of their fellow seasoned LWs in the dust.  (Ya know, those who fancy themselves to be the forerunners of the forerunners…..ROFLMAO.  Excuse my laughter but I swear there are no bigger egos than LW egos.  So arrogant and so clueless all in one.  lol  … from those who also fancy themselves to be oh, so intuitive.  I guess their egos keep winning that wrestling match.  lol  They remind me of that old joke – “Hire a teenager… while they still know everything.”)

As I have harped on about for years (still can’t believe it’s been YEARS… since my own completion… since Gaia’s completion), to too many deaf, seasoned-LW ears: doing your own inner work does more for others (and for the ASCENSION project) than anything else you could do for them.

Finally, after several years of Cosmic Cattle Prod, when the “2nd wave”, the ~6 million, started to approach their completion in 2016, then the ACCELERATION started in earnest.  It’s like the collective awakening / enlightenment had been linear, steady, but a little overly much.  But in 2016, it went exponential!  Praise frickin’ be!  More than just lightworkers were picking up on that.  And what’s up with the acceleration?  Well, now there are millions of new human antennae.  Clear energetic channels… being that which connects Heaven to Earth.  Go figure.  Geez, who’da thunk it!  Really?  Millions of individuals KNOCKING OUT THEIR OWN INNER WORK could change and shift whole worlds?  Yep, really.  Not just in theory, but in reality, in actuality.  I guess they got enough cattle prod to realize that complaining that the shift hadn’t happened yet wasn’t enough to make it happen.

The REAL forerunners have been in a holding pattern, playing Energetic Atlas, holding the world up, wondering if our knees were going to buckle before a 2nd wave would even start to form.  Meanwhile, 3D-level truther / info-warrior types were having to sword fight with the cabal… while the seasoned lightworkers took their sweet time getting their process knocked out.  The forerunners had done about as much as we could and the 3D level folks’ hands were a bit full and they needed some ripe and ready LWs to get ’em up to speed anyway AND someone, anyone had to get far enough along to take the torch from us forerunners and HOLD LIGHT IN THIS WORLD!  It’s like we were all sitting in a car together and the seasoned lightworkers sat there and pissed and moaned, “Why aren’t we moving?!” ….while it was they themselves who were in the driver’s seat…. with the key!


This is how collectives get ascended – by INDIVIDUALS doing what’s theirs to do!

The energetic evidence is nuts.  Since I’d completed my own process and then later after my energetic service work ended a few years later, I had kinda mostly lost the energetic palpable-ness (if you will) of where this ascension project was / is.  (Intuition working wonderfully though.)  But THIS?  I CAN FEEL THIS!  …this current… surge.  I see many LWs having symptoms, but to me it feels up, lifting, energizing.  Yep, excitement and anticipation are off the charts and I’m leaving them there!

I know post-ascended me won’t be dealing much with lightworkers, most especially the “seasoned”, “celebrity” or “spiritual commerce” sorts since they are on path and not a concern or are too recalcitrant to accept guidance anyway.  I certainly don’t care to bang my crystalline head on recalcitrant LWs’ carbon-based brick walls.

Instead, I’ll be talking to those folks out there who need to learn about Healing, Empowerment and Ascension.  Lightworkers best be doing the same.  We have some catching up to do.  The light is pouring in and yet there are still far too many in the world who haven’t even heard about ascension let alone know how to go about it.

There are now ~ 6 million lightworkers who have completed in the last year or so and who are now the new light holders for this Earthly plane.  Many more coming up behind.  No stopping this train now.

Many speak of “the New Earth”.  The planet Earth itself won’t be changing much.  It’s the energy of the human collective that is shifting.

Some people who are tapping into info from above the veil, are seeing a very pristine future planet.  In some cases they are labeling that “the New Earth”.  No, that pristine planet they are seeing would be Gaia, not Earth.  As I keep saying, which many LWs still don’t understand – Earth is NOT ascending.  Her old soul essence Gaia is ascending.

I’ve heard others say that everyone’s carbon-based bodies will be converting to crystalline this year.  Ah, no.  That’s not how it works.  See here: What of the body during ascension?  One body does not “convert” to the other.  I’ve been ascension-ready for about 7 years now and no new crystalline body for me, not instantly, not gradually.  Never mind my old 3D carbon-based body is toast from all the energetic service work.  You get your crystalline body when you transition in full.

3D Earth is and shall remain continuing down a destructive path.  Perfect.  Nothing better than some continuing earth changes to keep everyone MOVING FORWARD and working together.  The Divine doesn’t really want you to get all so comfortable here because you need to be focused on ascending and helping others ascend.  There is nothing to “go back” to anyway and stopping is as good as moving backwards as Earth won’t be supporting life for all that much longer.  There is only onward and upward.  So yeah, you will more than likely feel the energetic difference in this world, but YOU’RE NOT DONE YET!  And if you’re not in the 1st wave, you’re not going anywhere… yet.  Yep, big shift, but you’re to stay here and be grounded and be the human antenna bringing Heaven to Earth.

Blessings to you all.  Thank you all for working on you!  Now it’s time to serve others in no small way.



Here I leave a copy of something I left in comments a while back:

My interpretation below GP line:

Primary Light stations complete the process.
“2nd wave”, if you will, are complete and ready to go, ready to serve, ready to SHINE.

Favorites are eliminated.
That would be the “1st wave”. I’ve always joked, “Don’t ask to be one of God’s favorites, it’s more a curse than a blessing.” (Don’t recall ever asking for that status… hm… oh that’s right, I made that other fatal error, I told God, “Thy will be mine”.)

Shadow violators are eliminated.
The cabal are incapacitated.

The Light Worker Alliance commences the new works.
The next phase begins… and boy oh boy can the light really go to town now! Full steam ahead!

Power of Words & True Vibration of Words

I recently put out a post with a message from God, part of that being “Be aware of your words and intent.”  Uh huh.  ‘Cuz that’s how we create.

I was in an online discussion with a couple people and one brought up “humility” implying that it is a desired state to be in.  I told them humility was highly overrated.

I told them that “humility” comes from “humble”, which means “lowly”, ya know, like the whole “Jesus was a humble carpenter” bit.  Boy, did “the theys” (cabal) get and keep humanity down with that bit, as if “lowly” were “Christ-like”.  Au contraire mon fraire.  I laugh because the character of “Jesus” supposedly said, “Have I not said ye are gods?  You too shall do these and greater things.”  Right in that line it’s implied that Jesus’ audience knows what “these (things)” are.  He couldn’t refer to “these” things he himself had already done without his audience knowing that he had done “these” (things).  Implication?  He showed himself.  He shone his light.  He didn’t hide himself… in the name of “humility”.

I’ve said it before and will say it again – Lightworkers, don’t help the cabal keep human divinity a secret!

And I told this person that I was NOT about to apply a term that means “lowly” to myself or to my Powerful-Creator-God fellow humans.  Nope.  Not feeding that disempowering paradigm.

My “highly overrated” comment made the third person chuckle.  They then posted a link to an old article about how the then recent discovery of the Gospel of Judas revealed that there were some “alien” entities in the world and the line about “ashes to ashes, dust to dust” was really an insult to humanity, basically calling humans “dirt”, but the broader implication being that humans don’t accomplish, learn, or grow much, just incarnate then die, rinse, repeat.  Over and over, just ashes to ashes, dust to dust, caught on the reincarnation hamster wheel.

So, in the middle of our “humility / humble” discussion, I had to ask, “Dust?  You mean like lowly?”  lol

And the “lowly” origin of humble is also tied in with “ground” and we circle back around again… to dust.

Dust and ground are not “bad” in and of themselves, but we could stand to recognize what was really being communicated with that ancient line.

And what was really funny was that the “humility” person seemed to be offended by the idea that humility / humble means “lowly”.  They said that lowly was my word.  I told them no, it was not MY word, it’s the True Vibration of the word THEY were using.  The dictionary will, in the other direction, also define lowly as humble… right after it says lowly means “low in rank, status or importance”.

The first definition of “humble” that one dictionary gives is “having or showing a modest or low estimate of one’s own importance”.  This “humble” program in LWs is probably a big part of why they didn’t fully grasp JUST HOW important them stepping up, doing their inner work (ya know, like a master would) IS / WAS to Gaia, to humanity, to their own Soul Mission.  Just how IMPORTANT THEY are.  *shaking head*  They just about let a whole world full of people and other life go down the tubes, themselves included, because of their disempowering humble / lowly / unimportant programs and language.  Just about got stuck in the ashes to ashes, dust to dust cycle… yet again.  *whew*  Earthlings dodge yet another bullet.

Folks, perhaps you could bother to know your word origins / True Vibration of words because that is the energy you are creating with your choice of words.  Don’t take my word for it.  I’m just the messenger with some helpful words for you.  Take up discussion about this with the Divine.  The dictionary doesn’t always get it right (usually though) but the Divine can help you out with that… if ya let It.

Check this the heck out “… almost every word we use today has moved away from its root meaning.”  Yeah, that’s a problem.  The gal in this link seems to want to make the case for abandoning the root meanings of words and yet THAT is the vibration we are working with when we use the words we do.

In above link, also check out that the root of “nice” = “foolish” or “lewd”.  lmao  I’m telling ya folks, if you want to set this upside-down world back upright, you best learn what your words mean.  Yeah?  You want to be “nice” do ya?

small detour here for a joke…

A gal returned to her hometown for a class reunion.  She eventually found herself at a reunion gathering, drink in hand, in a circle of old classmates.

She asked, “So, what did you all do after we graduated?”

Someone said, “I went to MIT and became a top rocket scientist at NASA.”

The gal said, “That’s nice.”

Someone else said, “I went to Harvard and have become a world-renowned lawyer representing many famous people.”

The gal said, “That’s nice.”

Someone else said, “I’ve recently ousted Ben Carson from his perch for world’s top brain surgeon.”  (lol)

The gal said, “That’s nice.”

They then all turned to her…


“Yeah, so, what did you do after graduation?”

The gal said, “I went to etiquette school.”

“And what did they teach you there?”

“They taught me that instead of telling someone they were full of bullsh*t, just tell ’em… ‘That’s nice.’ ”

(little did I know how close this old joke hits to what is really going on with the word “nice”)

Time to quit with the lowly bit (and yes also with the “nice” bit).  Read this blog to get some idea of how to get out of it.  Time to truly BE the GODS and GODDESSES that you are!  Ya know… CONSCIOUSLY!

And ya know folks, it’s about being the truest version of your True Self that you can muster in any given moment.  Just that simple.  Just keep yourself from keeping yourself from being yourself.  One can still be “just folks”, still be the “salt of the earth” and not have to take on “lowly” energy.  The implication I see in that “salt of the earth” line is it’s saying that these types are everywhere and are integral to the planet itself, which is VERY important.

I told these folks that I always say, “Who the hell am I?  I’m nobody.  If I can do this, so can you.”  And THAT is the biggest reason to just be one’s own Powerful and Glorious self, ya know, in front of God and everybody.  Not necessarily about getting on a soap box or blaring your message from a loud speaker (well, unless you are actually Divinely guided to do so!) or getting all pretentious in your New Ager purple flowy dress, it’s more about just not holding back.  Let True You actually join conversations and Speak True.  Heavens yes!  Talk about your spiritual achievements for Christ’s sake!  Very literally for Christhood’s sake, yours and others.  You are the example.  You.  Little ol’ you, who, yep, just looks like Joe Average.  But you’re not.  How will Joe Average know he can be more, just like you are now more than you once were, if you don’t demonstrate, if you don’t set the example and SHOW YOURSELF?!

And that online discussion made me think… this “humility” concept that this person was describing, well, we all know how that word has been peddled to us, but which nevertheless means “lowly”… but what they meant by it, the quality they meant to address, well, to me what is the utmost, the epitome of THAT state of being would be to COMPLETELY AND UTTERLY SURRENDER ONESELF OVER TO THE DIVINE, to strive to ALWAYS follow Its guidance no matter what that means, no matter how it makes you look to others, no matter what “be-lie-f” system of your own has to shatter (ya know like the “humility” program), etc.

And yet this person, who was so clinging to “humility” (almost an air of “See how humble I am.”  Ah, well, if ya have to point it out… lol), is yet just another lightworker who has admitted they allowed their pea brains to get distracted and addicted to “news” when they were being called to something else.  Do any of these folks have any vision or can they only “see” what is already manifest?  This person is just “reporting the news”.  They’re not “creating” in that mode, they’re just observing and reporting.  That’s called re-creation, creating again what you have before.  (Parks and Recreation, or in this case, Parked at Re-creation)  Keep looking at what is and focusing on it and guess what, you feed energy into it and re-create more of it.

Did ya care to actually help CREATE this ASCENSION?!

This person shirked their calling in favor of “reporting the news”.  I questioned them on what they were posting quite a while back.  I know others did also.  They literally answered me then that basically “but no one reads the ‘good’ stuff.”  Oh, that spoke volumes.  So it was more important to get as many visitors / readers / views as possible than to actually follow Divine guidance.  lol  Gee, no ego issues there.  Not.

Meanwhile, little ol’ me, who no one has ever frickin’ heard of, was quietly getting a planet ascended for goodness sakes while this person was trying to make a name for themselves… then has the audacity to talk “humility” to me of all people.  Completely clueless!

The third person and I continued our conversation and at one point, in a small attempt to let these folks know my outer circumstances through the ascension hell years (since the lightworkers can’t seemingly “see” us true forerunners, the “forerunners of the forerunners” as Karen Bishop would call us) I told them that my one and only one pair of sweat pants (that are wearing out), my one and only one pair of shoes, my old T-shirts, well, the ones that are big enough to stretch over my ascension-hell-years fat-suit, the clerk at the store counting out my “piggy bank” with me at the counter, well, these things just SCREAM “humble”.  lol  These people have no clue just what we forerunners released / let go of / sacrificed (just like “sacred”, word origin = “holy”, that means “whole” folks, where “heal” – to make whole – also comes from) for this ascension project… while they were online trying to win popularity contests.  GAWD!

(circling back around again)  … as if all those who WERE / ARE called to do the whole alt-news things don’t have that covered.  This “humility” person acts like a baseball player who tries to play someone else’s position, not trusting others to do their part and who then has left their own position wide open / uncovered.  What this person WAS being called to do, well, all those alt-news folks may not have a clue about that… but this person did! … but they’d rather reinvent someone else’s wheel than to step into the Divine role that they were / are ready for.  So scared of their own Power and hence refusing to take Responsibility.  THAT is NOT surrendering to the Divine, but it is “lowly” and yep, a cop-out.  Powerful GODS playing small.  *shaking head*  As if that helps others somehow.  Please!  (now I’m laughing – I checked to see how to spell cop-out and the example sentence the dictionary offered was “being ‘average’ is the lazy person’s cop-out”.  Ha.  Imagine how being “humble” / “lowly” is even more of a cop-out.  Not even with it enough to have delusions of adequacy.  lol)

This person also acted like they could just make up whatever definition they wanted for the words they use.  That’s a problem.  It’s been a problem.  Our language has gotten so corrupted.  I told them the goal is to consciously return to the True Vibration of words since that is the energy that words put out.  In essence – say what you mean!  And that’s what we are working with here – energy.  We’re returning to the True Vibration of everything… by stepping out of the illusion.  That includes the illusion and corruption we have created in our words and language.

Hey, I myself have not read the whole dictionary, but I get what I am telling you and have been looking up word origins for years because I want to know what energy I’m working with.

Here’s some fun etymology… I myself often use the term “inner demons”, yes usually in quotes, when what I’m really talking about is disempowering programs in one’s psyche… because I think it’s funny… because some folks, yes, still to this day, actually blame “demons” for everything – their idea of what a “demon” is.  In part, my word usage is “to meet them where they are and take them somewhere new”.

And yet the conventional use of the term “demon” is a “demonization” in and of itself.  Demon comes from daemon which literally means “diety” (or “genius”) which literally means “god”.

There are some derivatives that have to do with “lesser gods / dieties” implying something “between humans and God” (ah, so much to learn from word origins).  This is obviously at least part of the mix-up on this word.  Demon had a suffix added which added the “lesser” part, but then the “lesser” suffix got dropped and yet they kept the “lesser” definition.  And there’s one small example of how language gets corrupted.

And “genius” sounds to me like one’s soul or Divine Intelligence since “genius” is from late Middle English: from Latin, ‘attendant spirit present from one’s birth, innate ability or inclination,’ from the root of gignere ‘beget.’

Ah, so the Bible thumpers ARE right – demons / daemons ARE responsible for everything!  It’s just that “demons” are NOT some “evil” entities like the Bible thumpers have been conditioned to think.  We’re talking about Divine Intelligence here!  YOUR Divine Intelligence.  Yep, you are the Creator of your life and reality… ya little daemon.

We create through our Thoughts, Words and Deeds, so yes, the True Vibration of the words you use will affect you and your creations… whether you are consciously aware of it or not.  You’re never not creating.  You’re always creating.  Do you care to start creating consciously?

This “humility” person said that word meanings were often a point of argument in their comments section.  Huh.  Sounds like other messengers have been sent also.  How many have to be sent before they allow the message to actually sink in?

To help put things in perspective, I told them that we are returning to God (and our True Selves).  In that process we are not changing God (or redefining Him, well, beyond within our own pea brains), we are just stepping out of our illusions of what God is (and what we are).  What we are doing here, in this healing and ascension process, is, yes, “evolution” but it’s more significantly just a RETURN.  We’ve been living in an illusion.  We are just to step out of the illusion and RETURN to our Powerful and Glorious God/dess Selves.

It’s the same with words.  We want to return to the True Vibration of words, not attempt to change their meanings – ‘cuz that’s what we HAVE been doing, which has corrupted our language and distanced us from the Divine, it’s been part of the Separation Paradigm –  but instead learn what the words REALLY mean as opposed to their warped and corrupted “meanings”.

It’s some of what leads to Mastery of Creation.  You work with what God gave you, in its PUREST form, not some twisted form you’d like to apply to it willy nilly, at your whim.  Old paradigm conditioning showing there (hey, tuck that in, nobody needs to see that!)  Kind of the mentality of “If it don’t fit, force it!”… just bend those words to whatever you will them to be rather than surrender over to the Divine essence that permeates all creation.  As I said, this forcing things to our whim is what we HAVE been doing and what a fine mess we made by doing so.

But some think themselves so clever… in all their pea-brain overuse.  “To hell with laws of the Universe, I’m making up my own laws!”  Yeah, how’s that going for ya?  You seem to have great difficulty just knocking out your own healing and ascension process, or even just keeping yourself from being distracted from your process, and yet you think you’re ready to change the whole Universe, eh?  And how?  By not giving a crap about Divine law?  *shaking head*  ‘Cuz you know better than God, right?  So much for “humility” (ya know, in your warped definition of that word, not that THAT quality is warped, but you’re using the wrong word to describe it and sorry honey, as much as you’d like to delude yourself, you are also NOT living your idea of “humility” either).  A few little ego issues to still work out there, eh?  You seem to be getting ahead of yourself a bit.  Perhaps you could Master your own Christhood first, then maybe you can take on creating Universes some other time, well, ya know, other than your own little universe.  Just a suggestion.  lol  Ya know, like some raffles, you need to be present to win.  You’re currently working on being Christed.  Focus on that.  And use the Divine and Universal Laws to help get you there.  Let go of “clever” and actually tap into some INTELLIGENCE!  Use your intuition to actually utilize “God’s brain” if you will, instead of clinging so to your own tiny pea brain.

Someone else had said something about basically leaping to telepathy, as if to say that negates the need to correct our language.  So, it sounded like mastering words / language was a bother to them.  Sounds rather ungrounded to me.  And ah, yeah, this whole adventure is about mastery… of every aspect of your life.  It’s as if they are saying, “I failed 1st grade, so, that means I can continue on to 2nd grade, right?  Or maybe even just take a leap to Senior in high school, ya know… since I failed 1st grade so horribly.”  Uh huh.  Then there’s reality.

Ya know folks, I point you to information (one definition of “light”).  You don’t necessarily have to take up some major study on these things I bring to your attention, but just you actually being OPEN to these things then allows more ways for the Divine to get necessary information to you.

I encourage you all to NOT stop with this post.  Take this topic of the Power of Words and True Vibration of Words to the Divine for some discussion.

How to Create

First and foremost, we create through our Thoughts, Words and Deeds.  You must align your thoughts, words and deeds with your goal.

Energy flows where attention goes.  Wherever you are putting your attention, you are feeding that energy.  Are you sure you’re feeding what you want to feed?

When you think about something, you put energy into it.
When you then talk about it, that puts more energy into it.
When you act on it, that puts even more energy into it.

Emotions and Feelings further fuel or supercharge the Thoughts, Words and Deeds.

Emotions are also, more importantly, closely connected with Spirit.  So being in touch with your Emotions, understanding what they are communicating, will help you align your “Mini-Me” creations with the Divine’s agenda.  THAT is the biggest and best way to utilize your Emotional energy in your creations, is to just allow your Emotions to be the Divine Communication Tool they were meant to be and following the subsequent guidance that comes with that Emotional Communication.  But yes, in this process of self mastery, you’ll need to (re)learn what your Emotions are REALLY telling you.  Might be a bit different than what the programmed version of you thinks.  Ask the Divine for help on understanding your Emotions.

KNOWING that something will happen helps to manifest it.  In part it’s that thing of acting like that which you wish to manifest already exists.  Knowingness.

Expectation holds a space for that which you choose to manifest.

Some say that expectation sets you up for disappointment.  I say – so what if it does!  In the short term it may very well come with some disappointment.  Are you going to squelch your joy and excitement of anticipating that which you care to manifest just for fear of a little disappointment.  (fear.  That means you still have some things to work on.)

FEEL IT!  Feel it ALL!  The excitement of expectation… with a little disappointment from time to time.  What’s so frickin’ scary about feeling a little disappointment?  Ya know… for one who is a Master… or is working on their mastery.

And… by NOT getting excited in expectation of that which you care to create, you are holding back putting energy into that which you want to create.  Why would you do that?

Ah, well, in a slow, dense realm like 3D, yes, it may take a while to manifest something.  Yes, you may have to hold your focus, your energy, your knowingness and your expectation for a very long time.  So do it.  Remember, 3D Earth is the Masters Program, not kindergarten.

You know you can do it.  You’ve BEEN doing it for quite some time now… but what exactly were you “expecting” and hence creating before?  Was it along the lines of “Worry is a prayer for something you don’t want.” ?  You’ve held onto energy for extended periods of time by worrying about something you don’t want and have had plenty of personal experience with manifesting that which you put so much energy and focus on with your worry.  Yep, by this time, you ought to know that you can, have and will again hold the energy, focus, expectation of something long enough to make it manifest.  Now you can actually consciously create what you want instead of unconsciously creating what you don’t want.

When you first start off on your healing and enlightenment path, in your transitioning process, which is 4D, Life and the Divine conspire to demonstrate to you what a powerful creator you are and you may find that as you master your creation abilities, while in 4D transition, you can easily and quickly draw to you what you desire.

But, when you have “completed”, that is, when you have finished your ascension process, what I call being “ascension-ready”, at 5D consciousness levels, but are as yet not totally transitioned to 5D, you will be in 3D still, “in the world and not of it”.  This is your time to serve!  You won’t be manifesting much at all for yourself “out there” in the 3D realm, past supporting your vital signs… and supporting your Service Work.

If you need it, it will be there.  If it’s not there, you must not need it.  If you’re really having to work really super hard for something or every move you make towards something seems to be thwarted, perhaps it’s time to check in with the Divine to find out what you REALLY need.  It may not be what your “Mini Me” pea brain thinks it is.

When you are Complete, first, you’d best serve yourself (in not driving yourself bonkers) and others by aligning your will with Divine Will.  You are here during a planetary ascension.  You are here to help the collective now, sometimes in ways that you could not before your completion.  I can’t emphasize enough – get in alignment with the Divine and your Soul Mission of this Planetary / Collective Ascension… because nothing else matters… AND not much else of anything is going to manifest.  Gaia Portal said something about that recently:  “Egoic creations are ignored.”  If you like exercises in futility / pissing up a rope, then go right ahead and attempt to manifest your personal mansion on the Riviera… when the Divine has other business for you to tend to.

And don’t act like that desired Riviera mansion will somehow demonstrate to your fellow human how joyful you are or advanced or whatever, ‘cuz gee, no spiritually unadvanced people have ever had mansions on the Riveria… right?  Yeah, right.

You are here to demonstrate how you ARE joy, by nature, no matter what your outer circumstances.

Yep, you learned to make yourself your top priority.  The Divine guided you on how to stand on your own two feet, to be an empowered and sovereign being.  Now that you finally and truly know how, it’s now time to serve your fellow human.

It’s time for you to start asking the Divine about THE ASCENSION (the entire project) and not just about your own bidness. Dare I say… time for big kid pants. 🙂

How long can you hold your focus for a collective ascension?  Long enough to make it manifest?

“Making miracles is hard work, most people give up before they happen.”
~ Sheryl Crow – “Maybe That’s Something”

How much of your time, effort, energy, focus will it take?  ALL of it!  No really.  There is nothing else to focus on, to put energy into.  And if you get into the flow of following Divine guidance, you won’t be spinning your wheels or chasing your tail about something that is just not important.  And… you’ll find you have plenty of free time, just for you and your enjoyment, if you just follow guidance.  Acknowledge that everything else that is going on in your life is supporting you in your Soul Mission.


I knew someone who went to Buddhist temple.  They told me that a young zen monk had come to speak with them.  People would ask this monk questions and one thing my friend made a point to tell me about was that after someone asked the monk a question, it was interesting to watch him “access” the Divine, to see the subtle signs as he was “checking in” upstairs and the person who was telling me this was very intuitive themselves.  It was a fairly serious and straight forward discussion.  Then the topic of surrendering to the Divine came up.  The monk said, “Start small – consider giving the Universe 60 / 40.”

Ascension Update 5

God gave me info through Tarot today about The Ascension.

(cards indicated by bolded, bullet points below)

  • Giving and receiving, balancing of polarities.

Ah.  I heard that and thought – Masculine and Feminine.  Balancing and integrating those.

And yes, there seems to be some need for this message now as I observe (am shown) “out there” that some folks want to swing the pendulum from patriarchy to matriarchy.  Nope, not what’s being called for here.  We don’t have time for that Dualistic nonsense.

Time for Balance, Wholeness and Integration.  

And “giving and receiving”…

… for those who saw my last post… everywhere I look I keep coming across this STS / STO crap.  Argh!  I’m being shown just how pounded into lightworkers’ subconscious this “belief system” is.  I had to laugh at the last time I saw it, it was in comments and yet it was to someone that could stand to hear the STO side of this and yet, I know they get the Serving Self concept so just probably dismissed it anyway.  LOL.

But!  Folks!  If you want UNITY, you’ll have to release Duality.  Most especially when it comes down to things which, in this world of Duality, can be expressed as Masculine or Feminine… ya know, everything. lol.  Learn about Duality so you can remove yourself from it… so you can put the pieces together and Unify.

Masculine and feminine energies are not “opposites” but complements, as in “to complete”, they complete each other.  Swinging back and forth between this is “good” and that is “bad” and just flip-flop the this with the that and all is well.  NOT!  You can’t keep wanting to “throw out” or “kill” parts of yourself or exchange this part for that part and expect to be WHOLE and INTEGRATED.

I’d recently interacted with someone who thinks that 4D is about heart and 5D is about mind (*rolling eyes*, sorry, but it just had to be “said”) and that somehow heart is good and mind is bad.  They also recently spoke of swinging from a patriarchy to THOUSANDS OF YEARS OF a matriarchy…. and that ascension to 5D is some grand conspiracy to make us somehow leap over heart and go straight to mind.  *shaking head*  Goodness sakes.

In their reality (don’t make it your reality folks) 4D = Heart = good (not accurate), while 5D = Mind = bad (again, not accurate).  So, they have dissed Dimensions / Densities (Ds) and also themselves in that, clinging to a Dualistic mindset (while they scream to the high heavens about “heart”) that promotes the idea that some Ds are “good”, some “bad” and some parts of self are “good” (heart) and some “bad” (mind).  They are also part of the “Ra Religion” apparently and deem Other to be “good” while Self is “bad”.

Completely clueless.  Clearly demonstrating how steeped in Duality they are… and are NOT consciously aware of that.

This is Duality 101 here… and this person fancies themselves a gnostic.  Me thinks that they found their “esoteric knowledge” (gnosis) in a book (or a few 100) OR perhaps they got it out of a Cracker Jack’s box… and not so esoterically – INWARDLY!  Mmm.  And I am seeing that this person who has served as a good example of a bad example is in “good company”, as in, there are many, MANY more lightworkers who have been caught up in some obviously insidious disempowering belief systems.

  • Be aware of your Words and Intent.

Yep, been getting that whole “Power of Words” theme coming up also.  And it’s all tied together.

Folks, we create through our Thoughts, Words and Deeds.  Mind your words!  Now we’re in Creation 101.  This is as fundamental as it gets.  Get this!

Are you mindlessly parroting something you learned years ago, even when you yourself have, through PERSONAL EXPERIENCE, come to realize that those words you continue to parrot aren’t really so true?  “LIGHTWORKERS” this needs to stop!  If you TRULY want to serve others you’d best be more self-aware than that!  We have enough going on with those who very intentionally want to promote darkness without “lightworkers” mindlessly assisting the cabal agenda (and obviously still operating under the cabal’s programs) by broadcasting far and wide this disempowering nonsense.

  • You are now at a point to reap results from the positive efforts you have made in the past.

Folks, it’s time for some “fine tuning”.  So, SO many of you out there get what I’m telling ya here, but you MUST align your Thoughts, Words and Deeds with your goal if you want to reach your goal.

You all seem to think / feel it’s so very important to get your message out and yet you keep being part of the problem instead of part of the solution, because you are not cleaning up your language to match the housecleaning you’ve done inwardly.  Folks, I shouldn’t have to tell you that it will get downright uncomfortable for you if you don’t align your outward expression with your inner knowingness… and you’re at a point where you can make this SUBTLE BUT VERY PROFOUND shift, this refinement of your energy right now, quickly and thoroughly.


Too Long a Soldier

Dedicated to the Light Warriors.

Did you know soldier comes from a word that literally means “solid” ?!  …which in turn means “safe” and “entire”.

My eyes have seen the glory and the suffering and the pain
I’ve been too long a soldier
Too long, too long a soldier
I’ve been too long a soldier

Rock on Light Beings.

Dress Rehearsal

It’s almost showtime.

There are still many folks out there in the world who are unawakened.  Unawakened to both the mundane and the Heavenly.  They don’t know the truth of the horrors of this world and who has been running it.  They also don’t know the truth about themselves, who they really are.  Life is about to thrust the truth of the world all up in their faces.

They could use your light.

Have you rehearsed?  No really.

Ya know, we can all blabber away online and it’s great that we do document things as we go, never know who it may be useful to down the road.  But for the most part, when we do that, we’re preaching to the choir.  If folks are reading your writings, watching your videos, it’s probably because they are awakened.  Yep, the choir.  There’s really no reason to even have any concern whatsoever about those folks.  They’re on path.  Score!

But the unawakened could use your help.  In many cases, those unawakened souls will not be interacting with you online and through your sites, but in your day to day life, out there, in person.  In some cases it’s just strangers who have a brief interaction with you.

That’s your chance to be the Spiritual Minuteman, the Spiritual Opportunist.  Seize any and every opportunity, no matter how brief, to bring a wee bit more light into someone’s life.  You won’t often get time to have lengthy discussions.  So, how can you get the biggest bang for your buck in your brief interactions with your fellow human?  Have you considered such?  What words will you use?  What concepts will you convey in a sentence or two?

I like to use the following as an example, but your interactions may not involve this topic, but just to give you some idea…

When speaking of those who have been secretly running this world for many years, I like to use the word “cabal”.  Most people who don’t know about the cabal don’t even know that word.  With just that word, you’ve conveyed an awful lot more light / information than you would with, oh, say, “globalist” or “establishment” or the like.  People will probably ask you to repeat the word and they’ll be looking it up first chance they get.  You just shifted their paradigm with one word.

We silly lightworkers often like to use little one-liner wisdom tidbits, such as “Energy flows where attention goes”, “What we resist persists”, “We create through our Thoughts, Words, and Deeds”, “The only way out is in”, “If you need it, it will be there. If it’s not there, you must not need it”, even things like “What you think of me is none of my business”, etc.  You know, things that stick with people much like advertisement jingles, little lines that make them think, perhaps even set them back on their heels.  What tiny wisdom tidbits do you have that you like to share?

What other ways can you “meet” folks “out there”, get their attention, create an excuse to share some light?  My old “Fire the Grid” T-shirts (I have two) always have and still do get people’s attention and often inquiry.  I can get totally “left field” on ’em at that point.  😉  lmao  Back when I was consuming books, often being in the middle of half a dozen at a time, I would almost always have a book with me wherever I went, including sitting at the bar… whether I actually read any of it or not and I made sure I held the cover up or laid it facing up so that people could read the often very interesting book title.  It very often resulted in some very fun, interesting and Spiritual-Opportunist conversations.

Folks, get ready.  BE ready.  Ask the Divine to help prepare you to be the ultimate in Spiritual Minutemen.  Uber Spiritual Opportunists.



I’m going to invite you to (re)read my Service to Self, Service to Others post.

There are WAY too many lightworkers out there who are still MINDLESSLY (and I don’t mean that in a good way in this case, sometimes it IS good to “lose one’s mind”, but…) parroting this “Ra Material” (and how many other channeled ETs) nonsense about STS / STO.

As someone who wrote a book with the subtitle “Top Priority: Self”, I just can’t stomach all these lightworkers putting out such DARK and disempowering nonsense as to even imply or allow someone to infer (which would be easy to do when using such lingo as STS / STO) that Serving Self is somehow “bad” in some way.  So, SO disempowering.  AHH!

If you get where I’m coming from, please help me call all these lightworkers on the carpet about the silly, dysfunctional and disempowering notions they are putting out there.  Oh Heavens, send them this post!  GAWD but this sh*t is frickin’ old!

What sits in the back of my mind as I write this is… years ago, Byron Katie wrote that she had never been much of a spiritual person and yet she’s always lived by “Love thy neighbor as thyself.”  Problem was – she didn’t love herself.  As drag queen Ru Paul says, “If ya can’t love yourself, how the hell ya gonna love somebody else?”  Indeed.

Below is a comment I left someone recently.  They received it well and they understand what I am saying… but they could stand to clean up their language.

“With the choice of Creating reality through either the perception of STO or STS.”

I have to call b.s. on the STS / STO bidness.

First, this whole either / or thing is very dualistic, limiting and not reality. “We leave a more “dualistic” view behind…” Actually not. The whole STS / STO nonsense IS dualistic. Others are “good”, self is “bad” nonsense. You even speak of them as being “polarities.” *shaking head* Purdy darned dualistic.

The truth of the matter is, the goal you are shooting for is TO SERVE, period, whether self or other. But PRIORITIES matter.

I told someone else this the other day:

“The whole concept that Service to Self is bad in some way is some of the most disempowering programming running on this planet, even before Ra (and a whole host of other ETs started talking this STS / STO nonsense) and above the veil also as ETs didn’t get it right either.

ETs needed to learn some things about these things. They have. Unfortunately, many of the “Ra Material” RELIGION followers cling very dogmatically to their religion and belief system… and that OLD, outdated (ya know, since ETs have learned some since then) Ra Material… and they have their priorities screwed up because of their Ra Material / STS-STO be-lie-fs.

In this regard, the flight attendant has much better info than Ra does as the flight attendant wisely advises to… put on your own oxygen mask before assisting others with theirs… because that’s the proper order of things.”

See more here:
“In reality, TRULY serving self is actually what best enables one TO serve others.”

I’ve understood AND LIVED this prioritization, putting self first, for many years and it is what has ENABLED me TO serve at the high level that I have. I had and still have my priorities straight.

*name*, from what else you’ve written, here and elsewhere, I know you get what I’m saying. But we create through our Thoughts, Words, and Deeds and anything that even implies, even if just initially or whatever, that serving self is bad is the kind of thing that would make me say a line that people often say to children who cuss – “Language!” It’s kinda along the same lines as Christians saying “God-fearing”. Again, “Language!”

Don’t take my word on this, just let me provide you with the next question you can take to the Divine… over this STS / STO nonsense.

“The only “constant” in Creation is “change”.” Perhaps it’s high time to change up your language concerning such.

Also, just to say… my focus right now is on those who are new or yet to awaken to the whole ascension thing and first impressions mean a lot. I have been familiar with this whole STS / STO mentality (if you will) for many years and yet at first glance, first impression it’s just reinforcing Joe Average’s disempowering program of putting Other above Self. They really don’t need help with that.


Love Alive

“Love Alive”

The sky was dark this morning
When I raised my head
I stood at the window
Darkness was my bane

Suddenly a sunbeam arc
Thrilled me to my weary heart
It was the prettiest thing I’d ever seen

I knew I had to keep my love
Keep my love alive
Keep my love – keep my love alive

Baby I want you to roll me
Hold me in your love
No more habits, promises and jive

Ever since I was a baby girl
Wanted one thing most in this world
It was to keep my love –
Keep my love alive

I gotta keep my love –
Keep my love alive
Keep my love – keep my love alive

You’re up there under the spotlight
Your silver trophy shines
With all you got, my lord!
You must get high

You need a whole lot more than money
You need more than to survive
You gotta keep your love
Keep your love alive


Or Luci… for short.  🙂

Excerpt from Awake & Aware – Top Priority: Self :

Demonization of Lucifer

This leads us now into how Lucifer, the light bearer has been demonized. For a good, concise history of the term Lucifer, see:

The term Lucifer was only used in the Bible once. It was in reference to a fallen Babylonian king, not a fallen angel or an “angel” of any sort. Lucifer is Latin for “light bearer / bringer.” Latin. So of course that wouldn’t be in an old Hebrew manuscript. In the Hebrew text the expression used to describe the Babylonian king before his death is Helal, son of Shahar, which can best be translated as “Day star, son of the Dawn.” (As the afore mentioned article states “The name evokes the golden glitter of a proud king’s dress and court much as his personal splendor earned for King Louis XIV of France the appellation, “The Sun King”). So when translated into Latin, yes the term Lucifer meaning “light bearer” would be a good choice. Amazing that “the light bearer / bringer” morphed into the Prince of Darkness. Hilarious actually.

Lucifer is associated with the planet Venus as it is the brightest thing in the sky past the Sun and Moon. More specifically, it is Venus when it is the Morning Star, low in the east in the morning. When Venus is the Evening Star, low in the west in the evening, it is called Vesper. Fundamentalist Christians could stand to note that the Bible has Jesus referencing himself as the morning star. I would guess that the concept of Jesus being a “fallen angel” wouldn’t sit well in a fundamentalist Christian mind. The symbology, in this case, is more about an awakening of consciousness than anything else.

The planet Venus is the lightbringer, the first radiant beam that does away with the darkness of night. It is a symbol of the development of the divine light in man, for the first awakening of self-consciousness, for independent thinking and the real application of free will. It means the bringing of the light of compassionate understanding to the human mind. In this broader view the connection of the morning star with Jesus makes good sense, because compassion is the essence of Jesus’ teaching.

From “Some Light on Lucifer” by Ina Beldris

The metaphor of Lucifer being applied to the Babylonian king had to do with him thinking he could rise above God. Little ‘g’ god perhaps? What “god” are we talking about here? A jealous one perhaps not the One True God?  

Regardless, this was word play to do with the fact that since Venus is in an inferior / lower orbit than Earth, we never see it traverse across the sky as the Sun and Moon do.   So it could not rise as high as those two orbs. The king could not rise as high as God / god.

So, somewhere over time, through translations, the idea of an evil fallen angel was concocted. I’m not sure that this was all that unintentional. Since Lucifer ultimately meant Venus as the Morning Star and Venus represents feminine energy, then perhaps those wanting to maintain the imbalance of the patriarchy may very well have been demonizing feminine energy.

The icon of “the devil” is also a conglomeration of feminine symbols and “connection” symbols put together. How ‘bout them there horns. Michelangelo made his statue of Moses with horns. Some say this is a misinterpretation but I can see it may be a very intentional use of the Language of the Birds (the Green Language). The horns represent the connection to spirit. According to the Wikipedia entry for Michelangelo’s Moses:

The mistake in translation is possible because the word “keren” in the Hebrew language can mean either “radiated (light)” or “grew horns”.

Another interesting interpretation of these horns can be found online in the article called Moses and Those ‘Horns’ by Eloise Hart. An excerpt from that article:

Here possibly is where the idea of horns originates. For in the Mystery language horns are the sign of the successful neophyte, of one who has passed the dread tests of initiation and quite literally touched divinity.

The red of the devil represents the bride or sexual feminine energy. (White would represent the pure youthful sister feminine energy and blue would be the old wise woman feminine energy. Huh. Red, white and blue.) So, gee, two birds with one stone there – demonize women and sex by making “the devil” red. It’s my understanding, decades ago, the Vatican admitted that “the devil” icon was of their own making. Not that that admission helps much to undo the damage done since this icon has become “common knowledge”, never mind untrue common knowledge.

The corrupted use of the term Lucifer has most certainly, over time, become it’s own entity in the collective conscious, a rather nasty entity, but a rather universal meme at this point. This situation reminds me of a sci-fi book I read years ago called Cirque. It was millennia in Earth’s future and the city of Cirque sat on the edge of an abyss. The citizens dumped their garbage into the abyss along with willing all their “sins” into it as well. After many years something started to grow there and it was rather nasty. Our story reminds me of that novel because in our ignorant and veiled state we have dumped our crap onto an entity we’ve dreamed up named Lucifer. OUR crap. Nothing quite like shifting responsibility. And we’ve done it for so long that the story of that character has grown into something quite nasty. If there were any “fallen angels” here it would be us. We Earth humans. Stuck under a Sea of Glass as William Henry tells of. And just like a glass ceiling, this Sea of Glass is there but we can’t see it. And yet awareness of it plays a huge role in our ability to pass through it. We can regain that connection to spirit, grow our horns if you will, by becoming aware of that veil, that Sea of Glass.

In this discussion I can’t help but talk about angels in general. And interesting that Lucifer would be considered an angel. I’ve often wondered if angels are really entities or would it be more accurate to say they are energies. Then tying such symbols to math, are archangels the same as arc angles. Angels are supposedly here to serve human kind. Perhaps in our dense state of being we have such a tough time wrapping our minds and hearts around what angels are that we’ve collectively personified them as a way to tap into that energy. We can utilize that energy by calling on our personified image of them.

What’s interesting for me concerning Lucifer is that the collective idea / creation of what Lucifer is never resonated with me. I understand the Hebrews never have considered there to be some “devil” type entity. I’d have to say I’m with ‘em on that count.

If I were to personify Lucifer it would be like this: Lucifer anchors the world of polarity and duality, basically the world of illusion or Maya as some cultures call it. And also Free Will, so we can have the experiences we choose to have here. He does what he does because we asked him to. An ungrateful job for sure since we don our veils, cross the river of forgetfulness and check in here with little to no memory of setting up this whole video game ourselves.

And in this personification, Lucifer, the Light Bearer is there to catch us when we reach a low point. Even if we go so deep into darkness that we drop out the bottom, we still end up in a place of light, in the Light Bearer’s arms. Hey, as long as we’re dreaming things up and creating our own reality, how’s about we make it a good one.

And associating Satan with Lucifer has never sat well with me either. The article Some Light on Lucifer by Ina Beldris had this to say:

There is yet another reason why it makes no sense to read the Devil into Isaiah 14: the traditional role of Satan in the Old Testament. Satan comes from the Hebrew satan, which means “opponent” or “adversary.” According to Strong’s Concordance, this word appears in 1 Chronicles, Job, Psalms, and in Zechariah. In Psalms “satan” is used both in the plural (accusers) and in the indefinite sense (an accuser). In Chronicles and Zechariah its usage is ambiguous, while in Job “satan” as The Accuser appears only in the first two of its 42 chapters. It is important, however, to keep in mind that the texts of the Old Testament did not reach their “final” version until after the Babylonian exile. Before this exile there is no evidence in Hebrew scriptures of an Accuser as a force that opposes God, and even after the exile it is still doubtful. Though the story of Job is very old, its final version is dated after the exile, after the Hebrews came into contact with the dualist Zoroastrian religion with its god of good and its god of evil.

Yes, the dualist Zoroastrian religion. So we’re talking from Persia (Iran) which is next to the area of Sumeria / Babylon (Iraq). Now we’re back to Enki and Enlil who account for “God’s” (more like gods’) schizophrenia in the Old Testament, which may have been built, in part, from Sumerian texts if you trace it back far enough. Enlil was the one that wanted to use Enki’s newly designed human beings as a slave race. He also very much wanted to keep humans in the dark about divinity, technology and pretty much anything beyond what the five senses can detect. So, ah yeah, I could see how the people living under that rule could view that as evil and also how Enlil could fit the role of “Satan” as “accuser” and “adversary.”

Dodging the Arrows

A while back, someone had said something to this effect: “No one talks about the consequences of shining one’s light.”


Make no mistake folks, when you bring light to a world of darkness, your light creates chaos.  Creates it.  No doubt about it.  I chuckle at all the lightworkers who talk like chaos is “bad” or undesirable in some way.  Creating chaos is the reason why we’re here.  We didn’t come here to “fit in”.  We sure as hell didn’t come here to just leave everything to continue going down the destructive path it had been on.

Dual meaning of Chaos = Crisis or Opportunity.  Which do you choose?

Yep, people’s “little demons” will be SO ticked and yep, they may lash out at you.  Your light is shining into another person’s darkness, stirring the pot.  And that IS desirable.  By stirring their pot, your light has provided them an opportunity to see all that sludge at the bottom of their pot, to give them half a chance to know they have some healing work to do.  And I say “your light” as opposed to “you” stirring their pot because there’s a good chance that you may not even have to say or do anything with some folks, just being in the same room might be plenty enough.

And yep, their darkness will come out and shoot arrows at you.


Like the second of “The Four Agreements”:

2. Don’t Take Anything Personally
Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won’t be the victim of needless suffering.

Those arrows flying at you are not about you.  The “archer” may not be consciously aware of that… but you can be.  Now that you know, there is no reason FOR YOU to allow it to be about you, ‘cuz it’s not.

Don’t engage with them from the same re-active energy that they are.  As an old friend and their spouse used to say about arguments “Remember the rule – only one crazy person at a time.”

And I say “from the same energy” because your INTENTIONAL ENERGY is what matters.  You may or may not engage in discussion with someone.  And ya just might even “speak their language” right back at them.  If someone comes at me speaking *sshole-eze, (like Chinese), well, I figure that’s the language they understand.  And hey, I just happen to be fluent in *sshole-eze… lucky for them.  Speaking “their language” may not always be what’s called for, but sometimes it is just the thing to actually get their attention.  Just be present and flow with your intuition.

But regardless, even if speaking *sshole-eze to someone, I come from a different energy, a different Intention and you can bet I’m coming from a conscious intention while their re-active energy is more often than not unconscious, although even if someone may be aware of their issues and triggers, if they are still getting triggered then they have some work to do.

And that Intentional energy matters.  Your Intention is the biggest part of your whole exchange with people.  And don’t think they won’t detect the difference.  They might even do so consciously.

Perhaps at that point in the interaction a wry smile :-/ (breaking the “dead pan” gaze 😐 ) or a wink would be in order.  😉

Let their arrows fly right on by and just beam love at this person.  Yeah, easier said than done.  Do it anyway.  lol

And right there is an example of “re-sponding” rather than “re-acting” (acting as you have before).  I often think of re-spond like “transpond” – take the incoming energy and transform / transmute it before sending it back out.

If you do “allow” others’ arrows to hit you, then you know that you yourself have more to work on, if you’re still taking THEIR schtuff personally.

And when such things no longer bother you, you’ll know you’ve reached quite a milestone in your healing and self-empowerment process.  Let’s toast that achievement in advance.  Cheers!

For the Love of Big Brother

See that old timeline sailing by.  “Like a train passing in the distance… “

The bullet dodged.  Before ya know it, it’ll be far in our rear view mirror.  Just a few speed bumps between here and there.

Let’s celebrate the passing of the Orwellian timeline… while we can still see it… eh?

Skin Problems

I’ve recently had a case of psoriasis.  It’s not typical for me to have skin issues.  I know some lightworkers have had skin issues as they work through their process and I’ve felt for ’em and figured it had to suck.  I’ve now had my small taste of it and yep, it’s been confirmed – it sucks.

So, I thought I’d bother to document my experience here, one of the biggest reasons being to demonstrate to the newbies how this whole Divine guidance thing works.  You may not get your guidance in exactly the same way as I do but nevertheless perhaps this will help ya get the flavor of it.  Intuition and paying attention play major roles.

… and also to provide some physical-level / nutritional info that may help some folks.  Frankly, I do believe I found the smoking gun on this one and I’ve been my own lab rat for this.


So… I got the psoriasis, mostly on my right hand, ring finger, but also a bit more across my index and middle finger and my pinky knuckle and one tiny patch on my left index finger.

Me being me, I wanted first to know the energy behind this.  So the following comes from Louise Hay’s book “Heal Your Body”, which describes the thought energy (Probable Cause) behind physical ailments (Problem) and provides an affirmation (New Thought Pattern) to repeat and remind yourself of the new energy you’d like to take on.

  • Problem:  Psoriasis
  • Probable Cause:  Fear of being hurt.  Deadening the senses of the self.  Refusing to accept responsibility for our own feelings.
  • New Thought Pattern:  I am alive to the joys of living.  I deserve and accept the very best in life.  I love and approve of myself.  

The probable cause didn’t resonate all so much here, but I have had relationship stuff on my mind – past, present and future – and that’s what shows up here throughout, so yeah, I get it.  But regardless, I’m absolutely on board with the new thought pattern for sure.

Many more components to this though, some of which did absolutely resonate as far as the current thought and emotional energy I had going on, not necessarily that the thoughts were chronic or problematic but just happened to be the thought energy at the time when I first got the psoriasis so I look at it as those thoughts determined where the outward symptom would appear, even though it runs deeper nutritionally (see later on), but we’ll look at a few components:

  • Problem:  Right Side of Body
  • Probable Cause:  Giving out, letting go, masculine energy, men, the father.
  • New Thought Pattern:  I balance my masculine energy easily and effortlessly.    

The part here that resonated a bit – Giving out, letting go – giving and letting go, like with new and old relationships respectively.

I’m not too focused on the whole masculine energy thing here because I’ve had a repetitive-stress fracture at the base of my left thumb for quite some time.  At the physical level, that has to do with picking up a laptop computer too many times over too many (ascension-hell) years and perhaps not in the most proper way.  I’ve adjusted things in that regard and it’s not been doing too bad but I did something to it again here recently so I’ve been putting arnica on that.  Then one day I jump up to save the pot on the stove that was threatening to boil over and hey, I’m not used to moving very fast for years now, and I slammed my left-hand ring-finger knuckle into the corner of the doorway.  lol  So, if I have masculine / feminine things going on it’s obviously at least balanced.  lol  But I can so relate this back to relationships.  So, we’ll cover that side too:

  • Problem:  Left Side of Body
  • Probable Cause:  Represents receptivity, taking in, feminine energy, women, the mother.
  • New Thought Pattern:  My feminine energy is beautifully balanced.

So now, hands:

  • Problem:  Hands
  • Probable Cause:  Hold and handle. Clutch and grip. Grasping and letting go.  Caressing. Pinching.  All ways of dealing with experiences.  
  • New Thought Pattern:  I choose to handle all my experiences with love, with joy and with ease.  

And fingers, specifically the ring finger where I had the worst patch of psoriasis:

  • Problem:  Ring finger
  • Probable Cause:  Represents unions and grief. 
  • New Thought Pattern:  I am peacefully loving.

This resonates to do with releasing old relationships and embracing new ones.

And Louise also said that a rash is about frustration over delays.  Yep, I’ll definitely buy that one.  Try as I might to just be present and yep “look forward to… ” a wonderful future, I’m just so ready to move on!  I’ve got my beloved on the other end of a telepathic connection, which is wonderful, but I’d just love to get to them in person already and move on with my / a life.  But yep, enjoying some things lately that I haven’t been able to for years – getting out ‘n about to walk, get fresh air and sunshine, to dine out, hit a happy hour or two.  Ah, semblances of a life again.  And I flow with it as I know that not only is this enjoyable in the moment, but it’s preparing me for the future, ya know, when I have a life at levels like never before!  Easing me back in.


So now, onto the physical level.  My default for research on physical-level causes of ailments is always “nutrient deficiencies”.  That went in my search engine along with “psoriasis”.  What I came across that resonated (getting confirmation from the Divine by using my dowsing rod, my best “yes / no” answer tool) was zinc deficiency.

So some things I found out:

  • Zinc is a trace mineral we need.  Don’t need much but do need it.
  • Zinc is a common deficiency in humans due to modern agricultural practices, mainly chemical fertilizers.
  • Zinc and copper compete for absorption, so too much of one can deplete the other and sources of copper that people don’t think of are water pipes and copper cookware.  We need both copper and zinc but need the proper ratios.  Vegetarians / vegans (not me, but just fyi) will be even more susceptible to copper buildup and hence zinc deficiency.
  • Zinc can be depleted from the body from stress.  (Gee, like the stress of ascending a planet, ya mean like that?  lol  And, in my case, a few self-induced physical-level stresses as you’ll soon read)
  • The body has no way to store zinc so you must get it through food on a regular basis.
  • Zinc is involved with hair and skin and also wound healing.

Some info on psoriasis and zinc deficiency.

And some info  different forms of zinc supplements, to see which are most absorbable, etc.

More info on zinc here and here.

And here I’d like to say “keep reading” (a ways down) because I just had personal experience with one of the biggest causes for nutrient deficiencies of all sorts…


These things below I do occasionally but it was now time to do them daily until I healed.

I took multivitamins (which had some zinc but not much), liver support supplements, antioxidants, some immune support herbs and magnesium (which is also a common deficiency and aids in absorption of some other minerals and nutrients) for a week before I finally got my hands on a zinc supplement.  Had a bit of a mini-detox due to all that.  After I got the zinc I did other supplements only when guided to.

I also took vitamin E, which is always good any time you need to heal and it’s used by the body for repairing damaged skin.

I started doing pumpkin seeds and kefir daily.  The first kefir I had was non-dairy made from cashew milk and the cashews were helpful also.

I did flax oil daily.

I took baths with epsom salt (magnesium), sea salt and eucalyptus essential oil.

Best my skin has felt in an overall way for quite some time due to all of the above.  Ah, a good dose of self nurturing.  My elbows, knees and knuckles are no longer dry.

I used some (very old, lol) polysporin (that my roomy had) on the worst of my psoriasis with a band aid and it helped it feel better.  I noticed one of the components in it was bacitracin zinc, which is an antibiotic actually made from bacteria… but, ah yeah, zinc.  May be something to that, but it was also helpful to just have some salve of some sort on it to soften the skin and open the pores so it could drain, which made it stop itching.


During the ascension-hell years (starting early, like 2010 or so) I have gotten quite a few moles and skin tags.  I’ve not had much luck at finding what that was about.  I’ve found some info that a potassium deficiency can contribute to that, but that has not resonated and I eat a lot of high-potassium foods (mostly tomatoes and avocados) and God wasn’t telling me that was the issue either.  So, if I continue with the zinc, I’ll be curious to see if that clears up also.  I know that fruit seeds / pits like the “bitter almond” from apricot pits can and do help with such but I’ve just not gotten to that yet.

I’d smoked tobacco (natural, hand-rolled cigars, not too bad as far as tobacco goes) for 3 years between 2012 and 2015, purely for something to do during the ascension-hell years as I’m really not a tobacco smoker, just got completely bored outta my gourd in an outward way as I had been a human-antenna, shut-in and isolated, exhausted… and bored… for too many years.  My body finally had enough of that tobacco thing though and made itself clear on that one.  I went for about 5 months without smoking then started to smoke some wacky tobaccy, so been doing that for over 2 years now.  It has been no where’s near as harsh on me as tobacco.  Throughout all of the smoking, my throat and lungs haven’t hurt, I’ve had no problem breathing, don’t often cough, but nevertheless I knew I’d asked a bit much of my throat and lungs in recent years and would have to say that even though they’ve been working fine, they did feel a bit raw at times and mucousy (excuse my Buffy-ism, lol).

Seemed like I’d remembered there was a lung-skin connection so I looked that up.  See here.  And that says the spleen is tied in also.  I have reason to think I may have had mononucleosis about a decade ago and my spleen hasn’t been completely well since, even though I do astragalus and GSE (grapefruit seed extract) semi-regularly, both of which help a lot but it’s not completely gone away.

My hair is fairly gray too and I’ve been taking some Fo Ti / He Shou Wu for that but wasn’t real religious about it until recently and yet, here again, has the zinc been the missing piece?  I do see that Fo Ti is a good source of zinc and other goodies.  I got gray hair at the temples at midlife / Uranus opposition and took Fo Ti for several months and it went away.  It was not as gray as it is now though and again… hmm… that zinc thing.

Some of my passing thoughts as this all went on:

  • For years I’ve known that outward symptoms indicate inward problems.
  • I thought of an anti-smoking poster I’d seen years ago in a high school that showed the portrait of a teenager with what was perhaps tar and nicotine all over their face and it said, “What if your outside looked like your inside?  Would you still smoke?”  I looked at my hand – yep, again, outward symptoms of inward problems.


In late 2014, which I found out later, was when the Divine quit using me for energetic service work, I could tell I wasn’t being used for energetic service work anymore but my physical energy wasn’t bouncing back.  6 months later, since I didn’t know how long my car would last, I started shopping at a natural food store that was more local.  One of their specialties was sandwiches, which I started to indulge in.  I have also kept bread around, which was unheard of for me for many years.  I have eaten more gluten and dairy in the last 2 1/2 + years than I had for many years.

Gluten and dairy (and also soy and corn) have casein in them, which is what glues are made out of, and they coat the beginning of your small intestines (duodenum), which is where you would normally absorb the bulk of the nutrients from your food, but the casein prevents nutrient absorption.  

All old news to me.  Prior to this, for many years, my gluten and dairy consumption was reserved for all-natural desserts (eaten away from other food) or perhaps a time or two per month I’d go out for breakfast and just break all the rules.  These things were not gone from my life, they were just a rare treat.

But after 6 months of not doing energetic service work and yet not bouncing back in my personal energy, just completely used up, I was just fed up with being exhausted and stuck in a holding pattern waiting for others to step up and relieve us – and in no way was I anticipating then that I’d still be here almost 3 years later waiting for the 2nd wave to step up enough to allow for the 1st wave’s ascension – not to mention pretty bored with my ascension-hell existence, so comfort food seemed like just as good a choice as any.  lol

So, that all was obviously catching up to me… and time getting away from me – time being so very meaningless by this point and yet I still have to deal with time to some degree even when “in the world and not of it”.  I’d done a Tarot reading somewhere in all this and one message that came out was that I “lost my grounding”.  Grr.  In the world and not of it and yet have always been well grounded.  I so blew it.  lol  I guess after years of intense energetic service work, I figured I deserved an extended “treat” but it don’t work that way.  And sadly, silly brain-dead me, it took me asking the question over and over “Why did the deficiency happen and when?” before it hit me – oh duh!  I’ve been eating gluten and dairy regularly FOR YEARS!  O.M.G.

Nothing quite like using myself as a guinea pig… to essentially be a good example of a bad example.   😐  *face palm*  And yet 3 years of throwing my hands up in regards to food still hasn’t done the number on me that 4 years of intense energetic service work did.

In the last year or so, I’ve also started to do quite a bit of iced tea.  Through the years I always had bottled iced tea around, but on average might do one single-serving bottle every other day.  Well, I was up to a quart / day, every day and usually with my food.  Not good.  This is like so many areas in my life where I have come full circle… back around… to where I never was in the first place – I’ve never been a huge iced tea drinker, but hey, I was just twiddling my thumbs anyway so might as well have an experience or two while I’m still here.  lol  Gawd.  So now I find out that coffee and tea, especially when drank with your food, can block zinc absorption.  It’s recommended to wait at least 30 minutes after eating to drink coffee or tea.  If you insist on drinking tea with your meal, consider putting lemon in it, the vitamin C in the lemon will help you absorb zinc and other nutrients.  

I’d say that most everything I’m telling you about here played a role in my manifestation of psoriasis, but these last things I’ve mentioned – gluten, dairy and tea with food – I’m sure are the biggest factors.  And those are the same factors that play into MANY people’s ill health.  Our bodies can put up with a whole hell of a lot – smoking, pollution, etc. – IF we fuel them properly.  It’s kinda tough for our amazing 3D carbon-based bodies to work their wonders when we aren’t getting enough nutrients or eat things that block nutrient absorption.

So… I’ll be cleaning my act up again.  Groan.  I must say it was nice to “let my hair down” concerning food for a while.  It wasn’t good for my physical health but I must say it’s been enjoyable to eat…oh, I don’t know… a grilled cheese sandwich… and just not care.

And it’s been enjoyable to eat better again also.  Just had some out-of-the-ordinary experiences to shake it all up a bit.


Then what may have been what really pushed me past the tipping point is that I had been shopping at natural food stores, but the local place closed for a couple years while their building is replaced… then my car broke down (*shaking head*) so I’ve been walking locally and scrounging what I can.  One local store is attempting to cater to the natural-food-store customers so has taken on more natural, organic products but it’s taken a while for them to make that shift and I’ve eaten out more than I have for years and also eaten more stuff with refined sugar in it than I have for years.  I’m sure I saw a nitrate or nitrite or two also, amongst other bad nasty food additives.

My teeth got plaque for the first time in years because of the conventional food.  I’d also been using Alex Jones’ “Super Blue” toothpaste recently since my roomy and I have been testing out his products, which was great as far as my gums went (and tooth problems as old fillings are falling out and I see that the barbarian dentists had drilled my teeth down to where there was almost more filling than tooth), but I had to go back to brushing with baking soda to combat the plaque.  And my teeth were staining too, which again had not been happening for years and during the ascension-hell years I was so not brushing my teeth every day, too exhausted, and yet still didn’t get plaque and staining when I was eating pristinely and brushing with baking soda.  I’ve done sweets my whole life but when I can shop at a natural food store I can get desserts made with whole, raw sugar.  Totally different thing.


One day I was searching the internet for something completely unrelated – because this is how these things work, accidents never happen – and came across an article from about 15 years ago from a chiropractor.  I was so supposed to read it because it truly had nothing to do with what I was searching for but I was so drawn to it and completely sucked in by it.

One thing this chiropractor spoke of was – if you have some symptoms of something and you are treating it and doing so properly – like taking the right supplements for a nutrient deficiency – and yet the symptoms aren’t going away quickly, it may be because those particular symptoms are not the only things going on, but just the ones that you can see or are most bothered by, but it may not be the most urgent thing that needs tending to – again, outward symptoms of inward problems.

They also said that the body will go into triage mode and address the most urgent thing first, but will not fully heal one body part then move onto the next, but instead will go back and forth.  They gave the example of something that was adversely affecting both kidneys and heart, but kidneys more so, so they get top priority, but it makes no sense for the body to fully heal the kidneys 100% only to have the heart give out a few days later.  The body will tend to the kidneys long enough to stabilize them then do some work on the heart… because now it’s the heart that is the most urgent since the kidneys did get some healing.


So that message was brought to me before I got the zinc supplements.  When I started taking the zinc, I knew I was getting better right away but there was definitely an ebb and flow of things, two steps forward, one step back kinda thing.

I’ve been taking the zinc for just 2 weeks today and for the last two days I have seen a major breakthrough happening.

First, I couldn’t help but notice that my throat and lungs feel better and cleaner than they have for years (the problems developed slowly but the healing is happening fast and I can’t help but notice the difference).  Ah, yes, healing the inward issues.  And I’m still currently doing the wacky tobaccy and yet my lungs are quite happy to use the zinc for healing anyway.

A couple days ago my psoriasis had seemingly turned the corner and stopped with the ebb and flow and was just continually getting better.  The inflammation stopped happening and the skin just needed to finish healing, which I am observing happening by leaps and bounds.

I’ve felt a bit lethargic in the last couple days and sense it is because my body is putting on a big healing push.  God confirms.


So, bottom line, for me, the psoriasis was caused by a zinc deficiency, which was caused by eating too much gluten, dairy and tea, especially due to consuming all of this with (or too close to) food as these all serve to block nutrient absorption.

See Healing – Physical for more info.


Hope that helps some folks.  Not a fun experience, but my body did what was necessary to communicate to me – the body never lies – and I did my part by listening to it and the Divine and following their guidance.

The Lie of Omission

… and related ways of duping, manipulating and oppressing humans that the global cabal have used… such as revisionist history.

Yep, just like Winston Smith’s job, in George Orwell’s “1984”, working as a reviser of history at the Ministry of Truth.

“Those who control the present, control the past and those who control the past control the future.”  ~  George Orwell

Yep, if you have control over information in the present, you can change the way that people see the past.  That then steers their creative energies in a certain direction and hence determines the future.


Hmmm… let’s start here… someone online said something that got me thinking.  What I got out of it had nothing to do with the angle this person was coming from and yet a significant point came from what they asked.

So, the setting is this current world situation where cabal stooges (both the knowingly so and also the unwitting) use race-baiting as some of their latest “divide & conquer” tactics.  There was discussion of race going on in some online forum and I feel that this person asking the following genuinely could not understand how we got from point A to point B on this.  Yeah, I hear that.

So, what this person online said was something to this effect:

“Any European could tell you that Spanish people, i.e. people from Spain are white.  How is it then that the “hispanic” suddenly become “people of color” when they are from the Americas / Latin America?”  

Yes, why indeed would someone of Spanish ancestry be considered “brown” or a “person of color” and yeah, just because they were in / from “Latin” America (again relating back to Spanish)?

Now, there is certainly a bit of blurring of lines and meanings since many times “hispanic” refers to people who speak Spanish and yet that somehow gets blurred into an ethnicity in some way.  Sorry, but if some blonde-haired, blue-eyed Scandahoovian were to speak to me in Spanish, I wouldn’t then call them “hispanic”… would you?

And yet, can any of us truly deny that there are plenty of Latin Americans who are not creamy white.  Nope, they indeed are brown, which the cabal stooges with all their race-baiting / divide & conquer so love to point out… and yet these Latin Americans are repeatedly labeled as “hispanic”.

Do I really need to point out that their “brown” skin, in most cases, comes from American Indians of various tribes?  Kind of a “duh” isn’t it?

And yet, even though we are constantly reminded of their “non-white” status, we also keep hearing them being called “hispanic” – the emphasis is on their European ancestry not on their American ancestry… which is what gives them the brown color.  I guess the cabal stooges are kinda getting mixed up on all their deceptions and kinda giving themselves away.  Yes, dear cabal, why ARE the “Latin” Americans “brown” and why don’t you ever reference THAT ethnicity?  If they are purely Spanish, they would not be brown and if they are brown there’s more going on there than just pure Spanish… but we’re to call them hispanic.  Obviously too many lies for the liars to keep track of.


Also, all this hubbub about sports teams having supposedly “derogatory” American Indian names… well, first, I sincerely doubt that most Joe Average American Indians even give a crap at all, let alone are offended by sports teams having American Indian referenced nicknames / mascots.  Perhaps only “liberal”-college-educated American Indians have a beef with such.

But I’d like to make you all think about some things here.  Ok, let’s just go with this idea that these team nicknames / mascots actually are derogatory in some way.  Fine and well, then change the stinking names.  But I’ve yet to hear of anyone actually proposing that those (supposedly) “derogatory” American Indian references be replaced with another American Indian reference that held them in a better light.  Nope.  No proposals of that… only of just ERASING any reference to American Indians.

Nothing new to that concept.  See video I left in comments on America for more on how the cabal have done their best to hide / erase any evidence of American Indians even existing in some cases or being anything other than “savages” in other cases (and also some evidence of the Anunnaki being in the Americas).


Sadly, the brainwashing and revisionist history does seem to work.  Here’s a story.  About a decade ago, I met this person who is Puerto Rican.  In our conversation, the Mayans came up.  I said something about how the cabal have people thinking that the Mayans were all killed off or otherwise “disappeared” from the face of the Earth somehow.  I said there are still Mayans in the world.

This Puerto Rican said, “Funny you should say that…” and proceeded to tell me… years ago, when they lived in Puerto Rico, they had a friend in Florida who wanted to move to Seattle and planned on packing up their car and taking the long drive.  The Floridian asked their Puerto Rican friend if they would come over to Florida and take that long drive with them.  Yep.

So they were driving through Montana and saw a sign for an Indian reservation.   The conversation went something like this:

The Puerto Rican asked, “What is that?”
“An Indian reservation.”
“Indians?  You mean like cowboys ‘n Indians?”
Laughing, “Well, yeah.”
“So what’s that sign for.  Is it like a museum?”
Laughing, “No, that’s where the Indians live.”
“Where they live?  But there aren’t any Indians anymore.”
“Yes there are!”

The Puerto Rican made their friend turn around so they could drive through the Indian reservation to see the Indians for themselves because they just couldn’t believe it.

They told me they had that notion – that there were no longer Indians in the world – put in their head as a kid and it stuck.


Here’s a story about King Tut, Tutankhamun, who could have been known as Tutanaton instead.

You see, the suffix to his name, the “amun” part had to do with the Egyptian pantheon of deities.  This is where the term “amen” comes from.  How many Christians would keep saying “amen” if they knew it was technically pagan?  Ha, ha, ha.

The suffix “aton” had to do with “the one god”.  I won’t say “the one TRUE god” because that is not what the whole “aton” thing was about.

Akhenaten (-aton), was a “Hyksos”, which in ancient Egyptian meant “rulers of foreign countries”.  (See Michael Tsarion for more on the Hyksos.)  The Hyksos basically invaded northern Egypt and performed a coup and Akhenaten became the Egyptian king.  The Hyksos were the ones to introduce this concept of “the one god”, but they really didn’t care about the “one TRUE god”, no, it didn’t really matter all so much which one god it was.  Their motive was to dumb people down.  They did a bit of looting too of gold statues and such in the name of getting rid of the pantheon of deities.

Later, King Tut had pressure on him from both sides about which suffix to use on his name.  This essentially had to do with how the Egyptians as a nation would view Spirit / the Divine.

King Tut, the boy king, even though young, obviously had a few things going for him.  You see, he could understand the concept of one god (essentially the All That Is).  That was no problem for him, but he argued that even if taking on this new concept of “the one god”, perhaps there was still a place for the pantheon of deities.  Indeed there was there boy king.

The Egyptian pantheon of gods later morphed into Greek and Roman gods – our solar system planets’ names.  Across the board, the stories of these gods provide Archetypal and Initiatory Rites information about the Earthly realm and the human experience.  Much information on how to navigate this human, Earthly experience.  There was indeed very valuable information for humans in the pantheon of deities and yes, it was the Hyksos’ desire to dumb-down and control the Egyptians that made them push their one-god theory.


The Romans and the Catholics, in the 4th century, through the Roman Emperor Constantine the Great and the Catholic bishops of the Council of Nicea did a similar number on the world when they put the Bible together.  They looked to the entirety of the world’s recorded, documented information and produced just one book from it.  You can bet the Lie of Omission is huge in regards to the Bible.  It’d be kinda like in today’s world where Chris Cuomo from CNN is telling everyone that only the press can look at Wikileaks and no one else can – “Oh no, don’t look over there.  We’ll tell ya all ya need to know.  We’ll be your one source.”  Yep, the Romans and the Catholics were kinda losing their influence / control and wanted it back so they made one book, and kinda like the Hyksos with their one god, the biggest part of this “one book” thing was that it was the only one that anyone was to be focused on.  Don’t look at that whole world of information, no, only look at the one book that they want you to look at.


“Jesus” of the New Testament is a composite character, meaning that the stories are about more than one person but they are lumped together under the name of “Jesus” and you can bet that a lot of all of their life stories got left out.  A whole lot of lie of omission there.  In today’s world, especially in news reporting, people might call this “controlling the narrative”.   Yes, sometimes the fake news people will just flat out lie, but their biggest tact at controlling the narrative is to just leave out information – more than likely EMPOWERING info – that they don’t what you to know about and also overly emphasizing other things, all to fit their control agenda.


The Catholics also hid away information about Duality and the Sacred Feminine / Sacred Masculine / Sacred Union by renaming the feminine aspect of the Holy Trinity as the “Holy Ghost / Spirit”.   (See Interpretation … of Stairway to Heaven post for a bit more on that.)  Yes, they hid the powers of feminine energy and also of sexual energy away from Joe Average but they kept it to use themselves.  The Vatican is full of men, supposedly celibate men (obviously homosexual drug orgies don’t count  😉  ), but the cardinals dress in red – the “sexual bride” part of the Sacred Feminine – to bring energetic balance.



These days, the leftists keep trying to associate the whole white supremacy / KKK (Ku Klux Klan) thing with those on the right.  Nope.  lol  I’ve heard some folks correcting this “stinkin’ thinkin’ ” as of late, but I’ll come at it from the direction I learned about it, and that was a lot of years ago and no, sorry, don’t have any handy dandy references, only a story.  I’m sure God and Google can help you with the rest.  And hey, I’m not responsible for “your” truth anyway, you are.  😉

The way it was presented to me was… way back when, when the KKK first started – contrary to today’s conventional thinking – they did not threaten, intimidate and kill only blacks.  They did indeed do so with others also.  So, then what did the victims of the KKK have in common?  They were Republicans.

The blacks had just been freed and given voting rights.  Many of them were drawn to the Republican party since it was more spiritual / religious as were the blacks themselves.  Suddenly there was a hoard of new voters, created out of thin air, who were mostly joining the Republicans.

The Democrats were not happy and used some pretty nasty ways to work towards solving their new problem.  Yes folks, the KKK came from the Democrats.


These are just a few examples of the Lie of Omission and other deceptions that have happened down through time that many folks still don’t know about and new revisions of history are obviously still going on in recent times.


I had a bit of discussion with someone a while back.  We spoke of healing and clearing out “shadows”.  It ended in a mention of purity because of name meanings.

And yet, in our quick-fire discussion, when it comes right down to it, we weren’t talking so much about a state of purity, but really more the process of purification.

The alchemy metaphor of turning lead into gold is about turning a mundane-level human into the god/desses that we truly are.  When you heat metal, then the dross (impurities) rises to the top and can then be skimmed off, leaving only the pure metal.

The healing process is the “heat” applied to humans (metal) which drives the impurities (dross) to the surface (bringing subconscious programs to a conscious-level awareness)  where we can acknowledge and examine them, then clear and release them.

The concept of “crossing the Lake of Fire” is the same.  We walk through the “fire” of healing to burn off the dross of the disempowering programs that were planted into us in this Earthly realm.

And this discussion started with… we don’t need to seek love, joy, peace, abundance, etc.  because we ARE those things naturally.

People just need to clear out all the crap – fears, ego issues, disempowering programs, old emotions they repressed – which is a result of living in the old 3D Earth paradigm.

Sadly, far too many lightworkers want to have all those awesome things that we naturally are without going through the purification / healing / shadow-work side of things.  They think that the “train” that goes to “Heaven” is going to allow them to bring all their baggage with them.  Nope.  That old 3D level baggage is too low of frequency, it won’t be allowed through.  Cling to it and YOU won’t be allowed through.

The only humans who don’t need to heal are those who already have.  If anyone tells you that healing is not necessary for ascension, then, I’m just gonna say it – they don’t know what they are talking about or they are intentionally attempting to lead people astray.  Period.

Folks, there are no “shortcuts”, no work-arounds, no way to cheat the healing and ascension process.  You can’t skip it or go around it, you must go through it.

The dross of disempowerment will not let loose of the metal of a human without the fire of healing.

Individuation vs. Collectives

Each and every one of us is an Individuated Soul having an Individuated Experience.

We are also part of a Collective.

Well, many really.  We’re in the “All That Is” collective for sure, but also in many sub-collectives, the most important one in this moment being the human collective as we pull off a planetary and human ascension.

It does not serve / is not serving you or any collectives you are a part of to deny either side of this – your Individuation or your Energetic Connection to the Collective.

Collectives are made up of Individuals.  Collectives themselves don’t “do” or “be” much of anything, only the Individuals within those collectives do.  The collective isn’t healing per se, but the individuals within it are.

But what each Individual within the collective learns or heals goes onto the “Telepathic Collective Innernet”, if you will, and the energetic connection between us all provides opportunities for us to benefit from each other’s learning / re-membering.  We have energetic influence on each other.

And as I’ve said before, Love is a higher vibration than Fear and hence has more influence.  Careful about your disempowered desire to put Love in a cage (more on that), as if to say that Love is all “nice” and fluffy and Fear looks all creepy.  Not necessarily.  To your “inner demons” / disempowered programs Love is one scary frickin’ thing!  Especially the straight-forward, “tough love” sort, which I’ve come to notice is more perceived as “tough love” by those on the receiving end than those dishing out that supposed “tough” love.  I can give it to ya straight and don’t feel “tough” at all about it.  It sometimes amuses me though to see someone squirm so… really under their own inner knowingness… that I just re-minded them of.

Christ energy has been associated in esoteria with “The King of Terror”.  Why?  I’d guess that many a lightworker who has intensely resisted their process, denied the reality of this ascension scenario and their own service work as part of that, well, they could probably give you some idea of what the hell is so terrifying about being Christed.  Advice?  A little less resistance and denial makes the ride a little less bumpy.  As the old joke goes, is that the voice of experience talking there?  Sure is.  I had just enough resistance way back when to convince me not to do that anymore.  I guess I’m just not a very good masochist (although someone needed to tell those “upstairs” / above-the-veil that when it came time for me to do energetic service work, read this blog to understand).

When some individuals in the collective awaken / raise their awareness / heal / raise their frequency / raise their consciousness, that influences others.  And because of entrainment, the lower frequency naturally wants to rise up to the higher frequency.

So, no matter how you slice it, YOU are your top priority.

If you’d like to help others heal, the best way to do that is to tend to your own personal Individuated healing.  You won’t do that by shirking or denying your Responsibility in your own personal healing process or by obsessing on helping everyone else’s healing, which is just distracting you from your own healing.

And being all “kumbaya” or (to get all Bud-beer on ya) “I love ya man!”, well, that stuff looks nice – so much for cosmetics – but it’s not accomplishing much towards this ascension effort.

It’s a matter of priorities.  As I’ve said before, just like the flight attendant instructs you: Put on your own oxygen mask before assisting others with theirs.

Do you really think that person next to you who is waiting for your assistance with their “oxygen mask” really needs to hear “I love ya man!” right then?  Especially in dissertation form?  They’d probably just like some assistance with their own oxygen mask, thank you very much, as they are dealing with sheer survival, but instead they’re hearing you yammering on about “love thy neighbor” instead of getting your own danged oxygen mask on!  All talk, no action.  All foam, no beer.  How’s about you demonstrate your love for your neighbor by loving yourself enough to do what it takes to complete your healing and ascension process.

You must make and keep yourself your top priority.  Yeah, yeah, I know ya all so want everyone “out there” to be all healed and I truly do hope you’d like to help with that since it is ultimately your soul mission after all.  But you must get your priorities straight.  Tend to your own healing as your top priority.  Tend to the “in here”.  Nothing does more towards helping your fellow human than that.  And why is that?  Because of your Energetic Connection to the Collective.  Do you see how both parts of this are intertwined?  And both are important?

I’m still seeing some rather advanced lightworkers still talking about 3D and 4D physically separating.  *shaking head*  No.  Not happening.  As I’ve said before 3D and 4D go together.  Enough with attempting to “escape” 3D.  Those folks still firmly in 3D are your mission.  This is NOT the time for lightworkers to be leaving those 3Ders.  It’s time to REALLY connect to them.  If you’re “scared” to be in the same world as 3Ders, you yourself still have some work to do, some fears to release, some “3D” to release yourself yet.

I always like to remind people that the words “Individual” and “Indivisible” come from the same root word.

Don’t act like the Individuated Experience and the Energetic Connection to the Collective are mutually exclusive, like it’s one or the other, either / or – that’s Duality thinking there.  They most assuredly interconnect, as all does.  But don’t drop the ball on your part in all this by denying your own personal responsibility of your own healing process.

I laugh to see lightworkers who deny their Individuation as they try to escape the work of their own healing process and they’ll scream “collective” stuff at ya… oh, up until they actually manage to hammer out their own healing and ascension process all the way to completion, then they start denying all that “collective” stuff when the topic of Service to the Collective comes up.  lol  It’s called light “work” for a reason.  But ya don’t have to get all down about it and make “work” seem like a dirty word.  You don’t need to quit using the word “work”, just change your attitude about it.  Look that word up and see all its meanings so you know and maybe you could stand to drop the associations you may have with work = chores / drudgery.  Do you really think that artists think artwork is some major drag?

Lightwork is a Labor of Love that we perform here – both literally and figuratively.  With the right attitude it’s the most Joyous Labor of Love that could ever be.

Read Awake & Aware – Top Priority: Self for more on how to get your priorities straight.

Sacred Symbology

I’d thought about writing about this a while back, then find this video today (below).

He’s discussing the symbology of Baphomet (and some other things).  This is an example of Sacred Symbology that the global cabal use and so folks who know about the cabal often (wrongly) think that the symbol of Baphomet is evil.  Nope.

I’ve felt it is / was one big fat representation of Duality – Light and Dark, Heaven and Earth, Feminine and Masculine, etc.  This fellow is obviously in agreement.

There are numerous representations of Feminine and Masculine energy – Moon and Sun, woman’s breasts but implied male genitalia with the rod of the Caduceus… with the two snakes, which again represent the Feminine and Masculine components to Kundalini energy stored at the base of the spine.

This fellow gets it covered and I don’t agree on all he says and he gets off on some tangents, but he’s making you think and that’s always good, plus he’s entertaining.  lol

I’ll add that just like with Michelangelo’s horned depiction of Moses, the horns represent Divine Connection.  See the wavy lines around the horns on Baphomet.  It indicates energy waves.

Also the goat head and horns look like the uterus and fallopian tubes so there is Feminine energy represented there.

The goat legs to me represent animalistic nature, including Earth element / mundane desires, sexual energy included.

The wings can be angelic and yet also represent Air element.

Not sure what that round thing is behind the Caduceus but it seems to have scales on it and it’s located near the 2nd chakra / desire / sexuality / reproduction – Water element.

The Fire element seems to be represented with a flame from the crown chakra.  Appropriate since Fire is associated with Spirit.

“Solve” and “Coagula”/ Dissolve and Coagulate – “separate” and “join together” – like the breathing in and breathing out of the whole separation experience and recovering from that and unifying again.

The two-finger mudra of both hands, one pointing up, one down is the Prana Mudra or Mudra of Life (I see there is some difference between the two hands, one has the thumb tucked and the other open, it all means something) and to me that two-handed gesture together represents the prana tube connecting Heaven and Earth through the being.

If you’d like, plug “Jesus mudra” into your search engine and see how many depictions of Jesus you find using various mudras.  Then, if ya care to, look up the mudras and find out what they mean.


None of this, yes, SACRED Symbology is “evil”.  There is nothing inherently good or evil in the world, it all depends on the intent behind it.  As I love to say… it’s like all those superhero stories ask, “Do you use your powers for good or for evil?”

The cabal have loved it though when you think that things like Sacred Symbology, the occult, paganism, magick etc. are evil because that keeps you from utilizing the powers therein.  They have you scared of the occult.  There’s nothing to be scared of in that direction.  But continuing down the path you have been on, creating out of ignorance, now THAT ought to concern you!

And no, you WON’T utilize Sacred Symbology / the occult in the same way as the cabal, well, I hope ya won’t.  Hey,  you’re never not creating, you’re always creating, but until you wake up to some things you’ll be creating unconsciously.  The cabal have been happy to hijack your energies to use for things that you never would… well, IF you understood what your energies are actually going towards promoting and maintaining.

Since you’re always creating anyway, wouldn’t you like to do so CONSCIOUSLY?!  Then you can create what YOU want, for you and for the world.

Your Intentions behind your “magick” will be much better than the cabal’s and I sincerely doubt you’ll feel moved to be chopping heads off any chickens (unless it’s time for dinner) – although some non-cabal / non-“evil” / non-“satanist” folks, Judeo-Christians included, still do just that, the whole sacrificing animals thing … because… they are stuck in an even older paradigm, the Old Testament.  “Jesus” (a composite character, many people’s stories lumped under one “name”) came to usher in the Age of Pisces and here we are urging another big shift as the Age changes again from Pisces to Aquarius and yet there are Judeo-Christian animal sacrificers who haven’t even gotten into the Age of Pisces yet.  They’re not just one but two ages behind.


But yeah, the Baphomet symbology is communicating information about Duality and if folks are too scared to look at such for fear of it being “evil” then they missed an opportunity to learn about the dualistic realm they have been living in… that they could actually free themselves from if they’d bother to learn about it.  As I’ve said, Sacred Symbology and other occult information helps you understand the energetic environment you are living in as an Earthling, ya know, “Being Human for Dummies”.


If such is old hat to you, this might be boring.  If you just woke up then this fellow and I just dumped a boatload of new search terms on you.  You’re welcome.  🙂

As One Door Closes, Another Door Opens

But it can be hell in the hallway.

And yet that time in the hallway is very healing.  Hell, hall, heal.  Huh.

I’ve seen many a conditioned soul, who knows they really need to let something or someone go and yet they’re in a scramble to find its / their replacement before they let the first thing / person go… so scared to be alone or go without or not have everything planned out.

It’d be much healthier and healing to release what you need to and allow yourself that healing hallway time.

One key thing is to demonstrate to the Universe – through your choices on where you put your energies – that you value yourself.  If you won’t do that why would you expect others to do so?  Ya know.  The Universe will faithfully reflect your creations back to you.

You release what you need to out of self-love, self-respect, self-care.

Let go of people, partnerships, jobs, whatever, BEFORE the new comes to replace it.  And that’s really the proper order of things.  Some say to “make room”.  I like to say you don’t put a new building on an old, crumbling foundation.

When you release something / someone and take some down time, then you can mourn if need be, which even includes mourning things you’re glad to let go of.

And you can also process what you just came out of and where you’d like to go… instead of just bringing all the old crap with ya, getting a new partner or job or whatever that looks remarkably like the old one, because you’re still in a repeating pattern… because you didn’t allow any down time in between to sort through the growth, learning and healing opportunities that old relationship or situation provided you.

The hallway time has its place.  As much as I like to tell folks “don’t tell yourself you can’t know something”, there are going to be times when you just don’t know what’s going on, what you just came out of, what’s next.  Sometimes ya just gotta let the mystery be… and spend some time in the hallway.

“Listen, it may feel like hell, but, sometimes, lost is where you need to be.  Just because you don’t know your direction doesn’t mean you don’t have one.” ~ Battlestar Galactica

Moving Beyond “Awakening Shock Syndrome”

Bravo Jeff! I don’t reblog…until I do. I’ll make this exception since I completely and utterly agree with all you’ve said here. My blog will attest to that. In this whole ascension gig we are connecting Heaven and Earth and facing the Truth of both… and know when it’s time to move along… from whatever step / rung you are on. Thanks for what you do and be.

(Also see post Create Anew!)

Deus Nexus

Source:Divine Cosmos | by Jeff Street

As always, my articles are simply my perspective that I offer in the spirit of discovery and empowerment — take what resonates and leave the rest.

One of the things that I’ve noticed that seems to happen to many people early in their spiritual awakening is they become hyper-aware of all the lies, manipulation, and control that’s been going on in our world, and they are shocked and appalled — and rightfully so.

Some people get so fixated on these unsettling revelations, so obsessively focused on them, that get themselves stuck in a state that is very counter-productive that I’ve dubbed “Awakening Shock Syndrome”.

Although awareness is good, fixation is not — here’s why and how we can move beyond it.

Disturbing Truths

There’s plenty of disturbing truths to get obsessed over — “conspiracy” theories abound on the internet and in our…

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To Whom It May Concern

Me loving myself does NOT mean I don’t love you.  Me loving myself is what has ENABLED me to love you at levels that you may not even fathom at this point.

My “winning” is not making you somehow “lose”.  Contrarily, my “winning” has and continues to set up an energetic field that you can tap into if and when you too are ready to WIN, it assists you in your “winning”.

My success can have more influence on your potential success than it will EVER have on your supposed “failure”.

Me having something does not keep you from having the same.

Me not playing small is not an issue.  You playing small is.

You seeing me as having “better than” issues is you projecting your “lesser than” issues onto me.  Oh no, I couldn’t accept!  And you shouldn’t have!  No really.

Me having a Divine connection is not keeping you from having one.

Me talking about my Divine connection and the information it brings is not somehow negating or dismissing your Divine connection.  It’s to encourage your own connection and enhance it.

Me not putting up with your fear energy does not mean I have fears of my own.

Me setting boundaries with you or attempting to jar you loose from the rut you are stuck in is not unkind, it’s downright compassionate.


What you think of me is none of my business.  Your thoughts don’t determine my reality.  Thank God!

Ascension Update – IV

That is a roman numeral for 4… but it also looks like I.V.  lol  Hook me up!

More card-playing with God.  Tarot reading:

  • muddled thinking has lead to a serious misjudgment
  • you must relinquish some of your self-imposed responsibilities in order to achieve any of your goals
  • you are more intuitive than usual and should trust your instincts

I’m told this is about the ~6 million lightworkers (LWs) who have completed recently.

The muddled thinking has to do with the mundane world.  Some of these LWs don’t really understand the truth of the mundane and hence have been putting their energies into things they really don’t want, for themselves or the world, but they don’t understand that is what they are doing.  Ask for the truth of things to be brought to you.

Relinquishing self-imposed responsibilities – time to get their priorities straight and this ASCENSION PROJECT is their priority now.  If you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans.  Let go of all the headless chicken activity and FOCUS on light work!  Basically about Intention and also about making oneself “available” to others.  Making your life simple and uncomplicated and slowing down, being present and responsible (able to respond) so as to be a Spiritual Minuteman / Spiritual Opportunist.  Offer your consciousness up to those who stand in front of you in the moment.

And ah, yeah, this group is fully connected back into the Divine and are through the challenges of their own ascension process so yes, their intuition ought to be working quite well.  Time to actually follow it.

New Beginning

No band-aid big enough folks.  Let the old fall away.  Time to start all over.

“New Beginning”

The whole world’s broke, it ain’t worth fixing
It’s time to start all over, make a new beginning
There’s too much pain, too much suffering
Let’s resolve to start all over make a new beginning

Now don’t get me wrong, I love life and living
But when you wake up and look around at everything that’s going down –
All wrong
You see we need to change it now, this world with too few happy endings
We can resolve to start all over make a new beginning

Start all over
Start all over
Start all over
Start all over

The world is broken into fragments and pieces
That once were joined together in a unified whole
But now too many stand alone, there’s too much separation
We can resolve to come together in the new beginning

Start all over
Start all over
Start all over
Start all over

We can break the cycle
We can break the chain
We can start all over
In the new beginning

We can learn, we can teach
We can share the myths, the dreams, the prayer
The notion that we can do better
Change our lives and paths
Create a new world

Start all over
Start all over
Start all over
Start all over

The whole world’s broke, it ain’t worth fixing
It’s time to start all over, make a new beginning
There’s too much fighting, too little understanding
It’s time to stop and start all over
Make a new beginning

Start all over
Start all over
Start all over
Start all over

We need to make new symbols
Make new signs
Make a new language
With these we’ll redefine the world

Start all over
Start all over
Start all over
Start all over

Ascension Update… the Third

God was in the mood for cards again.  So, Tarot reading:

  • Rebirth / transformation
  • Beware of burning bridges
  • Time to get on or strengthen your spiritual path


I’m told this is about the most sleepy folks.  These would be the folks who are really duped by the cabal and their msm stooges.

As I was going through this reading, “libtard” kept coming up in my head.  lol  I always say the “lib” part of that is not the issue, it’s the “tard” part.  And frankly what does the left, “Democrats”, have to do with true liberalism, especially these days?!  They epitomize hypocrisy.  They are illiberal / anti-liberal.  Communist, socialist, authoritarian, totalitarian are better descriptions of the left and also their fellow cabal-stooge counterparts on the right.

Being “liberal”, well, what most folks would consider true liberalism, is not an issue, but many on the left are retarded in their knowledge of the reality of this world situation.

In general, the folks right of center are more awake currently to the global cabal and their players and tactics.  When the folks left of center wake up to it, they may or may not abandon some of their liberal ideals.  This isn’t about left or right.  That used-to-be libtard is not necessarily going to suddenly become a conservative.

And that first card is the biggy.  What would spur a rebirth / transformation in the most sleepy of the sleepy?  Perhaps a MOATB – Mother of All Truth Bombs!  Here it comes…

3D Earth

Just a few things to understand about 3D Earth that then may in turn help one understand more about the ascension.  As always, I encourage you to take further questions to the Divine.

The Original Intent for our co-creation here on Earth was that it would be 3D and Dualistic.

But it didn’t stay at that level.  Because the whole free-will thing got hijacked by the cabal, the separation paradigm got even more intense.  It could be said that both at a “world” level (I mean the realm we co-created as opposed to the planet herself) and at an individual level, you could think of it being sub-3D levels but yeah, it definitely affected the planet.

As I’d said in the Planetary Ascension Project Overview (Review?!) post we are not here to ascend Earth, but Gaia.  Gaia has been ascension-ready since early 2013.  She’s set.  She and the first wave cool our heels as we wait for the lightworkers to get their feet under themselves so they can hold things together for 3D / 4D Earth.

So, I’m told that any gridwork being done in recent years is really about Earth, not Gaia.  And if we are not ascending Earth, what is that gridwork about?  It’s to bring the Earth grid out of sub-3D and up to a FULL 3D level.  It helps to release old paradigm stuff that, yes, was even MORE dense than just 3D normal levels.  And the grid release then in turn helps people release from those sub-3D levels.

Then, at the same time, there are many lightworkers who are bringing in and holding light in the world, to lead by example, to offer another choice, another option, to make it more apparent.  Every chance being offered.

In the What of the body during ascension? post, I describe how this same sort of thing is the case for a person’s 3D carbon-based body.  The 3D body does NOT convert into a 5D crystalline body, so ya could say that we are NOT ascending our 3D carbon-based body, just like we are NOT ascending Earth.

Our 3D carbon-based body and our 5D crystalline body (resulting from the ascension process) are two very distinct bodies.  You’ll be in your 3D body until you transition IN FULL and then don your crystalline body in 5D.

But the 3D body had been at sub-3D levels also, just like Earth, so the healing and ascension process reactivates everything in the body so one has FULL 3D capacity at the physical level.  And you can bet that one’s consciousness levels – so then also thoughts, words & deeds – play a role in getting one’s physicality working more fully.  Everything is interconnected.

As I’ve said in these other posts, 3D will remain 3D and whoever chooses to stay at that CONSCIOUSNESS level, for however long, can do so.

And while any of us are still here, regardless of what level of consciousness, while in the 3D world, pre-ascended, we’ll be in our 3D carbon-based body.

And our 5D creations are in 5D.

I saw that Gaia Portal had recently said:

“Assistance comes as dark hu-beings require.”

Again, this is another re-minder, even though there is still long, ongoing catastrophic stuff that will remain a part of the 3D experience, no HUGE and SUDDEN catastrophic events are being allowed to happen.  If CERN actually punches a hole, the angels patch it over.  If a missile, especially nuclear, gets launched when that’s just not gonna work out well, it gets dealt with in some safe way by ETs.  If some harmful energy starts to reach some critical point lightworkers may be transmuting it.  Individuals’ own creations are not being interfered with, but all this assistance buys folks time.

I had to laugh (or as my cockney friend says, “I gotter larf.”)   The inspiration for my post Fear showed up the other day.  They responded to the Savin’ Me post basically saying that I’m worth saving.  Ah, ha, ha.  They are implying that’s why one day they tried to fill my comments with fears and worries about “what they are doing with colliders” or whatever.  LOL  *shaking head*  Still clueless I see.  Very, VERY clueless.


Return to Innocence

“Return To Innocence”

Love – Devotion
Feeling – Emotion

Don’t be afraid to be weak
Don’t be too proud to be strong
Just look into your heart my friend
That will be the return to yourself
The return to innocence

If you want, then start to laugh
If you must, then start to cry
Be yourself don’t hide
Just believe in destiny

Don’t care what people say
Just follow your own way
Don’t give up and use the chance
To return to innocence

That’s not the beginning of the end
That’s the return to yourself
The return to innocence

It’s a return to innocence


If someone asked me to name just one thing and only one thing that is critical for ascension I’d have to say Self-Love.

And heading off down the path to Self-Love will involve learning and healing an awful lot more than just what one might think of as Self-Love.

If Self-Love is the goal sitting out on the horizon, then pull yourself back to the present moment and see what the current next step in that direction is.  The Divine would be happy to help – just ask.

Your ultimate in Self-Love goal will be at the end of many steps, many dominoes having to fall to get to that goal.  It might surprise you all the various disempowering programs that will be discovered and will have to be released in order to get to your Self-Love goal.

Regardless of how one gets to Self-Love, both the goal and the journey is what opens doors and opens one’s eyes to so much more.

The “self-love is bad” program really hits to the core of so many problems in this world.  Think about it for a second.  Just pull yourself up out of all this human drama, your own included, and think about that – a program put in people’s psyches that makes them not love themselves.  Just about can’t get more debilitating than that.

I’d recently quoted someone who said that love of God and self-love are one in the same.  That right there is something that gets “hidden in plain view” when someone is running the “self-love is bad” program.  Folks might think they “love God” and yet haven’t truly mustered or mastered loving themselves yet.  God loves you too and would like you to be the Powerful Creator God/dess that you are and He would love to work through you but that’s a bit difficult to do when you don’t love yourself.

Part of that “self-love is bad” program involves not trusting yourself.  If there is ANYONE you could stand to trust, it ought to be yourself.  And yep, we’re talking about debilitating programs here so yeah, quite understandable if someone who is disempowered doesn’t trust themselves but can you not see how basic, how fundamental, how foundational Self-Love is?  How in the world will you navigate through much of anything if you don’t trust yourself?  Do what is necessary to regain your self-trust.  Healing and Divine Connection are key in that.  They are also key in ascension.  It’s all one in the same.  It’s all a return to Self.

And Fear is the opposite of Love.  Fear, in its many guises, is ultimately the “cause” of all the crap in the world.  Fear had gotten so big in this world that it had taken on a life of its own, become an entity unto itself… almost.  The beauty thing here is that Fear is a really slow frequency, a long wavelength.  Love on the other hand is high frequency, short wavelength.

If you were to see your composite energy field as a signal on an oscilloscope, then superimpose Fear and Love onto your energy field, you’d see how Love would win out.  Love IS winning out in this world.  Fear being a slow, low frequency, doesn’t touch your energy field as often as the fast, high frequency of Love does, hence Love ultimately has more influence.

There’s an awful lot of “narrative” on narcissism these days. Narcissism can be problematic and the down side of that is more shadow work for some folks to do.  But can you all not hear / observe the propaganda campaign that the cabal and their mainstream media (msm) stooges are putting out with this?  It’s one of their dying efforts at refreshing the “self-love is bad” program.

The New Ager / lightworkers with their “kill the ego” disempowered program is more of the “self-love is bad” program.  Ego is just one’s Sense of Self.  Really?  What do you plan to do after you’ve “killed” your Sense of Self?  Do you think that’ll bring you to “collective unity”?  Not hardly.  You don’t even know who YOU are and you think you’re gonna know the next person?

You think SELF-SOVEREIGNTY comes from LOSING your Sense of Self?  Really?

The only way I’d care to lose my sense of self is if and when the time comes to just completely let go of my Individuated Soul experience and melt back into the Isness, losing my sentience, no longer existing.

I guess one could drop out the bottom to get to that point too, submitting to their ab-users and along the way to losing their individuated experience, they become some drop in a soulless, homogenized cesspool of human ooze.  What a way to go.

Self-centered also gets such a bad rap.  Self-Centered – Centered on Self.   And yet where else would one BE centered but on Self?  What?  Should one be centered somewhere “over there”?  And yet many a programmed human does just that – attempts to be centered somewhere outside themselves.  Gee, can’t imagine why they are so off-kilter.  (I’m all for “kilts off” but not off-kilter, lol.)

Self-Love, Self-Respect, Self-Nurturance, Self-Healing.  Self-Realized.  These are the ultimate goals and the starting point all in one.  There’s only so much you can do for others when you’ve not put yourself FIRST.

Make no mistake, YOU are your TOP priority.  You get yourself to that place and then you maintain it.  I understood this years ago.  That’s why I wrote the book on it.  😉

Awake & Aware – Top Priority: Self

… and also why I have been able to serve this ascension project to such a high capacity.  I had my priorities straight.

Ascension Update – the sequel

Playing cards with God again:

The Magician
Spiritual path of self-control.
This is about those who are not “on path” yet.  Time to get on path.

10 of Cups
Strong friendships or love brighten your existence.
This is pretty much about everyone.
(How’s that for good news?!)

9 of Swords
This card indicates a time of great misery, sadness, and depression.
This is about those who intentionally follow the dark.  The cabal basically.

Savin’ Me

“Say it if it’s worth savin’ me.”

I say what I do to folks, even when their disempowered programs, conditioning and fears don’t want to hear it… because you’re all worth it.

I can’t save you but I might wake you up to the fact that you can save yourself.  You have no idea what depths and breadths and heights that I have and would go to for your salvation.  Join me in that effort and we’re all set.

Lightworkers, SAY IT to your fellow human.  Let them know that the way “out” is IN.  Lots of fear running around loose out there.  Let folks know that their inner work is where they can and will make a difference, not by getting caught up in all the fear and chaos “out there”.

They’re worth savin’.  It’s what we’re here for.

“Come please I’m callin’ “

“Savin’ Me”

Prison gates won’t open up for me
On these hands and knees I’m crawlin’
Oh, I reach for you

Well I’m terrified of these four walls
These iron bars can’t hold my soul in
All I need is you
Come please I’m callin’
And all I scream for you
Hurry I’m fallin’, I’m fallin’

Show me what it’s like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I’ll show you what I can be
And say it for me
Say it to me
And I’ll leave this life behind me
Say it if it’s worth saving me

Heaven’s gates won’t open up for me
With these broken wings I’m fallin’
And all I see is you

These city walls ain’t got no love for me
I’m on the ledge of the eighteenth story
And all I scream for you
Come please I’m callin’

And all I need from you
Hurry I’m fallin’, I’m fallin’


Hurry I’m fallin’

And all I need is you
Come please I’m callin’
And all I scream for you
Hurry I’m fallin’, I’m fallin’, I’m fallin’


Hurry I’m fallin’

Say it for me
Say it to me
And I’ll leave this life behind me
Say it if it’s worth saving me

Bring Me To Life

“Bring Me To Life”

How can you see into my eyes like open doors?
Leading you down into my core where I’ve become so numb
Without a soul my spirit’s sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it there and lead it back home

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
Before I come undone
(Save me)
Save me from the nothing I’ve become 

Now that I know what I’m without
You can’t just leave me
Breathe into me and make me real
Bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
Before I come undone
(Save me)
Save me from the nothing I’ve become

Bring me to life
(I’ve been living a lie, there’s nothing inside)
Bring me to life

Frozen inside without your touch
Without your love, darling
Only you are the life among the dead

All this time I can’t believe I couldn’t see
Kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems
Got to open my eyes to everything
Without a thought, without a voice, without a soul
Don’t let me die here
There must be something more
Bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
Before I come undone
(Save me)
Save me from the nothing I’ve become

Bring me to life
(I’ve been living a lie, there’s nothing inside)
Bring me to life

Thank U

“Thank U”

How bout getting off of these antibiotics
How bout stopping eating when I’m full up
How bout them transparent dangling carrots
How bout that ever elusive kudo

Thank you India
Thank you terror
Thank you disillusionment
Thank you frailty
Thank you consequence
Thank you thank you silence

How bout me not blaming you for everything
How bout me enjoying the moment for once
How bout how good it feels to finally forgive you
How bout grieving it all one at a time

Thank you India
Thank you terror
Thank you disillusionment
Thank you frailty
Thank you consequence
Thank you thank you silence

The moment I let go of it
Was the moment I got more than I could handle
The moment I jumped off of it
Was the moment I touched down

How bout no longer being masochistic
How bout remembering your divinity
How bout unabashedly bawling your eyes out
How bout not equating death with stopping

Thank you India
Thank you providence
Thank you disillusionment
Thank you nothingness
Thank you clarity
Thank you thank you silence…

Mental Health Hotline

Hello, and welcome to the Mental Health Hotline.

If you are obsessive-compulsive,
press 1 repeatedly.

If you are codependent,
please ask someone to press 2 for you.

If you have multiple personalities,
press 3, 4, 5, and 6.

If you are paranoid, we know who you are and what you want.
Stay on the line so we can trace your call.

If you are delusional,
press 7 and your call will be transferred to the mother ship.

If you are schizophrenic, listen carefully
and a small voice will tell you which number to press.

If you are manic-depressive,
it doesn’t matter which number you press; no one will answer.

If you are dyslexic,
press 9696969696969696.

If you have a nervous disorder, please fidget with the pound key until a representative comes on the line.

If you have amnesia, press 8 and state your name, address, telephone number, date of birth, Social Security number, and your mother’s maiden name.

If you have post-traumatic stress disorder, s-l-o-w-l-y a-n-d-c-a-r-e-f-u-l-l-y press 000.

If you have bipolar disorder, please leave a message after the beep or before the beep or after the beep. Please wait for the beep.

If you have short-term memory loss, press 9. If you have short-term memory loss, press 9. If you have short-term memory loss, press 9. If you have short-term memory loss, press 9.

If you have low self-esteem, please hang up. All operators are too busy to talk to you.

Service to Self, Service to Others

I wrote the following over 2 years ago in an email to someone who asked my perspective on this whole STS / STO schtuff, duality, channeling.

They asked if they could post it and did.  I did not have a blog myself then, but now I do, so guess I’ll post it now.

Without naming them, I thank them for their questions.

Well, service to self in what way?  At what level? At what frequency? At a 3D level – with greed, selfish inconsiderateness, not caring who ya step on or ab-use / misuse?  Purely for money or for fame or a following?  Or lust or perhaps out of fear… of being lonely or whatever other dis-empowered motive. 

Or service to self at a higher level – self-respect, self-love, getting healed… ….  to then be able to turn around and help the planet by transmuting millennia of shit energy out or help others and not because you heard someone say some fancy term or line and want to parrot it to others but because you’ve experienced it yourself FIRST, you’ve LIVED it, you KNOW it, you know what works and what doesn’t.

Because you know if you don’t take care of yourself and heal and self-nurture then you really have nothing to offer the next person.  Because if you’re dead you have no help to offer the 3D world. Because, as I said before, what we TRULY have to offer anyone else is our consciousness and how can you offer it to the next person if you don’t get there yourself, FIRST?!

“If you can’t love yourself, how the hell you gonna love somebody else?” 

And on the flip side, service to others in what way, at what level, at what frequency, from what agenda or motive? People who have egos and subconscious that are programmed in dis-empowered ways are often ass-kissers, boot-lickers, will do anything to make a buck, to keep a job, to get along, to have a friend, to be popular, to be liked, to have low frequency “power”.

To be “slothful”, to follow someone else’s agenda rather than their own agenda, to “go with the flow” to “fit in”, no matter what the cost to themselves or others, doing all the wrong things because others do and they want to “succeed” at low frequency levels and cave in to all the things they feel in their gut and heart and intuition to be wrong because “that’s just the way it is”.

People who don’t have the guts to tell someone what they need to hear to heal.  People who will enable other’s dysfunction so as not to rock the boat… that often so desperately needs to be rocked.  People who don’t want to rouse the rabble that so desperately needs to be roused.  

Then again, duality in what way?  That there are just some things that are complementary, like masculine and feminine?  Neither is bad, but that difference is most certainly part of duality.  Both could stand to be integrated within each individual and no one needs to be androgynous or have a sex change to incorporate both.  Just one example of complements, which means “to make complete”.

Other examples of duality though, in some cases, some dark sides of things could stand to be let go of like ignorance and thinking there are things that just can’t be known.  Like ego issues that on one side make one feel grandiose while on the other side make people “play small” and claim “I’m only human” as some sort of cop-out, some excuse to not be all they can be.

And societal programming that deems that some things are bad or wrong when in reality there may be nothing wrong with them or in some cases, these things judged as “wrong” or “bad” are actually strengths and are downright healthy.

In this planetary ascension, those who get themselves to a 5D level are serving themselves , serving their own soul by healing, clearing, releasing and upgrading.  Nothing wrong with that.  If 7 billion people would have been self-centered (centered on self) in THAT way, we and Gaia would have all been outta here long ago and the work, the burden would have been spread around evenly and not just put on a small minority of people.

Heal themselves first, then and only then can they go on to serve the planet and others in any higher level energetic capacity.

And yet along the way, in the effort to offer consciousness they can do that for the next person on some topic that they are even 1/2 a step ahead on.

Yeah, I don’t like the ambiguity of these terms STS & STO.  Those terms are very black and white and biased in its perspective, in its assumption that everyone will just see it the right way, the most healthy way for all involved… and those terms are too easily misunderstood / misinterpreted in a very harmful and dis-empowering way… and nobody bothers to explain.

Btv (Below The Veil – BTV) or atv (Above The Veil – ATV) there are WAY too many assumptions that just because different entities / beings are using the same terms / words, there must be an understanding, there must be the SAME interpretations and definitions because it’s the same word.  Errr!  Wrong answer!

A recent channeled message said this:
“Even though the techniques necessary to fulfill your dreams have been outlined for some time, those techniques were ignored, misunderstood or denied.”

Ok, if we apply that to your run-of-the-mill LW (Lightworker – Information Worker), yep.

But look at all the channelled messages that didn’t get these people on the right track in the first place.  How many channelled messages have said some emotions are good and some bad?  Don’ feel angry or bored or whatever.  What?

From a bunch of unemotional non-humans who don’t know wtf they are talking about?!   Oh, they are proving now they can dish out the tough love message (about time) and yet where are they accepting the responsibility for their part, their role in the misunderstanding? How many times have the human channeller’s gotten the message wrong, stated it wrong or misinterpreted it after the fact and yet where are these channeling entities to make that correction?

“Hey there dear human, we can tell by what you told others that you did not correctly interpret our message, so we’d like to explain further…”  Do they even bother to check in and see how humans, especially their own channeling human is interpreting their message?

And why are human channellers just swallowing all these messages without question?  And even when the message is a good one, why aren’t they making sure that they themselves actually understand it and LIVE it?  ETs and LWs, a match made in hell.  The blind leading the blind.

Bottom line?

TRUE service is never bad!

This whole STS / STO business superficially makes it sound like serving oneself is bad while serving others is good.  That right there is one of the most disempowering programs running in this world.  By using such terminology you are energizing / feeding / refreshing that old disempowering program.

If you truly want to serve self and others, you must make and keep yourself your top priority!

And there are those “lightworkers” who have so much dysfunctional dogma to defend around this whole STS / STO line, as they proselytize their “Ra Religion”… and would love to distract you with the tomes of it that I’m sure there is, whether it takes all that to get the gist across or not.  They have no clue how steeped in their “religion” they are.  They don’t like to be alone in their distraction and “worshipping” of entities who like to push this STS / STO line, but eventually they’ll have to face the reality that putting one self first is the proper order of things.  Anything else is just keeping them from moving forward on their own healing, empowerment and ascension path… and hence, keeping them from being of any TRUE service to others.  The more they resist their own healing and Divine connection, the longer they postpone their ability to even BE of much TRUE SERVICE to anyone else.

I told someone it’s about frequency, a difference in level of consciousness, so perhaps expressing it in “light vs. dark” instead of “self vs. other” terms would have been better.

The Ra Religion people parroting their dogma never compare apples with apples.  So, let’s assume, because that’s the case, that STS and STO both have a low frequency end and a high frequency end.  But these people mindlessly saying this crap always compare the low freq. end of STS to the high freq. end of STO.  Why not compare the low freq. end of STO to the high freq. end of STS and see which looks better then?!  Doh!

Someone else said that Service to Self really means “Service to Self against Others”.  Oh.  Ok.  Fine and well, but I’ve yet to hear them discuss “Service to Others against Self”.  *shaking head*  Why not compare the low end of each to each other and same for the high ends of each?

There seems to be a total disconnect with these Ra parrots… about their own inconsistencies… even just in the space between the beginning and the end of one of their blog posts.   They parrot their b.s. Ra line, then spend the rest of the post “elaborating” on this b.s. line, but everything else they write negates the first line.  I told someone that I didn’t care if they agreed with me or not, but for their sake it might be worth it to make some effort to actually agree with themselves.

But there’s so much dogma they have to defend in their worship of Ra.  Who the hell is Ra?!  That’s a rhetorical question… for all you info-overload / news addicts types who’d now like to tell me who “Ra” is.  (just can’t wait to proselytize can ya?)  lol   Overuse your pea brain much?  A little unbalanced there perhaps?  (And Ra is not the only channeled ET source to talk about this whole STS / STO thing.  *yawn*  Old crap that just seems to keep catching more new people.)

Is Ra your higher self?  Is Ra God?  (“God is Source.  Everything else is just Re-Source.”)  Then who the hell is Ra?  To you?!  A frickin’ nobody, that’s who.  He’s your peer at best… if even.  I’m glad that the Ra Material spoke to you… how long ago now?  You’ve not learned and grown any since?  Perhaps it’s time to step out of grade school and get on to high school.  (*looking around*  Where are those big kid pants?!)  No doubt you’re allowing Ra to serve as a “middleman” when you could instead be utilizing your direct connection to God / Prime Creator / All-That-Is… as Sovereign Beings do.  Ooh, but that just might require you put yourself first, eh?  Dang.  Gosh oh gee, now who do you think is going to best serve others, those who are utilizing their direct connection to God or those who aren’t?

This person said that “in Ra’s cosmology, dark has its purpose”.  Gee, ya think?!

I told them in MY cosmology, SELF has its purpose.  Duh.  Goodness sakes but this whole healing and ascension business IS about SELF, gee, ya know, since Self is the part of All-That-Is that YOU were put in charge of, that YOU have anything resembling control over.  Ready to actually take some Responsibility yet?

You don’t make choices for others or for the collective, you make YOUR OWN CHOICES.  The whole collective connection thing just is AND IS THE SINGLE BIGGEST INFLUENCE YOU HAVE ON OTHERS.  By making certain choices, you energetically are making that choice more available or perceivable to others, but you still don’t get to choose for them.

So now, what do YOU have to donate to that Collective Innernet?  Is it worth a darn?  Maybe cleaning up your own back yard would put the absolute best quality energy out there to others, eh?  Use your Inner Technology to that end instead of the headless-chicken “altruism” tango.

Our Inner Causal Realms CREATE the World of Outer Effects.  Your preoccupation with “helping” / “saving” / “rescuing” others is like… stepping up to a mirror, seeing you have something on your face and trying to wipe it off… in your reflection.  The “in here” CREATES the “out there”.  Your greatest creative work, MOST ESPECIALLY TOWARDS HELPING OTHERS, is done within!

But people like this think they can somehow magically “join with others” when they’ve yet to tend to joining all aspects of themselves.  Their priorities are screwed up.  They are caught up / distracted in “serving” others “out there” with their rabid altruism – that often does more harm than good as it is often truly based in their own ego issues not on True Divine Service as guided by the All-That-Is – when they would BEST serve others by tending to their own self stuff FIRST / as their top priority “in here”.  They dis the very simple but wise guidance even from the “flight attendant” who advises them to don their own oxygen mask before assisting others with theirs.

In reality, TRULY serving self is actually what best enables one TO serve others.  Priorities!

You can only give as much as you’ve got.  That goes for everything from material things to time or your presence, to consciousness.  And if you don’t take care of yourself, as a bare minimum and also as your top priority, then there’s risk of not only you not doing well but you then become a burden on others.  And this all helps anyone / everyone how?

Many lightworkers are caught up in “serving” others when their top priority ought to be to serve themselves FIRST.  So dysfunctional.  They are so preoccupied with helping others heal that they are not knocking out their own healing and hence are truly NOT serving.  Someone had said, rightly so, that serving self IS serving others.  Indeed.  Someone else put out a post titled “Deal with your sh*t.  Then serve.”  Indeed again.  Get your nose out of other people’s business until you’ve cleaned up your own backyard.   Your “advice” isn’t worth a darn until you do… as evidenced by this STS / STO nonsense you insist on parroting.  As I’ve said before, if 7 billion people would have been “self centered”, as in, centered on self, in a healthy, healing way, THAT would have served everyone.  I certainly would have appreciated how it would have served me and others like me, by not having us few carry such a heavy burden in this ascension project for far too long.  AGAIN, the best thing you CAN do for others is TO serve yourself as your top priority.  So, by being obsessed with helping others at the expense of doing your own inner work, you are not serving anyone.

And there is an awful lot of disservice parading around as service because people have yet to learn what truly SERVES oneself and others and what does not.  They are often coming from old disempowering programming as they attempt to determine what is service and what is not.  The result is that they often “enable someone’s dysfunction“, their own included.  Perhaps some discussion with the Divine on such things would be in order.  (just skip the middlemen)

Also see Individuation vs. Collectives. Both sides of this are important.  Sometimes, leaving Duality behind means not setting up “either / or” scenarios that don’t need to be.  Like you have to choose between Self and Other, as if you can only have one or the other.    Where’s the “unity” and “integration” in that?  No, you can have it all… and you will… IF you get your priorities straight!

I got this concept years ago, which is why I wrote the book on it, but now, years after my own “completion”, as I observe others completing, they get it too.  They understand that Self Love and a whole lot of other “self” stuff needs to take top priority.  They’ve learned that the whole headless-chicken “altruism” tango they’d been doing is not serving anyone.

Also see:

Self Love
“If ya can’t love yourself, how the hell ya gonna love somebody else?”

Healthy Selfishness
You can’t pour from an empty cup.

Self (vertical) unity first.  Unity with all others just is… and when you are self-unified, you’ll KNOW that.

“This Is SO Hard!”

This whole healing and ascension thing can be quite challenging.  Yep, sure can be.

And yet each and everyone of us is a powerful creator who creates through our Thoughts, Words and Deeds.  Are you sure you want to make an already challenging experience worse yet by constantly telling yourself “It’s so hard!”

My own healing and ascension process was challenging, but I really don’t recall myself saying that whole “it’s so hard” bit.

I’ve said similar though since I’ve been used to energetically assist all the people out there who keep making things worse by constantly telling themselves how hard it is.  And yet we forerunners just forged on, gave our feedback to God, stepped up to do our part when God worked to change things up for that whole situation.

Are you all ready yet to release the “It’s so hard” paradigm?  Clean up your language then!  Enough with refreshing your own “It’s so hard” program.


Things ain’t what they used to be it’s theme park living A to Z

(John Prine was making me get in touch with my “Inner Twang”, so these ladies got some of that to offer up.)


Things ain’t what they used to be now I believe in all extremes
Things ain’t what they used to be and that won’t change till we’re a hundred and three
Let’s never try to solve it babe – the equation of you plus me

Things ain’t what they used to be can you believe it all we’ve seen
Things ain’t what they used to be it’s theme park living A to Z
Let’s never try to solve it babe – the equation of you plus me

It’s all the same we’re here today yesterday is just a dream
Ancient history
It’s all the same we figured out what to take and what to leave
For the honey bees

Things ain’t what they used to be no money and no guarantee
Things ain’t what they used to be our future’s in a cup of China tea
Let’s never try to solve it babe – the equation of you plus me


Ascension Update

I guess this is a note from our “sponsor” (word origin = promise solemnly) about the current overall picture.

Today Jesus needed someone to talk to and God obviously needed someone to play cards with.  So, below is the resulting Tarot reading.  He let me know about this yesterday but I’m just now getting there…


Ace of Pentacles
Taking the creative inspiration of Spirit and turning it into physical works.

Knight of Wands
Shift into a new paradigm.

The Warrior
This is a card of powerful forward-moving energies, indicating that you can master adverse circumstances through your determination and courage. Spiritually, this card speaks about the development of the Will. We are all subject to many fears, and it is the warrior’s purpose to seek them out and defeat them.


I said “Jesus you look tired”
He said “Jesus so do you.”

Huh, this explains all the channelers.  Those above the veil obviously just need someone to talk to.


While out sailing on the ocean
While out sailing on the sea
I bumped into the Savior
And He said pardon me
I said “Jesus you look tired”
He said “Jesus so do you,
Sit down son
‘Cause I got some fat to chew”

Everybody needs somebody that they can talk to
Someone to open up their ears
And let that trouble through
Now you don’t have to sympathize
Or care what they may do
But everybody needs somebody that they can talk to

Well he spoke to me of morality
Starvation, pain and sin
Matter of fact the whole dang time
I only got a few words in
But I won’t squawk
Let ’em talk
Hell it’s been a long long time
And any friend that’s been turned down
Is bound to be a friend of mine


Now we sat there for an hour or two
Just eatin’ that Gospel pie
When around the bend come a terrible wind
And lightning lit the sky
He said so long son I gotta run
Appreciate you listening to me
And I believe I heard him sing these words
As he skipped out across the sea


Enabling Others’ Dysfunction

… which is dysfunctional on your part, if you’re doing it.

I recently read an article from someone who was basically asking lightworkers to step up.  Overall it was an ok article.  One thing I read there though jumped out at me as it was way off base and very disempowering.

They basically had made up a list, sorta like “You may still have work to do if…” and made a list of experiences one may be having.

But this one item was “If you are still being triggered and are triggering others.”

Err!  Wrong answer!  … to the last half of that.

You cannot and do not even want to try to make yourself responsible for others’ triggers.  That does not serve you or other.  You are taking on burdens that are not yours.  You’re walking on eggshells for others’ buttons and triggers.  The world is full of people with a whole lot of different buttons and triggers.  Are you going to remember all their triggers and walk on eggshells for each different issue?  That’s a lot to keep track of.  What if walking on eggshells for one person triggers the next person?  What will you do then?  That’s quite the jig you’re dancing there… to please others… over their issues.  Theirs.  Don’t stake claim to their crap.

And you’re not doing the other any good by walking on their eggshells.  You’re sending the other the message that what they are doing is ok, that their blow up because you bumped into their trigger is ok to aim at you and you will just adjust for it.  SO messed up.

In that moment of you triggering them, there are a whole lot of empowering messages you could bring to them right then, but what, instead you’re going to just enable their continued dysfunction… and yours?

One more time we come back to Power and Responsibility going hand in hand.  You have absolutely no Power over the next person’s triggers.  They have some healing to do there and you can’t do it for them, so why would you want to try to take Responsibility for those triggers?

But here again, you do have influence.  So rather than doing some hippy dance on a world full of eggshells, you instead remind the other they were just triggered and it’s THEIR trigger and they could stand to own it and by doing so they will start to heal that issue associated with their trigger.  Now THAT is called shining one’s light.  You’ve communicated through your words and also through your actions, including demonstrating that you are not about to enable someone’s continued dysfunction by tip toeing around them and their triggers and issues.

That right there is a true expression of Love and Compassion.


Masculine and Feminine

“Be what you want the world to be.”

How’s about some balance?!

For eons here, Masculine energy has been over-utilized and Feminine energy under-utilized.  But the answer to a patriarchy is not a matriarchy.  This is about balance and integration, not about another pendulum swing.

Part of one’s personal ascension process is to integrate the Masculine and Feminine.  As each and every person becomes more balanced, integrated and whole that in turn makes the world more balanced, integrated and whole.  We’re to bring balance, not REPLACE Masculine with Feminine.  Masculine energy is not going away.  We just usher in more Feminine energy to balance.

Masculine and Feminine energies are not opposites, they are complements, as in, “to complete”.  They complete each other, make whole / holy.  We’re talking about energies here, not people, not the “my other / better half” bullsh*t.  No one else completes you.  You must complete yourself.  Now… two healed people coming together.. now THAT is literally a match made in Heaven.  Good stuff there.

This is also about finally stepping out of the dysfunctional / unevolved characteristics of both Masculine and Feminine.

Ya know, since forever, the two-party political system has used the Republicans to utilize Masculine energies and used the Democrats to utilize Feminine energy.  Do I really need to tell ya that they’ve used the “down” side, the dysfunctional characteristics of both masculine and feminine with the political parties.  The Republicans are overt and tell you what they will do, whether you like it or believe it or not, then they do just that – take that!  The Democrats are covert and they deny they do something and do it anyway – a little manipulation anyone?

But yeah, those are a couple small examples of using these energies for nefarious reasons and purpose, but you can bet that down the road, how folks utilize both of these energies will be in a more evolved way.

So, just what ARE Masculine and Feminine energies?  Well, first and foremost, don’t think that you can make a good judgement of that by going with societal ideas of what women and men should be, what roles they’re “supposed” to play.  There are some rather natural roles that come with the different genders but don’t confuse that with societal b.s. that is thrust on everyone.

You can search this blog for those terms for starters, and the web also and use some understanding tools like astrology, etc. to understand what is really meant by these terms.  This is SO NOT about gender.  The understanding tools can also help you understand the unevolved vs. evolved characteristics of both.

When it comes right down to it, in this Earthly realm that is Dualistic, any and all that exists here can be considered a Masculine or Feminine energy.  Day & night, summer and winter are a couple examples of Masculine & Feminine energies.  Day / summer / solar energy is masculine, active, assertive.  Night / winter / lunar energy is feminine, rest / gathering energy, passive.  Many, many cycles of Life, going back and forth between the Masculine and Feminine.

So, a small example (it’s subtle but the subtle is very significant and it accumulates, you’re always creating) of an overuse of Masculine energy and an underuse / honor of Feminine energy – and yes folks, one imbalance which is demonstrated just as much by women as by men – is how silly humans just insist on being so go, go, go around “holiday time” in the dead of winter.  Party, party, party.  Frickin’ outdo the Griswold’s at outdoor Christmas lights.  Goodness sakes, don’t actually get into the feminine darkness of winter, oh no, just flood the wonderful, peaceful winter darkness with lights every frickin’ where… maybe so ya can’t see the stars for so long you’ll forget they’re there… at a time when one really ought to be resting and gathering energy… in preparation for… summer, the next masculine half of the cycle… because if you don’t capitalize on the Feminine rest / energy-gathering of winter, then you won’t be able to really fully utilize the next Masculine active cycle either.  You must honor both halves of this or you’ll be burning your candle on both ends.

Now, for a very big example of this imbalance that is old and far reaching is how, centuries ago, humans were discouraged from using their intuition, even taught to fear it, that it was bad or demonic or what have ya… or could get you killed by someone who feared it.  The majority of the people killed during the Inquisition were women.  They were feared and demonized because, eee gad!, they were intuitive.

Huge, HUGE blow to Feminine energy right there and here again, one that has affected women even though they tend to be more naturally intuitive and has really struck a blow to men because not only is their (in many cases) intuition not quite as natural to them, but the women who could teach them have been conditioned not to do so.  (Also see Holy Trinity info in Interpretation … of Stairway to Heaven)

The Feminine side of the sleepy masses was gutted by demonizing intuition and now, in recent times, they’re going after the Masculine energies by dissing men and making men seem unimportant and downright obsolete.  “They” never quit.

In a dualistic realm, the Masculine is considered light and the Feminine dark.  It’s not that “dark” means “bad”.  The Masculine is visible and the Feminine is hidden.  Just male and female genitalia give some hint to this.  The Knights Templars built many cathedrals.  What you see of the cathedrals is the Masculine part, but it’s said that there is as much underground as what sticks up above the ground and what’s underground, that which is hidden, is the Feminine part.  Often there are Black Madonna statues in the underground part of the cathedrals.  It represents the Earth in part and Feminine energy / dark / hidden / shadow.

So, here again, I have to chuckle at many lightworkers who are so pushing Feminine energy, fine and well in general, ya know to balance things out so we can finally step out of the patriarchy, but many of these lightworkers seem scared as hell to address their own shadow aspects.  *shaking head*  You’re not going to bring the Feminine energy balance to your own life and bring it to the world if you’re not courageous enough to face your own shadow / darkness.

I’d recently said in comments that the cabal likes to hijack current energies…

I feel the Millennials / Gen Y folks were to actually help usher in Unity Consciousness but the cabal influenced them at an early age, especially through the education system, to do everything in groups.  They were essentially “trained” to be codependent.  They were taught to find unity “out there” or horizontally rather than unifying vertically with all aspects of themselves “in here” first before unifying with others.  (See Unity post.)

I feel in this same way the cabal have hijacked this Masculine and Feminine integration thing with all this “trans-trender” / gender-fluidity propaganda push.  This is a step in the direction of transhumanism, pretty much just turning humans into cyborgs.  Here again, they are making people turn an “in here” thing into an “out there” thing.  As if some boy / man has to put on a dress or have body parts removed in order to get in touch with their Feminine aspects (or vise versa).  Not.  This integration may not exclude crossdressing or what have ya (hey, whatever turns your crank) but don’t confuse the two.  Don’t get distracted with trying to change your “out there” when the task at hand, along with your other healing and ascension work, is ENERGETIC integration “in here”.

Hey, addressing and honoring the physical part of you is part of all of this and yeah, loving and accepting all parts of you, including your human aspects, including  your physical body is important and, for the most part, one is either male or female in this dualistic Earthly realm.  Hey embrace it, it’s you… for now.  Transgenders also.  But there again, it’s not necessary to alter your body, just accept it.  It’s temporary.  Whether you depart from this world through the death portal or through the ascension portal, your current 3D carbon-based body is temporary. It’s also part of the experience you are having, so have it.  You can do or be something else in some other life, perhaps in some other place… and if you want a new outward gender after you ascend, it’s QED… but for now, how’s about being right here, right now.  I cast no judgement, but if it were me and all else was the same, only thing different was that I felt I was transgender, I absolutely would not take hormones or have surgery.  I respect my body too much for that.  And that thing I just said about one’s current body being temporary… I KNOW it.  … and I love me, all aspects of me.  My body has been a total champ in this ascension effort, which I completely appreciate and don’t hesitate to express that to my body.

I’m not so comfortable in my ascension-hell-years fat-suit either, complete with next to no energy, but… it’s temporary.  And our 3D carbon-based body is what we have… until we don’t.  It’s not only our vehicle to motor around in on the 3D physical plane it is also kind of our vehicle outta here since we are in it while we go through our healing and ascension process, so it serves to take care of it as best ya can.  You’ll be in that body until you die or cross over the consciousness veil and fully transition to 5D.

Folks, please look up information about Masculine and Feminine energies, perhaps some esoteric info – word origin of esoteric = “within” or “into”.  And inwardly is where your Masculine and Feminine integration will happen.


Sacred Symbology / Sacred Geometry.

Feminine and Masculine energies before becoming a Merkaba (above).  

Feminine pyramid (top) has its foundation in “Heaven” and yet has a point reaching to Earth.  The Masculine pyramid (bottom) has its foundation in “Earth” and yet has a point reaching to Heaven.  

The two united in the Merkaba.  In a 2D depiction, the Star of David represents the Merkaba with its two equilateral triangles.  In a 3D depiction, a Merkaba is a Star Tetrahedron – two tetrahedrons, which are 4-sided objects with each side being an equilateral triangle.


Don’t worry when you find that sometimes Feminine energy gets the “Heavenly” position at times and the “Earthly” position at others.  Same with Masculine.  Don’t allow this to confuse you.  It’s a natural physics / metaphysics / Divine plan sort of weaving and dancing of these two energies in such a way that naturally wants to bring balance.  Let’s just say that Duality contains all the components that one needs for Unity, it’s just about integration.

For example, with the depictions of the Merkaba as shown above, the Feminine is more Heavenly and the Masculine more Earthly.

But, when you look at the 4 elements of astrology, you see that Fire (Spirit) and Air (Mind) elements are Masculine and yet are more Heavenly energies, while the Earth (Physical) and Water (Emotional) elements are Feminine and yet are more Earthly energies.

And also notice in the picture above of the pre-united Masculine and Feminine that the Watery Feminine downward-pointing pyramid is on an “Air” background, which is Masculine.  The Fiery Masculine upward-pointing pyramid has an “Earth” background, which is Feminine.

Also, as I say, there is a close connection between:

Mind (Masculine, Air element, Heavenly) and Body (Feminine, Earth element, Earthly).

And also a close connection between:

Spirit (Masculine, Fire element, Heavenly) and Emotions (Feminine, Water element, Earthly).

You Got This!

Ha, when I first typed in that title, muscle memory made me type “You God This”.  Accurate.

As some of you may recall, years ago there was a mass UFO sighting (literally, as in unidentified flying objects) over Phoenix, which came to be known as the Phoenix lights.  Many people saw them.

So, not long after, I’d heard someone tell a tale about this.  They or someone they knew had contacted a news agency of some sort in Phoenix as this was going on.  They asked the news person what was going on there.  The news person said, “I’ll check the wire” meaning the AP (Associated Press) news wire.  This person who contacted them laughed. Here they were contacting someone local to this news event who wanted to “check the wire” when in reality, they would be the ones to put that news ON the wire because they were local to the event.

Well, I’ve seen parallels of that story in our ascension story.

First, as you can read about in the post The Higher Self, the higher self (HS) works with us to regain our Divine connection, but once we have, we’re kinda on our own, our higher self having fulfilled its duties and obligations to us.  Then it’s time for us to step into some bigger shoes.

So, yeah, during the personal healing and ascension process, the HS assists and guides and you can bet that they can and will draw on other humans’ healing experiences in order to guide their own human.  There are plenty of areas of common ground concerning healing, oh heavens, there were frickin’ blueprints set up by the ancients for this.  So, while healing and working on your ascension process, you are receiving guidance on how to go about that.

When we complete our ascension process, then we step into service work for the collective.

When my friend and I were working above the veil (atv) we came to realize early on that, even though we still had God’s guidance and assistance, we were the “frontline”.  We’d reached a point where God could not guide us based on anyone’s prior experience as we were now in uncharted territory.  It was now we forerunners who were to be “putting the news on the wire”.  God was looking for cues from us as much as we from Him.  He could not advise us on things no one else had done before.  He could and did provide us with a higher perspective, an atv perspective and He certainly assigned us to some tasks.

And what we did atv and energetically to assist in this planetary and collective ascension is done now, but everyone else can count on there being plenty of new ground to cover in this massive ascension project.  Many lightworkers who have now recently or will soon complete / become ascension-ready / fully embody their Christ Consciousness will now find themselves in uncharted territory.

Do you think Lewis and Clark refused to continue on their mission just because they couldn’t get guidance from home?  Lightworkers, time for you to put the news on the wire.

With increased awareness comes increased responsibility.

Lightworkers step up!

You Got / God This!

“The Work” of Ascension

I won’t mention names, but I just came across a video where someone talked about ascension.  They mention two names of people who talk ascension.  One of these people I know to be out and out fraudulent and the other well, I’ve had absolutely no draw to them myself (need I say more?), nevermind you’re hard pressed to look at anything ascension-related without running across them.

But in mentioning them, this video maker kinda poo-pooed ascension.  No wonder considering who they’ve been listening to on this matter.  They said it sounded like the rapture or something.  To me the rapture always sounded like something done to or for you, but that’s not how it works.  Ascension is something you do for yourself… that no one else, God / All That Is / Prime Creator included, CAN do for you.  Others have blazed and paved the trail for you, but we can’t make ya walk it.

This video maker also said these two who talk of ascension keep talking about doing “the work” with no explanation of what “the work” is.

They said these two ascension talkers act like you have to be “special” in some way to ascend.  Oh, you do have to do your inner work, but past that, this whole ascension gig is not an elitist thing.  It’s for anyone who chooses it and does “the work”.  No one can do “the work” for you and no one can keep you from it… only you.

If anyone asks you what “the work” of ascension is, please refer them to this blog and tell ’em to start reading from the beginning.  There’re currently only just over 100 posts, which are basic healing, empowerment and ascension fundamentals… not my own personal daily diary entries.  I don’t have all the answers for you.  What I give you is the overall gist of this healing and ascension process so you have some idea of where to start and what it’s about.  The details FOR YOU are for you and the Divine to work out.

But yeah, I’m happy to let my blog serve to answer the question of  – What is “the work” of ascension?  No one ought to be left wondering what that is.

Take it from me and The Love Guru – The only way out is in!  (I’ve said that for years and lmao to hear the Guru say it.  So wise he is!  😉 )

Darren, the only way out is in.

See post Healing / Inner Work – What Is It?

Check out the One of These Things… page for what to expect of this blog.

Let go, let God


To the Divine.  Your own Divine Self.

Allow yourself to Live ON PURPOSE, to live your soul mission.

Get out of your own way.  To hell with your mundane level plans.  If you want to make God laugh, tell Him your plans.

Bypass all the middlemen, go straight to Source / God / All That Is / Prime Creator.  This ascension is a big project, don’t allow the middlemen, humans or ETs, to get between you and God.

Don’t let a book, including “the good book”, get between you and God either.  But then again, in the 4th century, when the Romans and the Catholics put the Bible together, you can bet they wanted it to get between you and God, that was EXACTLY their intention / motivation… and you’re helping them do just that.  They got ya.  Why would you go through a bunch of ancient authors that have been interpreted and translated by many, MANY others, over and over (*yawn*), when you can utilize your direct Divine connection and go directly to God?!


Again, I offer this from “The Angels Within Us” by John Randolph Price:

The next coded instruction is to stand still.  In the ancient schools “stand still” meant to enter into a state of serenity and trust through complete surrender to the Presence within and to have faith in the activity of the Spirit.  For a greater understanding of what this means, imagine yourself as a musical instrument, a clarinet for example.  See the instrument as you would on a Saturday-morning children’s cartoon – alive and animated.  It has free will, which means that it thinks it can play itself, so it functions in the world by striking its own keys, blowing its own squealing notes.  And all the time the Master Musician is waiting to play the most harmonious melody the world has ever heard.

As time passes, the little clarinet discovers metaphysics and begins to tell the Master Musician within what notes to play for it: “Oh Mighty Spirit, play the note for a new car for me, for money in the bank and a new job.”  At first this new way of playing brings results, but they are not lasting.  Then the little clarinet seeks to make his demonstrations more “spiritual” and begins to listen for instructions from the Master within as to what notes to play: “Lord, give me the note for health and happiness and I will surely play it in your name.”  And again some fruit falls from the tree, but the taste is not satisfying.  Finally the clarinet’s consciousness evolves to the point where it declares, “I surrender to the great I AM THAT I AM.  Master, play your notes through me!”

Who Will NOT Ascend?

Years ago, I’d come across a TV evangelist who had made a revelation.  There are passages in Matthew 24 which describe “who would not get to the Kingdom of Heaven”.  This evangelist thought to look at this list the way you would read an ingredient list on food packages – what there is the most of is listed first, then on down the line.  On this list are the usual suspects like murderers and thieves, etc. but at the top of the list – the fearful.

A few weeks back I came across someone’s comment on a blog.  They were basically saying that if it wasn’t for the “Religion of Peace” then perhaps all others would be able to embrace 5D, etc.

I had this to tell them:

What those of the “Religion of Peace” (how Orwellian is that?!) have to get from all this is one thing. What they are helping others with is another thing. Everyone else, individuals or collectives at some level or other, including the nation level, are learning how to set boundaries and stand in their own power.

Europeans are struggling with concerns about “being racist” vs being raped, both literally and figuratively. Some rape victims won’t even report the crime because they don’t want to “play into racism.” If that isn’t the epitome of some severe lack of self-respect and self-love, I don’t know what is. And what? Like NOT reporting the crime is somehow helping the criminal / thug? Really?

As drag queen Ru Paul says, “If ya can’t love yourself, how the hell ya gonna love somebody else?”

Sad the level things need to get to before people start being MORE Self-Centered, as in Centered on Self. It all starts with self. Read the book “Awake & Aware – Top Priority: Self” for how to get one’s priorities straight.

So, this person makes it sound like if we can just somehow get rid of all the “villains” out there then everyone else will be magically ready to ascend.  Nope, don’t think so.  Sorry to have to break this to ya, but the “victims” won’t be ascending either.

There is much talk these days of doing one’s “shadow work”.  Rightly so.  Yep, you’ll have to connect with the Divine as part of your healing and ascension process, but you’ll also have to address your shadow.

In many cases, one’s shadow, one’s own darkness has mostly to do with ignorance, ya know, that whole “in the dark” thing.  The ignorance causes disempowerment.  Just being “nice” and not being an ax murderer is not enough.  If you attract ax murderers you won’t be ascending before they will.  Not really a joke – we draw to us what we fear.

So, there will be many “shadow parts” that you will eventually just release because they belong to a disempowering experience and you’ve had enough of that.

There are also “shadow parts” that really aren’t “bad” or even “dark” but people have allowed society to convince them that these characteristics are not desirable.  Folks could stand to realize this and embrace these characteristics, to reclaim them and utilize them, not to mention gift the world with them.

No folks, what you’ve possibly “done unto others” really isn’t what will keep you from ascending – everyone is redeemable.  We just might get some reformed ax murderers ascending too.  Yep, good chance of that.  They turn around and do the inner work, yep, they’re in.

But what you do to yourself with your disempowering thoughts and beliefs and how you ab-use yourself and allow others to ab-use you, those kinds of things can and will keep you from “the Kingdom of Heaven”.   There’s that Power and Responsibility thing again.  You want your Power?  You’ll have to take Responsibility for your own creations.

In K.I.S.S. ing Ascension, I describe how, in broad terms, ascension is about Divine connection AND healing, which in LARGE PART has to do with addressing one’s shadow, one’s own darkness.

It reminds me of a twist on the first step of all those 12-step programs, so instead of “admitting you have a problem” it’s more a case of starting from a point of acceptance.  Not acceptance like in “condoning” something, but more of acceptance as in “this IS how things are in this moment”.  Denial is more than just a river in Egypt and there is no “healing” happening or perhaps not finishing as long as you are not willing to face your shadow, your own darkness.

Just being nice, wearing the crystals and the flowy purple dresses, saying “Namaste”, putting out flowery messages and “playing a part” aren’t enough to get the job done.

That superficial makeover isn’t the deep clean required.

The first step is looking right at your darkness.  Ask the Divine to assist.

Grand Illusion

“Grand Illusion”

The obliteration of your isolation
the complete explosion of your fondest notion
This disintegration is your elevation
It’s a grand illusion, it’s a grand illusion

You’re crying, you’re trying so hard now
You’ll be laughing a hundred thousand years

There is only one day and tonight is the night
It’s a grand illusion

The devastation of your separation
The disillusion of your constitution
It’s exhilaration, it’s your liberation
It’s a grand illusion, it’s a grand illusion

You’re crying, you’re trying so hard now
You’ll be laughing a hundred thousand years
There is only one day and tonight is the night
It’s a grand illusion

War Pigs

Dedicated to Senator John McCain.

Judgement Day is here John.

“War Pigs”

Generals gathered in their masses
Just like witches at black masses
Evil minds that plot destruction
Sorcerers of death’s construction
In the fields the bodies burning
As the war machine keeps turning
Death and hatred to mankind
Poisoning their brainwashed minds
Oh lord yeah!

Politicians hide themselves away
They only started the war
Why should they go out to fight?
They leave that role to the poor

Time will tell on their power minds
Making war just for fun
Treating people just like pawns in chess
Wait ’til their judgement day comes

Now in darkness world stops turning
Ashes where the bodies burning
No more war pigs at the power
Hand of God has struck the hour
Day of judgement, God is calling
On their knees the war pig’s crawling
Begging mercy for their sins
Satan laughing spreads his wings
oh lord yeah!


Concerning lyrics below, well no, Columbus was not “lost”.  He had a map.  He didn’t “discover” diddly in this sense of the word:

find (something or someone) unexpectedly or in the course of a search

Like I heard an American Indian comedian say years ago (and I paraphrase), “How can you ‘discover’ a land where people already live?  That’d be like me going out into the parking lot and ‘discovering’ that Lamborghini.”

No, they’d known of the land to the west called La Merika.  When Columbus set sail it was a Kodak Moment, a public relations stunt, a way to announce to the general masses that it was time to get their slave selves, at their own expense and effort, to the new land, to build that up for the cabal.  So, Columbus DID “discover” La Merika, but more in this definition of the word:

divulge (a secret)

And what would prompt people to move to La Merika?  Well, what’s said on the plaque at the Statue of Liberty gives a hint:

“Keep, ancient lands, your storied pomp!” cries she
With silent lips. “Give me your tired, your poor,
Your huddled masses yearning to breathe free,
The wretched refuse of your teeming shore.
Send these, the homeless, tempest-tost to me,
I lift my lamp beside the golden door!”

The PTWs (powers that were)  just made things so unbearable in people’s home countries that folks would expend their own energies and resources to get themselves to the New World.

Well Tracy, the worm has turned.  No more conquering of Americans.

And… concerning the lyrics…

The meek shall inherit the Earth… while the masters will ascend to Gaia.


You were lost and got lucky
Came upon the shore
Found you were conquering America
You spoke of peace
But waged a war
While you were conquering America

There was land to take
And people to kill
While you were conquering America
You served yourself
Did God’s will
While you were conquering America

The ghost of Columbus haunts this world
‘Cause you’re still conquering America
The meek won’t survive
Or inherit the earth
‘Cause you’re still conquering America


You found bodies to serve
Submit and degrade
While you were conquering America
Made us soldiers and junkies
Prisoners and slaves
While you were conquering America


Your hands are at my throat
My back’s against the wall
Because you’re still conquering America
We’re sick and tired hungry and poor
‘Cause you’re still conquering America

You bomb the very ground
That feeds your own babies
You’re still conquering America
Your sons and your daughters
May never sing your praises
While you’re conquering America


I see your eyes seek a distant shore
While you’re conquering America
Taking rockets to the moon
Trying to find a new world
And you’re still conquering America


The ghost of Columbus haunts this world
‘Cause you’re still conquering America
You’re still conquering America
You’re still conquering America


Here’s someone who understood what was going on in this world:

Russell Means:  Americans Are The New Indian

Understanding Tools

This is the term I like to use with such things as astrology or face reading or the like.  Ya know, the kinds of methods that allow you to understand yourself and others better.

I always like to say – Two ways to understanding, either through compassion or personal experience… but these understanding tools can help also.

I always like to emphasize the proper balance in perspective concerning the individual and the collective.  Individual and indivisible come from the same root word.  But collectives are made up of individuals, each doing their part.  “Collectives” technically don’t really “do” much of anything.  The individuals within the collective do.  And like the old line – it takes all kinds to make the world go ’round.

In so many ways we have so very much in common.  From the most sleepy and dysfunctional person to the most conscious, from the wounded to the healed, when it comes right down to it, we all have so much more in common than we have differences.  And there are really only so many variables here.  Many variables and yet still only so many.  Using astrology as an example, everyone’s birth chart has the same 12 signs and 10 planets.  Yep, all sorts of subtly in characteristics according to house, degree, what aspects what, etc. but it’s all Earth-centric, all about the energies an Earthling has to deal with, is exposed to, has to work with.

And yet, the differences do exist.  Just because someone is different (maybe you yourself are the someone) doesn’t necessarily mean these differences are “issues”.  But before we come to understand some of what’s behind the differences, it can be easy in a 3D-Earth-paradigm state of mind to judge and find fault with others who are only just being themselves and bringing to the world what they came to bring.

The face reading I learned was based on the 5 element theory of Chinese medicine.  So, the 5 elements are the 4 of astrology – Fire, Earth, Air (or Metal in Chinese medicine), Water – and the 5th element is Wood.

Because I’ve come to understand the differences in personality between the 5 elements, I just see people being themselves when others may have some issue with these people’s personality traits.

For example, if, in a gathering of people, one person, no matter what topic or who brings it up, this one person always somehow makes it all about them, well, the next person might see this as problematic “They’re so full of themselves!”, whereas I would just know I was observing a Fire element.

Another person there may be very forceful and loves to use a closed fist gesture.  The next person may see them as angry or aggressive, but I just see a Wood element.

I’ve often thought that this disempowering 3D Earth paradigm has made everyone feel like there is something wrong with them.  Is there anyone who feels like they fit in anymore?  Even the straight, white male now feels oppressed and persecuted.  Yep, “the theys” used their salami tactics to carve away at one social group after another and now they’ve caught them all.

And the programming has people wanting to be something other than themselves “Oh, I wish I had a nose like hers”… while she probably wishes she had a nose like the next person.  So, just what is that ever-elusive gold standard that everyone seems to be shooting for?

How’s about looking no further than the mirror.  That seems like a fine gold standard to aspire to.

In some discussion on the Enneagram of Personality, which is a personality typing method involving nine (enne) personality types, someone had said that the conventional psychology / psychiatric world has a “disorder” or mental problem or the like for every one of these personality types.

Sure, there is an up and a down side to every type, element, sign, whatever.  There are unevolved and evolved characteristics for each.  But really?  No matter who?  Everyone has a disorder?  Now, no doubt that folks got stuff to heal but just the old paradigm’s way of assigning some bad label to every frickin’ personality type, being all judgy about it… and of course they don’t want people to know that whatever issues they may have they can heal.  Don’t frickin’ empower anyone whatever ya do… just make ’em feel like there’s something wrong with them… that can’t be fixed… or worse yet, “Here’s your prescription.”

By learning and using understanding tools, you come to understand yourself and others better.  You come to know that we don’t all have the same needs, desires, talents, skills, foibles, whatever.  By understanding your own element (or sign or type, etc) you can relax into being you and not pressure yourself to be like others.  By understanding others’ elements, you can allow them to be themselves without reading anything else into it.  Knowing such things help people work together.


My face reading instructor does Feng Shui also, but she doesn’t do it in a traditional way, like the desk has to be in this room facing that direction kinda thing, but instead focuses on the elements of the people living there.  So here are a couple of stories about people learning about theirs and others’ elements and then working towards more harmony.

She went to advise a couple of gals who were roommates.  One gal was an Earth element while the other was Metal.

Earth elements just love their “things”.  Earths like and can put up with a rather large amount of clutter.  If someone is a hoarder you can probably count on them being an Earth element.  They’re the ones you can almost count on having a mantle full of family photos.  They love their Earth tones.

Metals on the the other hand can be rather ascetic, liking a sparsely furnished and decorated place.  Less is more.  Monochromes over colors.   If any element abhors clutter it would be Metals.

So they were informed about themselves and each other.  Their solution?  They literally divided the shared living areas right down the middle.  One half of the living room was very Earth and the other half very Metal… and that worked for them.  They came to understand what both of them needed, they allowed that for themselves and the other.

In another case, she was asked to come do Feng Shui for a couple whose young son would not come out of his bedroom when he was home and he always kept the door closed.  It didn’t take long to understand why that was.  Upon first meeting, she knew the parents were both blatantly obviously Fire elements.  The son was obviously Water.

They then showed her their son’s room.  Just outside his room, across from the door was this huge painting that was VERY Fire element.  It was modern art with big splashes of red.  Yep, totally understandable why the Fire parents like this painting, but it was a bit much on their energetically sensitive and emotional Water son.  Subconsciously, that painting may have seemed like a murder scene to the Water son.  She explained this to the parents who then promptly took the painting down and their son no longer hid in his room and if in there didn’t feel a need to always have the door closed.


Are you still being all judgy about yourself and others… even and perhaps especially with the stuff that has nothing to do with anything other than just element, personality type or what have ya?  Ya know, like they (you) didn’t assault anyone, it’s not wounds or dysfunctions, they (you) just have their (your) own preferences and their (your) own way to be.  No crime in that.  Ask the Divine to bring you just the right understanding tools so you can actually see things for what they really are.

Ask for Compassion so you can cut yourself and your fellow human some slack, knowing that all differences aren’t “bad” in some way and even the wounds and dysfunctions are healable and EVERYONE IS REDEEMABLE.  Kinda the whole point of what we’re doing here.  Don’t act so surprised when some former Walking Zombie actually wakes up.  Don’t act surprised when the former Walking Wounded actually heal.  Don’t act surprised when the formerly disempowered step into their own Power.

Some of people’s differences have to do with strengths, not weaknesses.  Some with energies that piss off people’s “inner demons”.  Why do you think the Divine sent them with that energy?  It all has its place.

Let the Divine and the Understanding Tools help you see more clearly and with it create more loving and accepting relationships.

Everybody Lay Down

Hey there “meek”, aren’t you tired of laying down?

“Everybody Lay Down”

Everybody go ’round, go ’round, go ’round
Everybody lay down, lay down, lay down
Don’t nobody make a sound
Everybody lay down

Everybody give up, give up, give up
Nobody hang tough, hang tough, hang tough
Life a little too rough
Everybody lay down

Everybody say hey, don’t nobody say no
Everybody say wait, don’t nobody say go
Everybody lay down

Everybody cry loud, cry loud, cry loud
Nobody too proud, too proud, too proud
To tell you what they’re all about
Everybody lay down

Everybody don’t care, don’t care, don’t care
Nobody play fair, play fair, play fair
Maybe everybody too scared
Everybody lay down

Everybody say hey, don’t nobody say no
Everybody say wait, don’t nobody say go
Everybody lay down

Everybody’s wanting higher
Everybody wanna touch the fire
Nobody willing to lay it all down

Everybody want heaven
Everybody say amen
One thing is certain
You gotta lay it all down

Everybody say hey, don’t nobody say no
Everybody say wait, don’t nobody say go
Everybody lay down

The meek shall inherit the Earth

… while the masters will ascend to 5D Gaia.

The meek submit to the worldly paradigm, while the masters surrender to the Divine.


quiet, gentle, and easily imposed on; submissive


a skilled practitioner of a particular art or activity

Master of what?  Of oneself.

To get there, just be the truest version of your True Self that you can muster in any given moment.  One foot in front of the other.


Alternate title – Don’t Put YOUR Sh*t on Me.

Are you projecting onto others what is yours?  Your dysfunctional programs might just love that but it’s not serving you, others or the world.  It’s certainly not serving this ascension project.  Ready to let go of that yet?

First, there’s the concept of “mirroring”.  Basically, if something about someone else really bothers you, you more than likely have that very same issue yourself and you don’t like it in yourself any more than you do in others and yet you deny that it is yours.  Like stepping up to a mirror, seeing you have something on your face and you try to wipe it off… in your reflection.

And this might be about a character trait that is not even “bad” per se, but one’s programming has made them think it is bad.

One tact you might consider is to actually allow yourself to consciously express this trait that you have, that you see mirrored in others and yet that bothers you so.  Perhaps then you can break away from being so judgy about it.

Projection is a little different than mirroring.  One significant difference between mirroring and projection is that with mirroring, both parties share the same traits or issues or perhaps even complementary issues, whereas with projection the one doing the projection is the one who has these traits or issues and puts that on others as if other people have these issues when they don’t.

Programmed humans are also into that whole misery loves company thing, hanging out with people with similar issues and programs.  Life in an echo chamber.  They’ll speak of resonance but what are they supposedly “resonating” with?  Each other’s dysfunction?  Yep, similar frequency and issues.  It’s called codependency folks.

And they just hate it when someone or something comes along and stirs their pot.  They like their little codependent “friends” (with friends like that…)  and call them their teammates but anyone who is not right in stride with them are seemingly not their teammate.

I love sports analogies, most especially where the word “team” comes up.  So, this person would be like a member of a high school sports team.  They’re a Sophomore (and in real life and spiritually really rather sophomoric to boot) and they will only see other Sophomores as their teammates.  The Freshman, Juniors and Seniors, in their warped reality, are somehow not their teammates.  *scratching head*

But whether they consciously realize it or not, when new and fresh input comes along, they ARE having Divine-level resonance.  It’s just also affecting their little “demons” / disempowered programs / conditioning, which are re-acting.  So… resonance with something that is true will be indicated by a strong emotional response, which may not always be a warm and fuzzy feeling or even an “ah ha” moment.  Instead it might be very intense denial or rejection… or projection.  Hey those little demons / programs recognize healing wisdom when they see / hear it and that’s the last thing they want.  They’ll fight it tooth and nail.


Once, over several months, myself and others witnessed a lightworker who obviously had anger issues.  From what I could tell, by both things said and the outward symptoms – usually coming in the form of projection – they had pent up anger, which was a “bad” thing according to some “program” implanted in them, probably in childhood.  I’ve seen this person say since that as a child, they were indeed told not to express anger.

That’s how it was in their case and lord knows what program their parent was running to say that to them, but these things can come about in different ways.  Perhaps as a child someone had someone else’s anger all up in their face, it scared them and they made the subconscious association that “anger = bad / scary / wrong”.

Regardless, for some reason, some “programmed” reason, people then judged anger as bad and repressed their own anger.

This particular lightworker’s “inner child” probably had a whole lot of anger and could stand to express it.  Their unexpressed / stuffed down anger had no place to go.  It was their traveling companion.  And as much as this person so wanted to put on rose-colored glasses, their anger issues made them see red… everywhere.  If someone came along and stirred their pot so that they could get a bit of a glimpse of that sludge at the bottom that they so desperately tried to ignore – intentionally doing so or just innocently triggering this LW’s issues, doesn’t matter which – then came the projection.  They kept saying others were angry when they were not.  They’d ask others why they hold so much anger within them when it was they themselves doing that.

They also said anger as if it’s a bad thing, something to be avoided at all costs.  Not a healthy perspective.

They also love to go on about joy.  I told them that if they were really tapping into TRUE JOY, then anger wouldn’t scare them – not their own or anyone else’s… and I told them that anger was ok.  And it is.  Anger happens.  Let it.

They kept doing the whole “put on a happy face” thing and kept talking about all the joy they have… as if they were trying to talk themselves into it.  Perhaps they’d best tap into that joy by being authentic in their emotional expression ALWAYS.

Don’t say you’re up when you’re down
It’s Elemental  

~ Tears for Fears “Elemental”

This reminds me – I’d heard this lead guitarist interviewed.  He also wrote songs and he’d come to realize that if the band members were having to tap their foot in order to keep time while playing the song, then there was something not so right about the song.

And if someone has to keep telling themselves they are joyful, something is not so right with their “song” either.

Joy is who we are.  Not something to look for.  Just allow it.

And how will you know your True Self in your True Joy if you keep judging emotions as bad, stuff them down and then project your emotions onto others?  They’re YOUR emotions, own ’em… and for goodness sakes, express ’em.  If not, you’re not healed / healing.  You might fool yourself in that regard but you’re not fooling anyone else.

Has someone stirred your pot and showed you what further work you have to do?  Did you kill the messenger when you could have been thanking them?  The messenger is there for your sake.  The Divine sent them, whether you or they are even consciously aware.

Also see Understanding Tools.

Trust and Flow

And that title is a nod to my best mentor, an astrologer and intuitive who said that all the time –  Trust and Flow.  She passed from the world on 4/11/11 and I couldn’t forget that if I wanted to since she always had the 411 for me… and her name was Monica, which means “advisor.”  Love you Monica, thanks for helping me help this world.

As I spoke of in my Stepping Stones and Individual Path post, well, essentially… to every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven.  And in order to scale to the next rung on the ladder, you must be willing to release the one you’re on.

In my Create Anew! post (meant for those who obsess on cabal plans and schemes) I spoke of how someone at one time or another will learn the truth about the mundane world, learn about the global cabal in all its faces and facets and down through history and yep, it can be a rather big story with so much interesting stuff to learn about.  But there comes a time to stop looking at that, stop putting your energy into it.  Looking at such – past the time of when you get the plot of this Earthly story and you’ve learned enough about the wounds and dysfunctions that occur due to the influence of the old 3D Earth paradigm – is just becoming an obsession and it’s just info overload of details… and a distraction.  So you let it go.  (Know where you are in this.  Is it time to look at that or time to let it go?)  But don’t worry, if you’re to know something you’ll be informed.  Trust and Flow.

I offer a little story here that really is about Trust.  Let go, let God.  Trust in both one’s mundane self and in the Divine.  Trust that the information will come to you and that you will recognize it for what it is when you see it.

So, when I woke up, it was a dual awakening, if you will, for I learned / remembered the truth about the mundane and the Divine in tandem.  But in the beginning it did tend to be weighted a bit more towards the mundane, then later the scales tipped more towards the Divine.  Perfect.  I could learn about what caused the wounds and dysfunctions and how to get out from under that illusory crap heap.  That right there helped tremendously towards me understanding who I really was, that I was a Divine and Powerful Creator so segue right into deeper comprehension of the Divine.  And then during the ascension-hell years it was pretty much only bare necessity / keep my vital signs going as far as mundane level and otherwise ALL Divine and this almighty ascension project.

But, years ago, a while after I’d let go of my global cabal studies, some information was brought to me.  It came in snippets over a couple incidents, not all in one shot.  It was short n’ sweet and I’ll keep it that way.

I was not listening to much mainstream anything about then.  I didn’t listen to the news.  I only watched a few TV series and always recorded them so I could skip all the commercials.  In the car I listened to tapes and not the radio.  For the most part, the only “news” I got was from little bits heard while surfing the TV or radio, which I rarely did anyway and magazine covers at the store and coworkers, etc.

I won’t mention names here but if anyone is familiar with this story then you may know who this is about.

But… I was in my car one day and heard that a U.S. senator and his family had been killed in a plane crash.  Well, I knew from the plot of this Earthly story that plane crashes and being suicided are the cabal’s favorite ways to kill off political enemies.  At that time, since my focus was off the mundane, I didn’t know a whole lot of names in politics and this guy wasn’t from my state so I knew nothing about him.  But I had every reason to think the cabal wanted him dead and made it so.  I understood the what.

So, then later that day or the next, I was surfing the TV, again, not typical for me, but accidents never happen.  I caught a news story about this senator.  All they said about him was his name, that he and his family were in a plane crash and killed and… that… he was kinda “known for”… if there was a bill in congress that had bipartisan support, this senator was often the one or one of two dissenting votes.  Ah, now I understood the why.

Ya know, how – well, at least in the past, but that’s changing as government gets a makeover – if something just flew through congress with bipartisan support it was often something that in a very big and bold way was taking away people’s rights.  The stooges and idiots in congress could argue abortion or idk, homosexual this or that until the frickin’ cows come home, finding no common ground, no compromise… BUT! if it was something that just wholesale violated and dashed constitutional rights across the board, then gosh oh gee, they sure could agree on that and in record time.  Jerks.

Well, from just the few clues the Divine insisted I see, I had the whole frickin’ picture.  No mess, no strain on my part.

Years later, a few years ago, I saw someone left a comment on a blog.  They’d written a book about this senator’s suspicious death.  They gave a tiny tidbit of info about the book.  But I didn’t need to read the book, the Divine already got me the memo.

Energy Discernment

How’s yours?

I want to tell a tale here, but now that I think about it, it’s kinda (remotely? maybe only in a Ricochet Rabbit kinda way? lol) along the lines of this line from Gaia Portal’s message from the 6th:

External evidences are no longer necessary for those who question.

To me, this has to do with reading energy, with feeling for resonance, checking in with the Divine… with sheer knowingness… instead of “external evidences”.

“Those who question.”  Let your first request be asking the Divine to reveal the Truth to you, then get to asking, inwardly… anything, everything.  Ask and ye shall receive.  Let the Divine do all the work, you just need to be open and receptive.

First, there are and will be external evidences of some things, but evidence can point either to or away from the Truth.  I’d just heard congressman Trey Gowdy tell FBI Director Comey that one witness might say the traffic light was green while another witness says it was red.  Both are evidence, but not both are true.  So the spin doctors might tell you there is evidence of something… oh, but leave out the part that there is also evidence against it.

And there is an implication here also of “proof” –  “Prove it to me!”  “What proof do you have?”  For you?  Well, none frankly.  Not I nor no one has either the Power or the Responsibility to prove diddly to you.  You will think and believe as you choose.   The onus of the Truth FOR YOU lies firmly on YOUR shoulders.  What I or anyone else has for you is information, yeah light, and information is one definition of light… and also perspective and consciousness, but it’s ultimately up to you to discern the Truth and it is you, your life and your reality that will pay the consequences – good or bad – for what “truth” you accept.

Life and the Divine do have a certain fondness for Truth though and they know you deserve Truth and they, Life and the Divine, also have a certain insistence about getting the Truth into your noggin.  They love ya THAT much.

I’ve come to realize that some folks are obviously triggered by that phrase “the truth”.  Even when the possible details of “the truth” are not being discussed, some folks have obviously been programmed with such self-limiting programs as “No one can know the truth.”  They literally re-act when someone dare to say that phrase “the truth.”  Well, they can replace their “no one can” with “I can’t” because their limiting thoughts are creating their own reality and no one else’s.  Does that just irk you when someone says “the truth”?  Are you sure you want to maintain the “I can’t know truth” program?  God is Truth.  Many of you speak of reconnecting to God / the Divine / Source and yet you seemingly don’t want to connect with Truth.  How far do you think that will get you in your own healing and ascension process… and connecting with Source?!

People talk of “your truth” and I highly encourage everyone to speak your truth as that in turn encourages others to do so and now we have an exchange of information / light.  But even though “your truth” creates your reality, it may not be in line with The Truth and yes folks, there is The Truth, no matter how much your disempowering programs tells you there isn’t.

And, when creating at the level of slowly-but-surely ascending a big ol’ planet and its many lifeforms, having that knowingness about your creations is kinda key, perhaps mostly just for your own sanity since, as I’ve said, most of your outwardly manifested creation is happening in 5D not in 3D.  You’re influencing the energy here through both your Doingness and Beingness, but the 5D physicality of it all will be yours when you get to 5D.  Just KNOW it.

But you must surely KNOW the HUGE energetic shift that is happening currently… right?!  Feel it?  Sense it in the world around you ?

And just to include this great tidbit:

Judgement is a left-brained logical function based in reason and 

Discernment is a right-brained intuitive function based in knowingness.  Use it!


Now, the tale on my mind….

Must be a couple years ago now, I had commented on a blog and someone else said a few things to me and asked me to email them.  I knew I was to go there so there I went.  We communicated for a few months then something came up for them that I was to help them realize consciously and at that point we both knew our time together was over.  I guess our “reason” was done.  I know from this person’s blog that they get that a lot, that people coming and going thing.  Don’t we all.   Purpose served.  Move along now, nothing to see here.

But one day we were online at the same time and were emailing, kinda in real time, had a few different threads going, then this person slipped in a new thread.  It had no subject title, just a link with no comment by them.

I could see by the link what source it was from.  I was aware of this source and it’s been around for a lot of years but I’ve read very little from them as I’ve had no draw.  I still didn’t have any draw to it with it sitting there in front of me.  That was my first sign and usually the only sign I’d ever need.  If I’d have run across that online somewhere no way would I have read it.

… but this person sent it.  I made myself open it.  About a paragraph in and it was too much.  I about wanted to hurl.  That was my next sign.  And me, silly me, long past such nonsense and WAY too sensitive to energies to be doing such.  *shaking head*

I set it aside for then but later on I decided I’d just force myself to read it.  Ugh.  It was like schlogging through some energetic equivalent of quick sand, sewage, and Le Brea tar pits.  Yuk.    Ok, ok, I know, I wasn’t supposed to go there!

But words-wise, the kinda general gist of it at just a word level, well, I could see how someone who doesn’t discern energy well could have read that message and read the exchanges between the person who sent it to me and myself and I could see how they might think, “You two must love that kind of thing, it’s right up your alley, oh hell, it sounds just like the things you talk about.”  Uh huh.  And yet, yep, reading it made me wanna hurl.

I wrote back to this person and asked “Are you TRYING to make me hurl?  Whataya doin’ to me?”  I then told them what I’ve told you.

They write back, “It made me feel the same.”

I was laughing and told them that was a whole lot like “This tastes horrible.  Here taste it!”

You shouldn’t have.  No really.

Words aside, there was something energetically or intentionally sick and wrong about that message and we both picked up on it.

I told this person that with such there have been times when I would’ve picked it apart with the Divine’s assistance, to learn what the real intention is and hence real meaning, but felt no need to do that in this case and had tortured myself enough with it.


Taking outside information inwardly, to your Divine Self, asking about specifics is always good.  Truths mixed in with lies can sometimes make ya swallow a lie, but you don’t need to just let such things sit at a pea brain (lower mind) level.  Ask the Divine.

Reincarnation and Karma

These topics were brought up in comments (thank you TYM – obviously my muse today).  See previous post comments.  You may want to read those first for some background.

I had enough to say about it that it was time to write a post.

A few years back, during the ascension-hell years (well for me anyway), I took up discussion with God about karma and reincarnation.

Well, first, let’s back up a bit… I’ll just start by saying that I’ve always had a slightly different perspective on what karma is.  Many people seem to think of it as… “you were bad / good before so you’re being punished / rewarded now” kinda thing.

To me karma has been more about unfinished business.  It’s energetic business for sure.  Often times intense emotional energy is involved.  But it’s not so “judgy” as the conventional ideas of karma.

I’ll offer up as examples a couple of stories I’d heard many years ago from a fellow who was interviewed on a radio show.  He was a chiropractor.  Well, unbeknownst to him years before, he had a natural healing gift.  Well it started to surface and his first clue was when several clients would tell him he was making them feel so good and he hadn’t even touched ’em yet.  Over time it became apparent that he had a healing gift.  Then some of his clients would go into a trance state and start talking about all sorts of things.  He came to realize they were accessing past-life events.  He started recording his sessions to study later.  So these are the stories (Reader’s Digest Condensed Version – omg, how dated is that?  Giving my age away again) of two of his clients.

A woman, during a session with him, went into trance and started talking in German.  He had no idea what she was saying but it was recorded so he had it translated later.   In a past life she had been married to a military officer in Nazi Germany.  She had secretly been helping people escape persecution from the Nazis.  When the war ended, her husband came home and had said that he was so glad the war was over, he was so tired of killing people.  Because of this she thought she could open up to him about helping people.  Mistake.  He got ticked and proceeded to beat, rape and kill her.  Perhaps needless to say, she left the world in a very emotional state… and hadn’t had the chance to work through that emotional energy.  In her modern-day lifetime, that past-life emotional energy (probably especially due to the rape) manifested in her reproductive organs, like with ovarian or uterine cancer (can’t remember which).

Another client, a man, went into trance and what came out was that he had been a priest in a past life and had been captured by someone and was tortured on the rack, castrated and killed.  Just like with the lady client, he had left that lifetime in a traumatic, highly emotional state and didn’t have time in that life to work through it.  It greeted him in his modern-day life as testicular cancer.

In both cases, they were dealing with unfinished business.  Neither had been “bad” per se in their former lifetime and so didn’t “deserve punishment” but nevertheless, they had some things to finish up.


So… flash forward many years later and I take up some in-depth discussion with God about what the deal is with karma and reincarnation.

So, I’m told that my concept of unfinished business is accurate.  Karma is energy that stays in the 3D Earth realm (matrix?) and if / when you return it’s there waiting for you.  A chance to finish that unfinished business.

But what I got from God in recent years is… that leftover energy is very personal, it’s one’s own energy so doesn’t really affect the overall 3D realm, well, unless we are actually here incarnate then that energy affects the world THROUGH us, BUT just because that energy is still in the 3D matrix, waiting for you to work it out, it does NOT determine if or that you must reincarnate and deal with it.  If you do return, yep, danged handy to work that out so it doesn’t become a stumbing block in your current incarnation and if you want to ascend from here you’ll be needing to heal such things.  But if you do not reincarnate, your leftovers aren’t hurting anyone else.  And they are also NOT requiring your return.

I was told that I myself offer a good example.  I have incarnated here before, but when I left I didn’t get trapped into thinking I had to return.  I am here now to help Gaia and humanity and that was by choice, not because of karma.  I did indeed have past-life karma though, see here, and I did have that come up for healing and knocked that out.

So… what I’m told is that ultimately what determines one’s “escape from the wheel of reincarnation” is just sheer consciousness, having a high enough level of consciousness to see this Earthly realm for the illusion it is and not feeling any need / musts / shoulds to have to return.  That level of consciousness may not be all that is required for ascension and it may indeed still involve leaving some unfinished business / energetic leftovers in the 3D Earth realm, but it will keep you off the reincarnation hamster wheel when you pass through the death portal.


Some of what came up in our comments had to do with souls having this “pull” towards “loved ones” from their incarnation(s) and that holding them to the Earth realm.  This reminds me of people who are so concerned that they will ascend and leave their “loved ones” behind.

First, you have neither the Power nor the Responsibility to get anyone else ascended.  You do have influence though.  Use it.

Second, who do you mean by “loved ones”?  You mean your “family” and “friends”?  Only them?  So the neighbor down the street who you could really live without who was your, idk, family or friend in a prior life, you’re not concerned about them?  Yeah, yeah, I know you’re having a rather unique relationship right now with, ya know, your “loved ones” and not to play that down mind ya, but when it comes right down to it, they’re just another soul, no more and no less significant than any other.

Yeah, I would hope you do have some sense of SERVICE for your fellow human since that’s ultimately your (and everyone’s) soul mission in a time of planetary ascension, but I would also hope you have sense enough to realize that your greatest influence towards assisting others is to do your own inner work.  I really hope you don’t hold back on / resist your own healing and ascension process out of concern for others… only to learn down the road that they are actually prepared… and you aren’t.

Reverse Speech with David John Oates

For anyone who is not familiar with reverse speech, well, take a gander.

I’ve known of this and Oates for many years.  Wonderful information comes through.

In a nutshell, by listening to someone’s speech in reverse, some messages come through and often times it’s when someone stutters, stammers, puts in filler words like “uh” whatever, ya know, when someone goes “off script” literally in some cases like with prewritten speeches, but also in a more metaphoric way when someone’s just gathering their thoughts or searching for the right word to say.  The reversals are essentially from one’s own subconscious… which doesn’t lie.  Reversals can even be detected on infants who can’t speak forward yet.

So, what might show up in reverse could be anything from confirming or denying what’s being said in forwards to, regardless of topics being spoken of, the reversals might show what’s really on the speaker’s mind concerning some completely unrelated topic.

I thought I’d offer up this video of David John Oates on with Jeff Rense.  What Oates has found with Trump is that he’s just pretty darned straight up.  His reversals jive with his forward speech.  He means what he says, no deceit, no b.s. and is usually very present and his reversals don’t indicate his mind being elsewhere.

So on the Jeff Rense show just prior to this one, David and Jeff were really surprised to see reversals that were just not tracking as closely as usual to the forward speech and they couldn’t figure out what was up.  So they got some additional clues before this show.  I’m with David and Jeff on thinking that Trump, just before this speech, had come to realize some more horrors of this world.

From there just run with whatever reversals you’d like to check out from David.

David John Oates – Reverse Speech – youtube

Something to See

“Something To See”

No war no greed
That would be something to see
I hope I live that long

No blood in the streets
Just a distant memory
The history books recount

Now we’re all free
Now we’re all free

No war no greed
That would be something to see
I hope I live that long

No want no need
The struggle to end poverty
Finally has been won

Now we’re all free
Now we’re all free

No war no greed
That would be something to see
I hope I live that long

Hold my consitution
And have the courage of heart and mind
To right what is wrong

Now we’re all free
Now we’re all free

But now you can’t believe
What you’re told
You can’t believe what you hear
The speeches of the politicians
Ring untrue and insincere
You can’t believe what you read
You can’t believe what’s said
They count the targets and the bombs
But do not count the dead
They do not count the dead

No war no greed
That would be something to see
I hope I live that long

Not lose my faith
In every word on the page
In the face of freedom

No war no greed
No war no greed
No war no greed

Current Events… for Dummies

Ok, I’m going to put out my perspective here and frankly, if I do say so m’self, I’ve got a pretty good perspective on this whole sitchiation.  Hopefully folks can learn a bit from it.

This may be so cursory it’s not even funny, but my Sadge Moon loves the Big Picture so I’ll let you and the Divine hammer out the details.


Let’s see, to really comprehend current events one would have to know some things about the past, about how we got to where we are.

First, this Earthly realm is 3D so it’s very dense and slow.  It’s Duality so that brings its own illusory component.

And if the aforementioned doesn’t make things cloudy and confusing enough, about oh, 10,000 to 14,000 years ago (or so) there was a great calamity.  The fall of Atlantis perhaps?  And that stemmed from power trips from “aliens”, literally, as in “not originally from here” who were messing with the locals and other aliens / visitors.

There were many souls who left through the death portal (how’s that for a euphemism?) and those still incarnate were thrown into survival mode for thousands of years.  So that whole scene wasn’t doing a whole lot for helping people maintain their Divine connection.  Things don’t get shared and documented when your tech has been blown away, you’re busted down to caveman level and you’re in constant survival mode.

Some wisdom survived.  Some cultures maintained esoteric knowledge.  The Druids were a biggy in this regard.  Michael Tsarion can help you understand that history and also the wisdom maintained there.  But, try as they might, the Druids weren’t able to keep the precious esoteric knowledge from those who would abuse it.

What always comes to mind for me is what “Jesus” (ya know, that “composite character” of the New Testament, ya know, from the Bible, aka, the product of Constantine the Great and the Council of Nicea) supposedly told the establishment… and I paraphrase, “You have the knowledge, you won’t let anyone else have it and yet you don’t know what to do with it.”  To this day the global cabal still don’t know what to do with the esoteric knowledge they’ve worked so hard to keep from all of us.  They get all hung up on the “out there” of it all, using the esoteric in exoteric ways, trying to do outwardly what can only be done inwardly, to utilize Outer Technology when it’s Inner Technology that’s called for.  They get all obsessed with the nuts and bolts of it all and they do some bad, nasty, “dark” sh*t, completely lacking in Love and Compassion, kinda mostly consciously although they certainly don’t see the full spiritual repercussions for themselves, silly cabal anyway.  Just because they think themselves “Illumined” does not make them so.  They’ve worked hard to keep the people from knowing the esoteric wisdom so they are like the one-eyed man in the land of the blind, but they still do not have full “sight” / consciousness.  Far from it.

The cabal has its various facets.  They work together in an overall way but they don’t agree on everything and in some cases don’t even like each other.  I often think of them as various coaches on a football team – they are all on the same team, working together but have different ideas on how to go about it.  There are religion, government, media, education, commerce, technology, medicine, food, etc. components.  They lie, trick, deceive and poison to gain and maintain control over people.  They energetically feed off of fear.  They love killing off humans and other lifeforms but they love the slow, fearful, agonizing sort of lingering death so they can get their extended energetic jollies.  Sick psycho f*cks that they are.  Excuse my French but it warranted the emphasis.

They’ve been up to their shenanigans for millennia but they really turned up the heat in the last century or so.

Right now there is much going on concerning the “Deep State” which is basically a bunch of bureaucrats who are not elected but appointed and also people within the various agencies and they can and have often been around for years in government as presidents and congressmen come and go.  If their allegiances are to the cabal and not the Constitution then the country is ruled by tyrants and unelected ones at that.

David Icke is a really good source on comprehending the whole cabal thing.  Tsarion and Icke can and do provide info about both distant and more recent history – and that would be a much truer version of history than you find in your history textbooks or through the mainstream media (msm) – but I’d recommend Tsarion for the more distant past and Icke for more recent stuff, like last century or so.  Lots of videos and articles put out by these two, but with David, I’d strongly encourage anyone and everyone to read at least one of his books.  Check out his book list and see which one sparks an interest.  Now, it’s gonna read like a history book because that’s exactly what it is.

Alex Jones is all over this stuff too.  Jones really knows politics and history and he’s just such a wonderful example of emotional expression.  He just expresses in front of God and everyone.  Many lightworkers (LWs) could learn from that.  His emotional expression would have been awesome to utilize in transmuting crap out of Gaia a few years back as we readied her for ascension, but he’s having to be in “release maintenance” mode I’m sure just for his own sake as he looks at reams of horrific news day in and day out.  His love for humanity is unmistakable.  What a mother lode of passion that man is.  Alex and his InfoWars gang have daily news shows to keep you current.

All three will tell ya that the cabal like to document everything they plan and do and they laid out some recent plans a century or two ago and wrote it all down and one can just read the stuff and see how it’s all playing out.  The cabal aren’t prophets, they’re architects.  They weren’t predicting, they were planning, then set about to manifest their plans… over decades, generations, centuries.  Meanwhile Joe Average has a tough time digesting this information in part because poor Joe has been so beaten down and dumbed down that he can’t imagine anyone actually making plans generations out and many people cooperating  especially people who don’t even like each other in some cases.  Yep, even the cabal have got something to teach others in the dept. of cooperation, longsightedness, diligence and patience.

Along those lines, it’s downright asinine for people to say that some of the global cabal political stooges are “incompetent”.  People say such, as if to say that these politicians were aiming to help their country and fellow human and just fell on their faces and made a big mess.  No.  They were never aiming to help anyone but themselves and the mess WAS their goal.  They meant to make the mess, to cause the destruction.  They’d been hitting their mark on that for many years.  Pretty tough to call that incompetence.

And many people still don’t understand the level of environmental destruction and, brace yourself, don’t know that the cabal are very literally terraforming this planet.  Not kidding.  (It’s also called geoengineering.)  Strange to use a term like “terraform”, Terra being Earth, when it’s being used to make Earth less Earth-like, less Terra-like.   They’re trying to “terraform” humans too for that matter.  And yep, the “cabal” themselves couldn’t do it by themselves.  We’ve all played into it to some degree or another at some time or another.  Our own creative energies hijacked and used against us and our planet.


So… let’s fast forward to the immediate now and talk some specifics of what is going on right now.

Contrary to what the msm propaganda machine says about Trump, he is working for the light and no dear lightworkers (LWs), not in some roundabout, indirect way like a frickin’ burr under your saddle, but very directly so, very INTENTIONALLY so.

If he or anyone is serving as a proverbial burr under your saddle you’ve got some work to do.  Someone’s light is shining into YOUR darkness.  Tend to your own bidness… and while you’re at it, thank the Divine for sending you Trump so you can wake up to your own issues.  The question you need to be asking is not why does the guy push your buttons or stir up fear in you, the question is WHY DO YOU HAVE THE BUTTONS AND FEARS.  Whose?  Whose buttons and fears?  Own ’em.  Now you can actually get about healing that instead of playing the victim.  And again, shut off the war-mongering and fear-mongering msm already. They’re obviously scaring the crap outta you… then feeding on your fears.

Trump knows he’s working for God.  He sees a good part of the true big picture here but not all of it.  He’s not perfect, he’s not your savior – you are!  He’s got plenty enough left to learn, plenty of space to grow into – same with many of you still, especially if you can’t get past your conditioning, which is being constantly “refreshed” from the msm and hence you can’t understand that Trump is working WITH us – but he’s absolutely the sort to flow with those growth and learning opportunities.

If you don’t understand that I strongly suggest you get to know him as directly as you can and not go through someone else’s filters, bias and agenda… certainly NOT through the msm’s lies.   The msm is the global cabal’s mouthpiece, yes, their propaganda machine.  They work to maintain your continued enslavement and disempowerment.  Tired of listening to them yet?

Here’s an example – don’t only look at the tweets from President Trump that the msm tell you about (who definitely cherry pick and then do their spin on ’em), but look at ALL of his tweets, including all the ones where he is reporting his progress to his bosses, the American people.  Wow, how awesome is that?!   He actually IS transparent rather than just paying transparency lip service like Obama did.  But the msm refuse to report on Trump getting his job done and fulfilling his campaign promises, then act like he’s not or that he’s not focused on his job or won’t talk about it when it is THEY, the msm who refuse to focus on, well, much of anything “real”, the president’s job included.  Just the typical msm magician’s trick of waving one hand, “Look over here!  Look over here!”, while it’s the other hand that is up to something.  The msm try to control the narrative, intentionally talking A LOT about some things and not about others.

And some of what Trump says in his tweets or how he says it, well, he’s just so playing the msm and they fall for it, over and over, seemingly just can’t wait to expose themselves more, lining up to take a number.  He talks about doing his job, often daily for weeks on end and the msm say nothing.  Then he throws some chum out there for them and they go for it.  Beyond predictable.

I had to chuckle the other day… I went out for breakfast at this busy cafe and sat at the counter.  Got to talking to a couple people.  One of them brings up, out of the blue, all the Trump tweet stuff.  I told them it sounded like they listened to the msm.  Come to find out, they really didn’t know there was any other way to get news, not so computer / internet savvy… but did have an i-phone so I know they have the means.  I slung terms at them like “mainstream media”, “alternative media”, “Alex Jones” to which this person said something about conspiracy so at least I know they’ve heard of Alex, lol, thank you msm for at least shooting yourself in the foot by telling the world about Alex Jones… and I said “global cabal”.  “Global what?” they say.  Ha!  But just after that whole scene, I was thinking – do people really think that there is nothing else going on in the world, nothing else to report on but some of President Trump’s more colorful tweets?  I just find even THAT to be so hilarious.  Alex likes to say folks are “low information”.  Indeed.  I’m sure if this person actually went and looked up Alex they got a tsunami of information.  Whoosh!

And looping back… Obama was / is pretty much ALL deceit, ALL the time… which, yep O, Life and the Divine would just LOVE for some transparency from you too and all your cabal cronies including the msm who have been covering for ya all.  And in lieu of your volunteered transparency, Life and the Divine would happily settle for exposure.

I do declare, it is the Apocalypse!  Word origin of apocalypse = uncover, reveal.  Indeed.  Apocalypse Now!

And that exposure will apply to everyone, yourselves included dear lightworkers.  Time for the light to shine into every dark corner, yours too.

And here’s a novel idea, perhaps you could include the Divine in your quest for Truth about Trump.  I frankly don’t know why anyone wouldn’t want to draw on the Divine’s higher perspective on everything that is going on here.

Trump cares about Truth, Justice and the American way.  He’s definitely for the Constitution and is a States’ Rights advocate which is about as constitutional as it gets.  He’ll openly talk about what he knows about the cabal – although he may not think of them by that term, he might think of ’em as “globalists” or maybe “establishment”.  I prefer “cabal” as it communicates more and is a word that many of the unawakened are not even aware of.  “Globalist” doesn’t show the whole picture and I could see how Joe Average might see “establishment” as like career politicians or similar.  It goes beyond such things.  Trump openly talking about “the cabal”, well, that’s why he so resonated with so many people – Republican, Democrat, whoever, he just called the political cabal stooges on the carpet, called ’em on their b.s.  The awakened Americans couldn’t believe their ears.  Wow, someone actually running for president who could actually pull it off, who actually openly, honestly talks about the cabal… and on the stage of either presidential campaigning or in office, the msm have a tough time censoring that.  I don’t know that Trump sees the full picture of the global cabal yet, but he ain’t scared to talk about the parts he does understand.  And when he tweets, the msm just hate that.  They used to be the valve for information and now they aren’t.  He passes the ball over their heads, directly to the people.  Double plus whah to you, fargon msm iceholes.


I had to laugh that I saw someone do an astrological reading on Trump and one thing that came up is he “likes to win”.  No… really?  I couldn’t tell.  But there was comment from this astrologer about there being some concern about that… and ego this and ego that… blah, blah, woof, woof.  I told my friend about this and said, “Hey, we have a president who is actually working for the Truth and the Light and he wants to win!  Frickin’ Score!”  Would you prefer Truth and Light don’t win out here?  Really?

Lightworkers, you’d best want to “win” also, because the Divine does and you might as well get aligned with that because the Divine is NOT giving up on this ascension project and all the many folks who still need to wake up and heal.  You being “in it to win it” is not only going to make your efforts more effective, it will also improve your attitude, perhaps get you out of “oh poor me” mode and step into those Powerful Creator shoes that have been waiting for you.

Lightworkers, it’s long past time to get over being scared / fearful of or timid about showing yourselves!  You certainly didn’t come here to not show yourselves.  Shine!  In front of God and EVERYBODY!  Gods are NOT fearful or timid.

For Christ’s sake (very literally), don’t help the cabal keep human divinity a secret!

Over time I’ve seen a few lightworkers who say that “winning and losing” is old paradigm. It was especially funny to see that one person who was saying this was also promoting a hashtag of #LoveisWinning and someone called ’em on it, saying that if they weren’t buying the whole win / lose thing then perhaps a different hashtag was in order. lmao

In a Dualistic realm, the illusion part of winning / losing is the “losing” part.  In “God’s realm”, The Realm of the Absolute, there is ONLY winning.  There is no “failure” because you just keep after it… until you win.  You can think of the whole journey as the path to winning.  Yeah, so there are some bumps along the way.  So what.  Just do your best to not get off on some distraction detour.

Folks, if ever there was something where one person winning then helps the next person win, it would be ascension!  Our collective energetic connection plays a big role in that.  As I’ve said elsewhere, God is not allowing for failure on this.  Let me translate that for you – if something doesn’t work, then something else gets attempted.  And be thankful that we forerunners didn’t call it quits and slit our wrists during our intense energetic service work or none of ya all may even still be here.  You’re welcome.  Now don’t YOU give up on everyone else.  We didn’t give up on you lightworkers!  It’s not a case of “Oh well, we tried, we give up, let’s take our ball and go home”  Ah no.   Be in it to win it.  No one else loses because of your winning.  Quite the contrary.

And be thankful that the POTUS is also in it to win it because 3D would be one out-of-control mess right now if he hadn’t gotten in… *shuddering* I shudder to think.  Trump is (as Kryon has said, see info at end of post) a Wild Card, yep, gotta say it… a Trump card, played at the nth minute.  3D dodged a major bullet right there.  There’s plenty of work since and continuing forward because the cabal are not giving up easily.  Many will more than likely have to be prosecuted for their crimes and imprisoned (or die) before they’ll stop their nonsense.  And that all brings more opportunity for more people to wake up to the truth of things.  And that right there is the biggest and best reason to prosecute these, ah, well “people” (use that term loosely with these psychos).  It is not for revenge or punishment, not even really so much for justice, but really more for Truth.  It provides a chance for those who have been unwittingly supporting these cabal stooges to wake up to who it is they’ve been supporting.


And on states’ rights, I’d heard Larry Nichols (who used to be a hitman for the Clintons, who trained them in their wicked political ways but watched them go off the deep end with it and so he has worked hard for many years to now expose the Clintons), who is a big states’ rights advocate, say that the founding fathers didn’t so much know what we all might want and need down the road but they did know what they didn’t want for the country.   They knew they didn’t want an authoritarian government.  So, as Larry said, the Constitution wasn’t so much about telling people what to do but telling the federal government what NOT to do.  The “what to do” part was covered by allowing for each state to maintain its sovereignty and states’ rights and decide for themselves what they wanted for their state… and that allows for “competition” in a good way, allowing for many ideas to see fruition.  Don’t like what your state is up to?  Then either work to change it or move to another state.  The states will then learn from their own and each other’s trial and error.

And Larry told a semi-recent tale … There was a bill that went through a state’s congress and all it needed was the governor’s signature, but the governor made the mistake of asking their state attorney general to ask the feds if it was ok to do this.  Errr!  Wrong answer.  By doing that they were giving the authority of their state over to the feds.  Much to be learned from this on a personal level.  No one can truly take authority over your life but you sure can give it away.

And as far as worldly governments go, the U.S. Constitution is about as close to documenting one’s God-given rights as any could be.


Because I was holding a higher space for others for years, I very intentionally did not allow my focus onto 3D events and yet if you spend any time online you can’t help but see some of it peeking out at ya (SO glad the campaign is over, I was SO sick of seeing Killery’s ugly mug popping up here, there and everywhere, I can’t EVEN imagine the amount of money spent on advertising by her…to no avail).  So with no effort, oh hell even trying to avoid the news, I couldn’t help but notice that the global cabal can’t stand Trump and are fighting him on every front.  Well, there’s yer first sign.  But then, if you don’t understand the global cabal, don’t “know them by their fruits”, don’t understand their methods and don’t know their names (and many names are quite knowable), then you might not pick up on their all-out assault on the elected president… and on you!

Words like treason, insurrection, traitor, sedition come to mind.  Such is and will continue to be exposed.

This isn’t about left or right, this is about Truth and it’s about who is awake and to what.

The cabal have played both sides of the 2-party system (and every other form of political parties / systems in countries across the globe) for a long time.  They have players in both parties.  They were having such a sh*t hemorrhage over Trump getting in that even George Bush Sr. came out with a video (did ya catch it?) endorsing Hillary and FINALLY admitting what those of us who have known the truth for years have known – that the Bushes and the Clintons have been good friends for years.  What?!  But that doesn’t fit the political brainwashed paradigm.  Well, Bill Clinton is a Rockefeller bastard.  Rockefeller did favors for Bush (I do believe by getting him into the CIA) so Bush returned the favor by looking out for his bastard son Bill.  And they’re all in cahoots… even when they put on such a good show of being “political enemies”.  They’ve been good actors alright.  So much so that they have all the actors duped.  They can outact the actors.

There are battles of light and dark going on everywhere.  The various alphabet agencies have cabal stooges and patriots alike working for them.  They are currently in a civil war.  One side is attempting a coup on the presidency and government.  The other side is running a counter-coup.  All of us who care about the Truth are playing our role in the counter-coup.

Those “White Hats” (as some like to call them) inside the agencies who care about Truth, Justice, the Constitution and their fellow human, they leak, hack or whistle blow about what their agency is up to.

I’ve not liked LWs obsessing on the so-called “White Hats” in their various roles because the LWs need to play their own role and do their own inner work.  Those White Hats won’t “save” you and yet does it really surprise you to think there are, ya know, “good guys” in, oh say, the CIA for example?!  Wherever there is darkness light will be shined.

And the Divine is always in on the deal, always playing their hand, lining things up, helping folks wake up.  So, case in point – Trump’s head and heart are in the right place overall, he’s got the necessary skills required at this moment, but yeah, still some things to learn, some bigger picture perspective to take in.

For example, Trump has basically said that Snowden was a traitor and should be in prison.  For what?  For exposing the traitors in the NSA who are illegally spying on each and every American citizen.  Oh well now… what’s coming to light now is that the Obama administration was using the various agencies to spy on Trump and his family for years.  Yep, them and me and you and everyone.  Interesting how Life and the Divine bring all this stuff to a head.  Trump didn’t see what a HERO Snowden has been to disclose what the NSA has been up to.  Now the NSA’s crap has hit Trump directly.  I’d wager that before this is all said and done, a certain President Trump will pardon Snowden.

The Trump admin seemingly also has issue with Wikileaks… now.  Gee, just loved ’em before election time.  Come on there Trump admin folks, pull your heads out!  Wikileaks is helping to disclose the Truth in the world and they do so VERY professionally, I might add.  Downright enviably so.  That Wikileaks Truth helped to get Trump elected.  Now you’ll bite the hand that fed you… and that cares for and stands for TRUTH?  You’d best get yourselves FULLY aligned with Truth for Truth IS God and vise versa so that will mean also aligning yourselves with others who align with Truth.  Get your priorities straight.  Step out of the old paradigm b.s. “rules” and for Christ’s sake (again, literally) support the disclosure of TRUTH!

And even though frickin’ spying on the Trumps for that long, the cabal, try as they might, can’t come up with anything that will stick to Trump.  He’s so frickin’ squeaky clean it’s not even funny.  Some could consider the man a downright “saint” compared to me, well, you know, from a tainted and judgy 3D Earth perspective.  😉  And I helped get a planet ascension-ready, so I’d wager he and his folks can turn the big ship of a country around… perhaps not achieving quite the lofty, saintly accomplishments as we *cough, cough* forerunners, but hey… 😉   *breathing on knuckle / ring and shining it on shirt front*

All they have about him is just smear, lies.

I had to laugh that around the time of the election I saw someone leave a comment on a blog saying, “All the lightworkers only talk about Hillary’s bad stuff and none of Trump’s.”

First, I want to know where these LWs are who see these truths.

Second, well, you see, there’s just THAT much bad sh*t to say about her.  It’s not smear when it’s true.

Presently, while the cabal Democrats, Republicans, msm, the technocracy are doing everything they can to bring Trump down, he has his teams working in the background – not intentionally “quietly” but when the msm won’t report on it then the sheeple don’t find out about it – busting many pedophile rings.  Only a matter of time before they start arresting the big names in the cabal.  And if you weren’t aware of all that, well the cabal are and that’s why they are in such a sh*t-panic and going so outside-the-law to try to stop Trump.  Just unsane, truly.  The cabal are all a bunch of pedophiles, satanists and have crimes against humanity a mile long.  And those terms are NOT just me slinging insults.  That’s reality, literally.  (Never mind that “satan” was not a name and hence not an entity. Yep, the cabal worship a non-entity.  They may have managed to keep humanity duped for a long time but they still aren’t the sharpest tools in the shed.)

So, ah yeah folks, Trump is our teammate.  Make no mistake about it.  Get your head out of the New York Slimes and the Washington Compost (currently owned by Bezos of Amazon who is in a contract with the CIA and helps them leak damaging info about their “enemies”, which, at least indirectly, could be you) ‘cuz they’re just feeding you a load of crap and would be happy to sell you down the road and have been.  I told someone recently that they’d literally be better off to shut off the msm and not even replace it with anything than to continue to listen to it.  Perhaps their own intuition might stand a chance then without the constant msm brainwashing.

But it’s ok, you don’t have to stop there.  The Truth is certainly in this world… and well documented!  And the Divine would be happy to guide you to the pieces of the puzzle that you need to learn.


But there are many “truthers” and “lightworkers” who don’t really know the truth of things as much as they’d like to think.  David Icke, as much of a one-man army that man was for so many years and what a HUGE role he’s played in exposing the cabal, he thinks Trump is cabal.  I even heard David say something like, “Even though Trump has money, if the cabal wanted to stop him they could, so he must be one of them.”  Goodness sakes David, how many frickin’ times has someone said that about you, not about the money but that the cabal kill off people left and right, just willy nilly, then get back to eating their breakfast, so if Mr. David Icke is not working for the cabal, why haven’t they killed him off yet?  Hmm?  Gee David, idk, is it because you are doing the Divine’s Will and hence have Divine Protection and are also tapping into that soul-centered quality called Courage, which further protects you?!  Gosh, could your pea brain possibly compute that it’s the same for Trump?  Ya think?  I’ve seriously considered starting a post titled “Who are you and what have you done with David Icke?”  and the content would have to beg the question of David – Do you not recognize your own success when you see it?  Has your intuition completely gone out the window?  Are you really that stuck in a groove, an endless loop tape, a skipping record?  “This is the way it’s always been and this is the way it will always be…. Beep.”  lol  But dear Grasshopper, you came to change things up here AND IT’S WORKING!  Now all that’s left is you need to recognize that.


Also see info I’ve left in comments below and on Exposure and also see Kryon’s message I left in comments on Upcoming Chaos.  If ya haven’t caught on yet, I’ve buried some info in comments here and there, hopefully pertaining to the topic of that post.

Read Awake & Aware – Top Priority: Self for some good “Awakening 101”.




If you knew that you would die today
If you saw the face of God and Love
Would you change?
Would you change?
If you knew that love can break your heart
When you’re down so low you cannot fall
Would you change?
Would you change?

How bad how good does it need to get?
How many losses how much regret?
What chain reaction
What cause and effect
Makes you turn around
Makes you try to explain
Makes you forgive and forget
Makes you change
Makes you change

If you knew that you would be alone
Knowing right being wrong
Would you change?
Would you change?
If you knew that you would find a truth
That brings a pain that can’t be soothed
Would you change?
Would you change?

How bad how good does it need to get?
How many losses how much regret?
What chain reaction
What cause and effect
Makes you turn around
Makes you try to explain
Makes you forgive and forget
Makes you change
Makes you change

Are you so upright you can’t be bent
If it comes to blows
Are you so sure you won’t be crawling
If not for the good why risk falling
Why risk falling

If everything you think you know
Makes your life unbearable
Would you change?
Would you change?
If you’d broken every rule and vow
And hard times come to bring you down
Would you change?
Would you change?

If you knew that you would die today
If you saw the face of God and Love
Would you change?
Would you change?

Sticks and Stones…

Wisdom of Children:  “Sticks and stones can break my bones, but words can never hurt me.”

Awakened:  “What you think of me is none of my business.”

How true!

Other people’s words and thoughts don’t create your life and reality…

… but YOUR thoughts and words do!

Anyone who thinks and speaks of “how done unto” they are by someone else’s words and thoughts are in victimhood.  Ain’t no one else keeping them in victimhood.  Their victim status is self-imposed.

Are you mindful of your thoughts and words?  Are you creating what you want?

Are you a limitless creator creating an experience of limit?  How’s that working out?  Is it still as fun as it used to be?  lol

People seem to be screaming for Power.  If you want your Power you’re going to have to take Responsibility.  Power and Responsibility go hand in hand.  How can and will you create what you want when you have yet to acknowledge that your life and your reality are YOUR CREATION?!   You’re never not creating.  You’re always creating.  How’s about doing so consciously.

Start anew by acknowledging your own creations thus far.  Take a look around.  Yep.  All yours.  Own it.  Good, bad or indifferent, you done it up right!  You powerful creator you.

Now, if you’ve chosen to create consciously… see anything you’d like to change up a bit?

Do you still listen to / watch the msm (mainstream media)?



No really.

Do you like being lied to?  Do you have some aversion to the Truth?  What in the world there “truthers” and “lightworkers”?

It’s time to SEE the TRUTH.

Let the cabal stooge propaganda machine known as “main stream media” (how “main stream” is it anymore with only about a 5 or 6 % confidence / approval rating?) fall by the wayside already.

And for goodness sakes, quit letting it keep polluting your mind, your energy field, your outlook and hijacking your creative energies.

No really.

It’s one thing to monitor them occasionally to see what new b.s. they’re up to but when you find YOU are parroting THAT paradigm out your own mouth / keyboard… *shaking head*

Time to put your big kid pants on and perhaps also your thinking cap.  😉  Time to choose.  Are you moving onward and upward or staying behind?  Put all your energies behind your decision.  If you want to be godlike you’ll have to Embrace the Truth.  Consuming and regurgitating msm lies is not getting you closer to Truth.

Folks, at this point in time, what don’t you get about this?

(also see Current Events… for Dummies)

Heaven’s Here on Earth

Bring Heaven to Earth through YOU!

“Heaven’s Here On Earth”

You can look to the stars in search of the answers
Look for God and life on distant planets
Have your faith in the ever after
While each of us holds inside the map to the labyrinth
And heaven’s here on earth

We are the spirit the collective conscience
We create the pain and the suffering and the beauty in this world
Heaven’s here on earth

In our faith in humankind
In our respect for what is earthly
In our unfaltering belief in peace and love and understanding

I’ve seen and met angels wearing the disguise
Of ordinary people leading ordinary lives
Filled with love, compassion, forgiveness and sacrifice
Heaven’s in our hearts

In our faith in humankind
In our respect for what is earthly
In our unfaltering belief in peace and love and understanding

Look around
Believe in what you see
The kingdom is at hand
The promised land is at your feet
We can and will become what we aspire to be
If Heaven’s here on earth

If we have faith in humankind
And respect for what is earthly
And an unfaltering belief that truth is divinity
And heaven’s here on earth

I’ve seen spirits
I’ve met angels
Touched creations beautiful and wondrous
I’ve been places where I question all I think I know
But I believe, I believe, I believe this could be heaven

We are born inside the gates with the power to create life
And to take it away
The world is our temple
The world is our church
Heaven’s here on earth

If we have faith in humankind
And respect for what is earthly
And an unfaltering belief
In peace and love and understanding
This could be heaven here on earth


They’re having such a good time David lost his pants!

“Set yourself free!  Ha, ha, ha.”

What you need is Revival!


Well I passed you by this morning
You were stumblin’ down the street
And by the look upon your face
I could tell you wasn’t
Feeling too sweet

You dropped down to the bottom
That’s what you
Gone and did
Livin’ in a bad dream
Finally flipped your lid

Well – Superman I’ve got
News for you
And everybody else
That’s listenin’ too
There’s a new way out
If yer ready to hear
We’re gonna make it clear

What we need is revival!

Look at that girl
She’s the saddest thing
You’ve ever seen
Washed up and faded
Like a dirty old pair of jeans

She’s running round in circles
But she don’t have a single friend
Looks like her own bitterness
Has twisted her till the end

Well – Mona Lisa look me in the eye
And tell me when
You’re gonna get satisfied
I’m gonna spell it out
Right in front of you
This is what you have to do –

Get ready for revival!

It’s gonna lift you
Right up
From your prison cell
Play it out loud
Like a ringing bell
You go

Are You Living or Dying?

Are you unconsciously in constant fight or flight mode?  If so, it’s your slow suicide.

Excerpt from “Awake & Aware – Top Priority: Self”:

Bruce (Lipton) says there are basically 3 perceptions of our environment – growth opportunity, threat (protection mode) or neutral (background music). The body’s cells (and our entire being) move towards growth opportunities and away from threats. But what’s important is the word “perception”. What came into my mind is Michael Tsarion’s line about that disempowered conditional state of “teacher = threat.” If we perceive as a threat those people and circumstances that in reality are growth opportunities we just missed the opportunity. Dual meaning of Chaos – Crisis and Opportunity. Which do we choose to view it as?

And Bruce gives the scientific observation of what spiritualists have known since the word go – love is the stimulus for growth / opening up, and fear is the stimulus for protection / closing off. Love will make us want to move towards it, through Hell and high water, scaling mountains to get to it. “River deep, mountain high”, as Tina Turner sang.

Bruce observed that a cell cannot be in both growth mode and protection mode at the same time, cannot be both open and closed at the same time, cannot be both moving towards and moving away from outside stimulus. The entire organism, the human body, behaves in the same manner as the individual cells – as above, so below – the holographic nature of everything. We as human beings also cannot be in growth mode and protection mode at the same time. When we are in constant fight or flight mode due to the “perceived” threat of our environment when in reality there is no threat, we are actually slowly killing ourselves because we are not growing, not creating, not getting blood to all parts of our bodies and also not replacing cells, etc. If there really was a bear chasing you, the common cold you have is not as high priority as the bear so the immune system also shuts down. But if the “threat” is only perceived and not real and this perception is constant we’re dying, not living.

Another lower priority body function, when in fight or flight mode, is the reproduction system. It’s really not all that critical to be making babies when that bear is chasing you down. I knew someone that was having almost constant menstruation. She was stressed, worked a lot, overdid substances that were not healthy and it was all about dodging her issues. Her diet and lifestyle were escapes from her wounds and issues. Her body was screaming at her to make a change. Her solution? Rip out the “offending” body part. She had a hysterectomy. She did not stop working so much, did not reduce stress in her life, did not quit abusing her body with harmful substances, and did not tend to her healing. Nothing changed for her except that now she doesn’t have a uterus. Dr. Lorraine Day says this type of thing would be like taking your car to a mechanic because the transmission is not working and the mechanic takes your transmission out and gives you your car back. We don’t have spare body parts. When the warning light in your car comes on, you set about to find out why. You don’t rip out the warning light. Doesn’t your body and your entire being deserve at least as much respect and care as your car?

Bruce speaks of the HPA axis, which stands for hypothalamus / pituitary / adrenals. The hypothalamus interprets the perception. The pituitary or “master gland” gets the info to all cells.  If in protection / threat mode, the adrenals send out stress hormones. Arms and legs are nourished in a “fight or flight” mode. But the energy is shifted away from other body parts, away from growth, maintenance and immune functions. Like I wrote about in the Other Health Issues section, Bruce says that every organism that can affect human health is ALWAYS there. Any blood test would verify this. It’s not something we “catch” from someone or something else. They are called “opportunistic” organisms, as they are always there just waiting for the immune system to not be functioning properly so they can multiply and thrive. So a constant fight or flight way of being or staying in a stressful environment unnecessarily is allowing for these buggies to cause illness. Look out for yourself. If you’re dreaming up stress that isn’t there, do what it takes to correct your stinkin’ thinkin’. If you are in a truly stressful environment perhaps it’s time to remove yourself from it before it literally kills you.

Neal Slade, in his book The Frontal Lobes Supercharge, talks about the amygdalae in our brains, which serve as switches. This is that same kind of situation that Bruce Lipton speaks of with the HPA axis. The amygdalae (Greek for almond, as they are almond shaped) sit behind our eyes, about an inch inside our temples. They are switches that switch between the reptilian brain and the frontal lobes. The reptilian brain is concerned about survival. It’s that “fight or flight” part of our brain. The frontal lobes are about creativity and growth. Here again, the reptilian mind certainly has its place. If a bear really is chasing you down the reptilian brain kicks in and you can operate at top performance to run away or do whatever is necessary to survive. But we’ve gotten to the point where we are experiencing so much fear about all myriad of things, even those things that don’t even happen, worrying about what might be, that we find ourselves in constant fight or flight mode, constantly “clicked” into reptilian brain. When we are using our reptilian brain, our frontal lobes and hence our growth and creativity are out of the picture.

If we learn to “click” our amgydalae forward and tap into our frontal lobes, it will help not only our growth and creativity but also even our survival, as we will anticipate, with a clear mind, any impending dangers long before they become an emergency. Often this switch is made unconsciously but we can also do this consciously. A technique that Neil offered was to visualize the amygdalae just behind your eyes (I find that mine are right at the bottom of my eyeball) and an inch inside the temple. Think of a feather tickling that front edge of those almond-shaped switches. That puts you into your frontal lobes and into growth and creation mode. I find that when I get it just right, a spontaneous smile overcomes me.

The frontal lobes are also where our free will comes from. Dr. Joseph Dispenza in “What the Bleep!? Down the Rabbit Hole”, in discussing this said they’ve tested people with a choice between two things. They said either was fine, whatever they wanted. They flat could not choose. If they were told one was right and one was wrong then they could choose. Bottom line – they were choosing based on conditioning not on free will. They were choosing according to old neural connections of the familiar rather than kicking in their frontal lobes. 


God informed me He had info.  So we did a Tarot reading.

Just this:

Beware of using trickery or deceit, for your actions will be exposed, bringing disfavor and penalties down upon you.

God says this is about the cabal.

Not really news in a general sense so I asked God why the message now.

God says the exposure period starts in earnest now.

Frank and Ernest at it again. ‘Bout time they got busy. lol

Americans, Ask Trump To Add Alternative Health To Obamacare Repeal!

Best health care?  Make the right choices.  Be proactive about your health.  Take Responsibility for your health and healing.  Always best to not seek “out there” what you will only find “in here.”


This president is open to alternative healthcare and they’re redoing the healthcare system so now is the chance to get alternative healthcare covered.  Join Alex in asking the president and congress to include alternative modalities.  Don’t forget to include energy work, such as Reiki, in your communications.

Ending Federal Marijuana Prohibition

First, there has been a bipartisan cosponsored bill introduced into U.S. Congress by the name in the title of this post.

It’s time!  And that time would be 4:20.  🙂

Americans, please look up this bill, then contact your congressmen and senators and your president who is a big States Rights guy and who is also a good listener, so talk to him.  Let them know it’s time to decriminalize this God-given plant.

That’s great that people want to use it for “medicinal” reasons, although I’d much rather see them actually address the root physical, mental, emotional and spiritual causes behind their pain and illness and not depend on weed just to mask pain, etc.  That pain is communicating something to you.  Listen to your body and learn its language.

But products from marijuana are absolutely healthy and good medicine with a variety of uses, including burn treatment and cancer cures, not just providing comfort.

And “recreational” use?  Well, I’d have to say that I’m with Roseanne Barr on this one when she said something to the effect of – ALL uses of marijuana are medicinal.  Ha.  I know it serves my soul.  🙂  It’s a natural connection to both Heaven and Earth.  What’s not to love about this plant?!

And the reasons for its original criminalization had less to do with its “recreational” or “medicinal” uses and more to do with its industrial uses.  It was chemical and petroleum and other industries that pushed for the legislation that made it illegal.  They knew they couldn’t compete with it.  That’s what’s called “private interests” that in no way was in the public’s best interest nor in the planet’s best interest, never has been, never would be.

Time to get over all the reefer madness once and for all.  I had to laugh to hear some Bible-thumper type going on about how the rioters in the streets must be on weed.  Ah, ha, ha.  Oh hell no, the potheads are (in most cases, at home) laughing, singing, painting, writing, munching, crashing, philosophizing (including solving all the world’s problems 😉  ) and staying out of trouble.  lol  The implication that potheads are violent makes me laugh.  As a matter of fact, I was thinking just the other day that weed ought to be used as a military tool, ya know, how they used to drop propaganda leaflets out of airplanes onto civilians from enemy countries?  Well, drop some bales of weed, some pipes, papers and lighters onto their military forces, wait about an hour then just casually walk in and the enemy forces will be all chillaxed and groovin’, happy to see ya all show up and handing ya a j.  “Hello there mate!”  War’s over, you and your newfound tokin’ buddies from, ya know, the “enemy nation”, ha, ha, ha, can go home now and enjoy yourselves.  lol

There is really no reason for this plant to be illegal and most assuredly at a federal level.  This has been and always will be a States Rights issue which the feds never did have any business in.  They created an unconstitutional law.  An unlawful law.  It’s time for the states to take back their state’s powers on this and many other topics and that will help the current president reduce the size of federal government, which he wants to do and that too is long overdue.


In the 1996 and 2000 U.S. Presidential campaigns, Dr. Heather Anne Harder ran a grassroots campaign.  I heard of her before the 2000 election and helped her campaign.  She wrote the following about marijuana, which the 2000 Seattle Hemp Fest made as their manifesto.  If you care to, you can read the original by going to the Wayback Machine / and plugging in her campaign site

HEMP: A True Gift from God

 Hemp has the potential to be the best thing that has happened to American farmers in recent history. If only we can awaken the people to their political power. Hemp has four major uses, food, fiber, fuel and medicine. This one crop can provide the basics of life—-food, shelter, clothing and medicine. Industrial hemp has little in common with its cousin the “marijuana” plant. Hemp plant can be grown in most climates, requires little fertilizer and water and NO pesticides nor herbicides. De-regulating hemp production only makes sense.

Both Presidents Washington and Jefferson grew hemp. Americans were legally bound to grow hemp during Colonial times. The Federal government even subsidized hemp during WWII. In 1807 California produced 125,000 pounds of Hemp. 40% came from Santa Barbara.

Hemp is among the oldest industries on the planet, going back more than 10,000 years to the beginning of pottery. The oldest relic of human industry is a bit of hemp fabric dating back to approximately 8,000 B.C.

Hemp played a major role in the stabilization and economy of our nation for many decades. It wasn’t until it became a threat to the natural resource companies back in the thirties did it first experience a ban on its growth. After all, hemp oil is clean, renewable, cheap, and clean while fossil fuels were limited, expensive and dirty. Those who stood to make a fortune in fossil fuels couldn’t compete. Also contributing to hemp bashing was William Randolph Hearst. Seems he had a huge financial interest in the timber market. It was his newspapers that spear-headed the hemp bashing in order to influence public opinion. Using the Mexican word for hemp, “marijuana,” Hearst turned the public against hemp by playing on their fears and misled the public concerning the nature of hemp/marijuana. Until then people were comfortable with hemp—but this Mexican marijuana was a whole new ball game.

Hemp fell out of favor and was thus outlawed because of the combined attacks of a handful of these corporate giants, who put their own self interest above the best interests of this nation. These spin doctors together stifled the hemp production in this country. Now we must re-examine the facts and search our hearts for truth. Then we must take action. Only by working together can we break the corporate/financial hold that still controls Capital Hill.

Hemp provides low cost high quality food. Hemp seed can be used for both people and animal food. It is high in many nutrients including protein. Hemp contains all of the essential amino acids and essential fatty acids necessary to maintain healthy human life. Hemp can be made into snack bars, cookies, burgers, and porridge or can be roasted and eaten alone. No other single plant source provides a complete protein nutrition in such an easily digestible form, nor has the oils essential to life in as perfect ratio for human health and vitality. Hemp can be brewed with coffee or beer. Currently we import hemp seed from Canada. Now it is time to create domestic hemp seeds for our own use.

Hemp is good medicine. Hemp has long been recognized for its medicinal qualities. Hemp relieves side effects or symptoms of glaucoma, AIDS, cancer chemotherapy, migraines, muscular dystrophy, PMS, asthma, and other medical conditions. From 1842 through 1890’s a powerful concentrated extract of “marijuana” was the second most prescribed drug in the U.S. In all the medical literature written, none list any of the ill effects claimed by today’s drug warriors.

Hemp has many non-food uses. Hemp is made into body care products, lamp lighting, printing, lubrications, household stain removers, varnishes, resins, and paint. Back in 1935, approximately 58,000 tons of hemp seed was used just to make non-toxic paint and varnish. When hemp was banned, these safe paints were replaced with toxic petro-chemical versions. In 1930 people did not know about poisoned rivers, or deadly landfills or children dying from chemicals in house paints.

Hemp is most known for its fiber. Hemp fiber is extremely versatile. Hemp fiber is known for its strength, length, durability, and its resistance to rot. Hemp fiber is also made into a wood-like composite which is twice as strong as wood. All hemp products are bio-degradable.

Hemp reduces our dependency on trees. Hemp is made into paper products as well. Using hemp can eliminate our dependence on trees. One acre of hemp produces the same amount of paper as four acres of trees, four times a year, at 1/4th the cost of wood pulp paper and with 1/5th the pollution. Hemp only takes a 90-100 days to mature for harvest, while most trees take 50 to 500 years. Hemp paper can be recycled ten times, as opposed to three times for most tree-based paper. Hemp paper production can reduce waste-water contamination normally associated in paper production. Hemp production reduces the need for acids, and lends itself to environmentally friendly bleaching instead of harsh chlorine compounds. Hemp paper does not yellow with age and is acid free.1,500 year old hemp paper has been found. Lucky for us our Constitution was written on hemp paper. Hemp crops would save thousands of acres of U.S. forests as well as forests around the world.

Hemp is good for the earth. Hemp anchors soil and protects it from run off. It preserves topsoil and subsoil structure as does forests. Hemp cultivation requires few chemicals. Hemp is easy to grow and actually restores and replenishes soil nutrients. Eco-friendly hemp can replace most toxic petro-chemical products. Research is being done to use hemp in manufacturing biodegradable plastic products. These products include plant based cellophane, recycled plastics, resins made from hemp seed oil, to name but a few. The most hazardous toxic waste comes from petro-chemicals and nuclear power. Hemp can safely, cleanly and completely replace them both.

Hemp is good for the American farmer and the community job market. The farmer and even the rural community has the most to gain from the restoration of the domestic hemp production. One acre of hemp produces 3-4 tons of biomass every 90-100 days. Because of hemp’s bulkiness, local processing plants, weaving accommodations and other facilities are needed. This creates a new job market within the existing farm community. This in turn provides a tax base for these communities so that they no longer have to rely on taxing the farmers’ land. The affordability and availability of hemp will create an unprecedented increase in local cottage industries. Everybody wins.

Hemp could end our dependency on fossil fuels. Fossil fuels, such as natural gas, oil, and coal, are non renewable resources since they are the by-product of eons of natural decomposition of Earth’s ancient biomass. Fossil fuel contains sulfur, which is the source of many of the aggravating environmental pollution problems threatening America. When burned the ancient carbon dioxide trapped in these fossil fuels are released and increase the effects of global warming and the greenhouse effect. On the other hand dried hemp biomass burns with virtually no ash or sulfur. Its growth removes carbon dioxide, which it releases when burned. The amount of carbon dioxide taken from the atmosphere equals the amount released thus it does not contribute to worsening the global warming or greenhouse effect.

According to Environmental chemist, Stanley E. Manahan, if we dedicated about 6% of continental U.S. land to hemp biomass cultivation could supply all current demands for oil and gas. This production would not add any net carbon dioxide to the atmosphere. Pyrolysis is the process of converting organic biomass into fuel similar to the process currently used to create charcoal. Hemp “charcoal” has the same heating value as coal, with virtually no sulfur to pollute the atmosphere. Hemp yields approximately 10 tons per acre in four months, is drought resistant and produces a heating value of 5,000-8,000 Btu/per pound of dried hemp. Hemp biomass can also be converted to methanol. Some car manufacturers have already indicated a willingness to make cars that would run on methanol fuel.

Hemp plants could replace all fossil fuels and their harmful by-products, reducing pollution. Using hemp cultivation for the new “energy farming” would create another cash crop for American farmers. Hemp is both beneficial for the American energy consumer, and good for the atmosphere. Hemp is the only crop capable of making America energy independent.

Only politicians and their campaign contributors stand in the way of such radical common sense. (Why do we continue to allow this subversion of our Constitution when their restrictions fly in the face of reason and the best interests of this nation?)

Hemp is good for the tax base of county, state and the federal government. A legally regulated hemp crop would yield billions of dollars in tax revenue. A new hemp industry would replace thousands of jobs being lost in the wood pulp industry and in other agricultural & industrial occupations.

If hemp were de-regulated and taxed at the same rate as pipe tobacco, over ½ billion dollars could be raised annually in Texas alone. Nationwide hemp tax could fund state programs for universal health care for everyone. If hemp were taxed at the same rate as cigarettes, which pose a much greater health hazard, over a billion dollars could be raised just in Texas.

Hemp is good for the national economy. Hemp production proponents claim that hemp could be worth considerably more than $40 billion a year and yield 50,000 safe products. We currently import hemp products from China, Thailand, England, France, Spain, Holland, Germany, Hungary, Poland, Ukraine, Canada, and Australia. Hemp is grown legally in most industrialized countries of the world. What do these countries know that we don’t?

In 1942, after Japan cut off our imported hemp supply, and our national prohibition of hemp production was in place, we experienced a dangerous shortage. Our legislators waged a national campaign and literally begged and bartered with farmers to once again grow “Hemp for Victory.” Farmers and their sons who agreed to grown hemp were given a waiver from serving in the military. We even asked kids in the Kentucky 4-H club to grow at least a half-acre but preferably 2 acres of hemp each. Amazingly, growing hemp was bad, but it became good, but after the war was over it became bad again. Only in Washington could such irrational behavior under mounting evidence be rationalized. We can no longer afford to allow the hemp production to remain a matter of ignorance verses politics. This insane prohibition against one of the world most valuable plants must stop.

Even Thomas Jefferson smuggled special high quality fiber strain hemp seeds from France for American use. Jefferson knew, as do many people now living, that hemp has great tensile strength and durability. It is used to produce more than 5,000 textile products ranging from rope to fine lace. The woody “hurds” remaining after the fiber has been removed contains more than seventy-seven percent celloulose, and can be used to produce more than 25,000 products ranging from dynamite to cellophane.

Hemp is already a profitable cash crop in several American states—why not let all states have the choice to grow hemp? After all hemp has been around for a long time. If offers little surprise to the American consumer. Humans have safely used hemp for thousands of years, for food, fiber, fuel, food and medicine. It is only our archaic preoccupation with someone’s potential use of recreational use of marijuana that keeps us from opening this wondrous crop to all farmers. Some law enforcement officer is afraid someone may grow the wrong kind of hemp rather than industrial hemp. This is ridiculous.

In the puritans time it may have been considered prudent to stop someone from getting high—but in this day and age it makes no sense to lock up non-violent hemp offenders. Over 300,000 Americans a year are arrested for marijuana possession, at a cost of $840,000,000 to taxpayers. At a time when prison costs are skyrocketing and we are forced to release violent criminals because of prison cell shortages, we must reconsider our priorities. Once-productive citizens become wards of the state, sometimes along with their families.

I have never used drugs of any kind, not even not inhaled, but going to Indiana University during the sixties allowed me to watch my classmates who did. I truly only knew of one other person on campus who chose not to partake. (It is said that if you can remember the sixties you really were a part of them.) Like all college students before and after them, these marijuana smoking students grew up and became productive citizens with few exceptions. I do not support the use of drugs but I strongly oppose our government’s refusal to succumb to common sense. They have no Constitutional authority to determine our behavior or to regulate what we can do with our bodies. To add insult to injury they refuse the fundamental rights for farmers to grow such a miraculous plant because it looks like one that may make people high. Instead they sit by (probably counting their campaign contributions) while our land, water, and air are polluted. This nation grows ever more dependent on foreign imports and 500 farmers go under each week! If I were in Congress, I would be deeply concerned about the karmic dept that these collective actions will reap.

How long will the American people sit back and take this subjugation from those who are elected to “serve and represent” them?

The criminalization of hemp is unconstitutional and its continuation is perpetuated by corrupted influence of campaign contributions. The hemp industry in America could supply jobs, strengthen the economy and help restore a more peaceful and healthy environment. Henry Ford once said, “Why use up the forests which were centuries in the making and the mines which required ages to lay down, if we can get the equivalent of forests and mineral products in the annual growths of fields?”

A few states are beginning to grow hemp but without federal deregulation these attempts are minimal at best. We as a nation must ask ourselves some important questions. Whose campaign contributions are preventing our legislators from opening up our farms to grow hemp? Who benefits from these restrictions? Why on earth are we subsidizing tobacco growers while blocking the legal and profitable production of hemp?

At a time in history when we can map the genes in a plant, I find it inconceivable that our legislator’s can’t tell the difference between industrial hemp and the high-inducing “marijuana” plant. In 1937, when hemp was first outlawed, our legislator’s stupidity could be rationalized, but not in the year 2000.

People must begin to become vocal and outraged against these federal intrusions on our freedoms. Hemp is good for everybody.

What the world needs now is love sweet love-–and the decriminalization of industrial hemp!



Heather’s comments: Each of my position statements have started from being asked the same question repeatedly. Thus I write on the topics that people want to know about—except this one. I have seldom been asked about my stand on hemp production in this country. Instead it grew out of my farm position paper. In it I suggested we allow farmers to choose to grow hemp. I wanted some facts and figures so I began to read on the topic. In that research I became aware of really how badly this country needs this crop. Hemp holds the solutions to many environmental and ecological problems that we now face. I am now a impassioned proponent of hemp. I am ready to march on Washington on this issue alone. Why haven’t you, the voter, asked the other candidates and me about hemp? Hemp is important for the future of this nation and our sustainable future. It is time we demand accountability from our legislators and the truth from our candidates! We do not need their moralistic rules and restrictions nor their unfair and sometimes unholy alliances with self-serving big business. We need hemp. This country’s future depends on it!

Upcoming Chaos

As if we’ve not seen enough.  Ha!

My friend sent me the following video.  This fellow does linguistic predictions, sampling the internet for ideas of where things are headed.  He gives a great overview of what is currently going on “out there” in 3D / 4D land.

I myself have been scanning the internet very intensely for months now and I feel like I’m seeing much of what he is – although I don’t look at money / economic stuff, mostly because it’s boring as hell and also very strongly because I have complete and utter faith in the Divine and humans.  The other day I’d told my friend, “I’ve never felt so confident for the human race.”

Yep, even though I already know they are, this dude makes it sound like Truth and Light are winning.

Sounds like potential major chaos in upcoming months.  Look to all this with “higher eyes”.  Dual meaning of Chaos – Crisis or Opportunity, which do you choose?  A chaotic window is an excellent time to introduce some higher light into the whole situation.  Seize this opportunity!

Along those lines… I want to point out something from the Gaia Portal message from the 1st.

Moon seekers are disappointed.

hu-beings recognize Sol as the leader of all.

As soon as I read it, I knew this had to do with feminine and masculine energies (Moon & Sol / Sun), but it took a fews hours before I had a powwow with God and found out that it translates as this:

Those seeking rest or cave time will be disappointed.

hu-beings recognize that it’s time to lead in an ACTIVE / proactive way.  Time to get busy “out there”, rubbing elbows with the folks who could use your light.


If there are things that this fellow talks about that you are unfamiliar with, take notes!  Then do some research on all these various topics.  Time for the Truth to come out big time – the good, the bad, the ugly.


Power and Boundaries

This gal (video below) does body language readings.  I do face reading and can read certain issues off of body style and posture, so this gal is right up my alley.  The body doesn’t lie.

This one is of Creepy Joe Biden.

Folks call him creepy for good reason as you’ll see.  But even though that creepiness seems to be Joe’s go-to default, this video demonstrates the difference between those “holding their own space” and those who allow others to violate their space and / or that of their family members.

It’s a good example of how no one can truly take authority over you, but you sure can give authority of your life away.  

And folks, if the situation that this world full of people got into could be summed up in a sentence it could be just that – This is what happens when powerful creators give authority of their lives away.  What a mess that allows for huh?  Evil enters the world when good men fail to act… or allow their creative powers to be hijacked.

Pay attention to your own body language – are you really communicating what you think you are / would like to?  Do you need to do a better job at setting boundaries?

This video is a microcosm example of how people need to stand in their own power and be more self-aware and aware of their surroundings throughout every facet of their lives.

Check out more of her videos.  Interesting stuff.  Bombard’s Body Language.


Right this minute… we’re still unascended.  *yawn*

This is a bit of a ramble, covering a myriad of current whatever, hopping around a bit… but that will be good for your brain-hemisphere integration… lol… so enjoy!   😉

A couple weeks after my last post, I was “released” to go online and observe 3D again, which I have done with glee as I have observed the great awakening and healing that is happening collectively.  My friend and fellow forerunner who I talk about on this blog has also been in 3D-observation mode.

Many people are stepping up, taking on more active roles in not only advancing their own awakening / awareness / consciousness but also in assisting in the awakening of others… and exposing the cabal at every turn… and the cabal often unwittingly assisting in their own exposure.  Time to sound the Trumpets of Truth.

God has given me the following info about folks who are awakened and yet not necessarily “lightworker” types, ya know, folks who are not all so far along on their inner healing work like LWs, but they are most assuredly awakened to some things about the world.

I’ll just show the component parts of the message:

  • The effects of present actions on future desires.
  • Stay centered and own your own power.
  • Self-control will help you to work with others to accomplish a task or goal.

Now, because of observing 3D for half a year, this info is not news to me.  I knew many folks were all over this stuff, so I asked why this was being presented to me now.  God tells me that these awakened folks are empowered and cooperating enough (and enough of them) to allow for the first wave’s ascension.  When it comes right down to it, these folks’ empowerment levels and cooperation is creating greater stability at a 3D level.  Hallelujah and the angels sang!

That empowerment / cooperation mode also helps them to be more easily guided by the Divine whether they are conscious about that or not.  They have in essence made a conscious choice to step up and do what is necessary to gain their own freedom.  They are literally “activated”, ready to take action.  Making such a conscious choice allows one to be more of a Johnny on the Spot.  To just always do the right thing.  What is the right thing?  Well, it really can’t necessarily be determined ahead of time.  One must be present to win.  What is the “right” thing to do or be in THIS moment?  The next moment may demand a much different response.


I have not bothered to blog all this time since my focus has been on 3D and the focus of the lightworkers (LWs) coming up behind us forerunners could stand to NOT be on 3D.  You’re all holding a higher-light space for the world.  It’s not appropriate for you to focus on 3D.  Yep, you’re gonna know that whole 3D thing is still going on and Life and the Divine may even want you to actually see some of it, so you’ll be shown.  So don’t sweat missing any important “news”, just trust and flow.  Let the Divine bring info to you rather than you constantly looking and especially when looking in all the wrong places.  Divine guidance baby.  Let it work its magic(k) for you.

I myself (and other forerunners) am really NOT of the 3D / 4D collective at this point, not even really as a light holder because that’s up to others now.  I sense that we forerunners have been here as back-up / emergency type stuff only, for a while now.  And even that will not be necessary much longer.

In the lightworker realm, I’m getting that we’re still mostly on target for about 6 million reaching completion / ascension-readiness this month / year.  I get that ~ 1 million are already complete.  Both the 5 million behind them and the next 9 million behind them are close on their heels.  Things clicking right along.  All helping to “pull up” those not as far along as themselves.


Sandra actually acknowledges the forerunners’ ascension:

At  44:15, she says, “… and your brothers and sisters who are going to… through the veil, over the veil, over the rainbow, ya know, before you into that full embodiment, give them your support, as much as possible.  Ya know, there’s no judgement of you went first, you go second, how come that person… ya know I’ve seen these lists circulating around of ‘these are the 144,000 that are going to ascend’ and they put me on that list.  I’m like, ya know what, my ascension is between me and Source and has nothing to do with anybody else, ya know, that’s your personal journey…”

Obviously she knows that she is not one of the 144,000.  And I’m with her – no judgement in that.  But, ah, so nice to hear from someone who knows where they are at in their own process and knows their current role in all this… and fully embraces it!  So refreshing.

I recommend Sandra as a source on ascension info .  She is currently the only one I could actually bring myself to recommend.  On other topics there are plenty I could recommend, but not on ascension itself.  She’s rather in tune with the overall project, the energies, the current Divine scheme, the bigger picture and most assuredly has a higher, spiritual, mission-oriented perspective.

I also had to chuckle at that list because we forerunners have been in “stealth” mode for the most part.  Hardly anyone even knows our names… at least not without tapping into Divine info on such.  That sounds like quite the daunting undertaking – getting a list of 144,000 + names from the Divine that you wouldn’t even know on a mundane level.  Have fun with that.  lol

I’d recently heard a Christian type say that it would be saints and not celebrities who would “save” the world.  These saints are not known on Earth but are known in Heaven.  Indeed.


And yep, time for the new light-holder LWs to support both those who are coming up behind them and us forerunners who went before them.  We held it all together for the LWs so now they / you can hold it all together for others… as begrudging as some of them may still be about their present / upcoming service work.  Folks, it’s what you came for!  Revel in it.

I am seeing though that some LWs are finally starting to see the difference between “waiting on” / “catering to” others (“people pleasing”?) and SERVING others.  The whole “catering to” thing does NOT serve either you or others.

A good lightworker does NOT enable others’ dysfunction by feeding it and that’s what most of that “catering” stuff results in… enabling continued dysfunction… both your own and others’.

SERVING is a whole other animal.  Sometimes you just set a good example, or offer up a tidbit of wisdom (Spiritual Minuteman), sometimes you show compassion, sometimes you dish up some “tough love”, sometimes just serving as a human antenna holding the light… but enough with enabling dysfunction already.  Stop feeding the old paradigm.

And a very significant part of making that distinction between catering and serving is about priorities – you have to put and keep yourself first.  You’re of no use to anyone else if you don’t look out for yourself.  Setting boundaries is a big part of this.  Please see my post Useful Healthful Tips and scroll down to a link to a short Brené Brown video about setting boundaries.  Demonstrating self-love and self-respect is some of the best example you could possibly set for others.

In the whole microcosm / macrocosm scheme of things, this same energy of honoring self and setting boundaries is also now happening in no small way at the nation level.  More and more nationalist / populist type people are stepping up to be new political leaders in countries worldwide, telling the global cabal to take a hike and shove their globalist / authoritarian / crimes-against-humanity agenda up their cabal *sses.  The worm has turned.


And along those lines… I’d heard Sandra Walter say recently that love of God / Source and self love are one in the same.  Indeed.  God is not “out there”, He’s “in here”.   He’s not some separate entity dictating to us.  Loving God to the utmost, most assuredly at some point in one’s evolution, becomes obviously intertwined with accepting one’s own creative powers, that they themselves are a powerful creator.  Playing small is not going to bring you closer to God aka closer to your own Divine Powerful Creator Self.  Yeah you.

“We all will be Christed when we hear ourselves say – We are that to which we pray” ~ lyrics from “Innocence Maintained” by Jewel

“We are the ones we’ve been waiting for.”  ~ Hopi

Many of you now understand such things.  Help others understand these things so that they quit perpetuating disempowering energy.  Merely “believing in…” some past ascended master / Christ won’t get the job done.  If only.  Expecting Christs to swoop in and “save” you is not reality.  Christs know better.  Christs know playing savior is a disservice to others.  You want guidance from a Christ, ask away, but for them to save you… no, they will not.  They CAN not.  Not able to.

“(If) you’re waiting for a miracle, you’re waiting for the sea to part.  Well, that’s an old miracle.  So, what about this?  What if the miracle was you?  What if you had to be your own messiah?  Then what?”  ~ from TV series “Transparent”

Enough with “believing” in general.  And enough with that being about someone else.

KNOW thyself, thy most powerful and awesome self.

What soul, whose soul are we talking about ascending here?  YOUR soul.  Whose Responsibility to get it ascended?  Hmm?  And within whose Power to make that happen?  Hmm?

Nothing against Christians, most especially in specific, 🙂  …

and hey, gotta give it to the Christians that they get the importance of God in all this.  As I’ve said before – in all my sovereignty, God is not left out, quite to the contrary and those above the 3D consciousness veil, ya know, ETs, who are truly sovereign are guess what? – in connection with God all the time!  Go figure!  Not all “upstairs” are though, even though they don’t have the excuse of a 3D consciousness veil …

… but I’ll use the following to demonstrate one way that a subtle difference in message equates to a vast difference in outcome.


  • Jesus is a god, worship him, he is your savior.

Let me translate that for you:

Jesus is a god, you are not.  Someone / something outside yourself must save you.  So just “wait”, do and be nothing towards saving your own butt.


  • Jesus is a god who demonstrated what is possible for a soul while human.

Let me translate that for you:

Jesus is a god… and SO ARE YOU!  You are the ONLY one who has either the Power or the Responsibility to save you.  Be your own salvation as only you can be.

Now best get on with it there dear Joe Average because as many a recently completed lightworker (LW) could tell ya, this whole ascension thing is a process.  It takes time, a commodity that you don’t have all that much to waste at the 3D Earth level.  STOP WAITING!  Git ‘er done!

“Have I not said ye are gods?  You too shall do these and greater things.”  ~ Jesus H. Christ

High time for folks to get to tending to those “greater things”, which they are quite capable of.  Help them know that.

This is not the time to be waiting for some Christ to return and save one’s sorry arse.  This is about BEING CHRISTED.  This is about the return of Christ CONSCIOUSNESS and yes, that means through each and every one of YOU! 

I’ve always felt the word Christian is missing a “bump”.  Instead of an ‘n’ on the end, it’s an ‘m’ on the end.  Then it reads Christ-I-Am.  !!!


Ok, here’s another one.  This old religious meme of “God-fearing.”  Goodness sakes.  First and foremost, fear is an illusion.  That’s why it stands for False Evidence Appearing Real.  If your goal is to return to God, to regain Christ Consciousness, God’s on board with that, so what He’d like is for ya all to step outta fear… most especially about Him / Her / It.

And yep, He’d most certainly like to see ya all pull the wool from your eyes about the whole illusion, which yes, most assuredly includes fear.  Fear is debilitating.  It’s disempowering.  It makes mere mortals out of powerful gods.

God would like ya to KNOW Truth.  One needs to step out of fear to know truth.   Fear is illusion.  God IS Truth.  Truth is nothing to fear.  The truth shall set you free.

You create your life and reality in part through your words.  Folks, could ya all consciously release this “God-fearing” meme and the disempowerment that comes with it and for the love of Mike (old Christian political correctness phrase there, ha!) could ya also quit teaching that disempowerment to others by constantly repeating it.  Erase such garbage from your vocabulary.

I know many reading this totally get all that too.  Help others understand these subtle but significant and literally life-changing differences.


Time to shine folks… in no small way.  Lightworkers, you’re about to become “big man on campus”.  It’s your turn for service work.  No reason to be all “dready” about it (excuse the “Buffy-ism”).  Consider it as the mark of success that it truly is.

And, to not only keep yourself going, but to also practice your creative skills, let your imagination run wild.  Create your 5D life, much of which will not be manifested outwardly on 3D Earth, but eventually may be on 5D Gaia… depending on things you’ve decided on, which can be changed later on when you’re fully on 5D Gaia anyway.  But have some fun with your newly found access / connections, etc.

Consider your new crystalline body.  How would you like your body to look?  Ever wanted to do some tweaking in that regard?  What part of the world would you like to live in or go see, etc.  And that could happen by flying there, ya know, like Superman or Neo.  Really envision the pristine beauty of Gaia.  Allow yourself to indulge in multidimensionality.  You’ve earned it.

And folks, things are moving very quickly and you want to support that acceleration, which, in part, means that those “awakened” folks out there (no, not just online but that person standing right in front of you, ya know, on the physical plane, in person, remember that? lol) who don’t know as much about healing and ascension, but are aware of the truth about the mundane world – and who may or may not also desire and sense their return to God – are primed and ready to receive your wisdom.  Hand them that ball and let them run with it.

Ascension Time!

Here we go!

I can’t believe I’m writing this.  My hands are shaking as I am.  I’ve known this is coming, have sensed progress out of the lightworker community in recent months like I’d not sensed for far too long.  Do I really need to tell you all that you are advancing by leaps and bounds these days?!

And I’ve known for a short while that I’d be talking about this.  On June 1st, Gaia Portal said, “Hue-manity brings the news.”  I understood that message that day.  So, here I am, a Hue-being here to bring the news.  As some of you who have been reading this blog have heard me say so many times, I just about don’t do much of anything without Divine guidance.  You can bet that God wants this message put out.

And that would be THEE news.

Gaia and the ~1,145,000 humans who are ascension-ready (what we have for a “first wave”) will have FULL ASCENSION imminently.  Off to 5D for us.

Folks, this sh*t’s for real.  Ascension is a real thing.  KNOW it.

And the fact that Gaia and the first wave will very soon be able to ascend IN FULL says an awful lot about those who will not be ascending with us / at the same time.  If enough of you all weren’t far enough along, weren’t spiritually mature enough, we wouldn’t be able to do this now.  Kudos.


So, a little bit of an update on the overall situation for this entire ascension project:

I was told in May that of the ~15 million lightworkers who have in recent months gotten themselves far enough along in their process to hold the light for 3D / 4D, about 40% or ~6 million will more than likely be complete / ascension-ready / full Divine embodiment this calendar year.

Folks, the REAL forerunners (or the forerunners of the forerunners) worked fricking miracles with only ~145,000 of us.  Just think how much can and will happen with ~6 million humans COMPLETE and another ~9 million close on their heels.


And, as I’d discussed with someone recently (hey D.! 😉 ), upon your completion, your mission is to basically make your own replacements.  Time for service work BIG TIME!  Shine your light!  You’ll be allowed to ascend IN FULL to 5D Gaia once there are enough others coming up behind you who are far enough along to take over light holding duties and service work from you.

But yes, there will be a period of time when you will very much be “in the world and not of it” and in no small way.  Yep, you’ll still be here, functioning, interacting with others and yet SO NOT part of the whole 3D / 4D Earth realm.

As I’d later said (hi again D! lol):

First, my “Gaia Portal” post:

I was urged to do that post to point out little subtleties in meaning / info / communication in mostly the Eireport message but also a little bit of Gaia Portal. 

So, Eireport spoke of the “… in the end, speeding up the awakening of all…” I explained that where / when that whole process speeds up is AFTER someone wakes up. 

So, anyone and everyone who is “in 4D”, basically, you have had your initial awakening and are “on path”, regardless as to where you are on that path and for how long, 4D is speeding up now. It could be said that 4D itself is “more awake”, there’s much more “energetic information” for someone’s knowingness to get a clue from. The collective conscious internet sort of thing. 

So, people who wake up will be on the fast track. 0 to 60 in record time. Ya know.

And, these days, the “path” is rather well-trodden by many a lightworker. Information abounds. Get someone awakened and empowered and get them in the mode of following their own guidance and finding their own answers and they’re set.

Where will lightworkers get their biggest bang for the buck concerning moving this human ascension project along? PUT YOUR ENERGIES TOWARDS WAKING PEOPLE UP! Just get them to catch the spark, “light one candle” and, these days especially, they’ll be quite “self-propelled”. Just hand them the ball and they will run with it.

Don’t create dependency (others dependent on you).  Instead, encourage their own self-empowerment and self-sovereignty.  And, of course, you walking the talk, being the living example is a biggy.

And folks, this can also be about any step of someone’s awakening and not just their initial awakening, as in, if you are even just 1/2 a step ahead of the next person and yet the Divine is urging you to say or do something to / for them, then do it.  In most cases it’s going to be about a very small effort on your part, perhaps even just sharing a tiny tidbit of info or doing something in front of someone, but it may make a world of difference to them.  Shine the light for them to take that next 1/2 step.  Every little bit helps.

Time to be the Divine Johnny on the Spot, a Spiritual Minuteman, a Spiritual Opportunist.

Really tap into your Divine guidance about what to say to whom when.  And when not to say something even though you know it yourself.  Work with the Divine.  Better yet, let the Divine work THROUGH you.  Just get outta the way.  Turn yourself over to the Divine…. COMPLETELY!


From “The Angels Within Us” by John Randolph Price:

The next coded instruction is to stand still.  In the ancient schools “stand still” meant to enter into a state of serenity and trust through complete surrender to the Presence within and to have faith in the activity of the Spirit.  For a greater understanding of what this means, imagine yourself as a musical instrument, a clarinet for example.  See the instrument as you would on a Saturday-morning children’s cartoon – alive and animated.  It has free will, which means that it thinks it can play itself, so it functions in the world by striking its own keys, blowing its own squealing notes.  And all the time the Master Musician is waiting to play the most harmonious melody the world has ever heard.

As time passes, the little clarinet discovers metaphysics and begins to tell the Master Musician within what notes to play for it: “Oh Mighty Spirit, play the note for a new car for me, for money in the bank and a new job.”  At first this new way of playing brings results, but they are not lasting.  Then the little clarinet seeks to make his demonstrations more “spiritual” and begins to listen for instructions from the Master within as to what notes to play: “Lord, give me the note for health and happiness and I will surely play it in your name.”  And again some fruit falls from the tree, but the taste is not satisfying.  Finally the clarinet’s consciousness evolves to the point where it declares, “I surrender to the great I AM THAT I AM.  Master, play your notes through me!”


Slow down.  Let go of your busyness / DOingness and mostly just do what the Divine guides you to do.  Be still and quiet often so you can get the guidance.  If you only act upon what the Divine guides you on, you’ll get the biggest bang for your buck, you won’t have wasted motion and effort, no tail chasing, no wheel spinning, you won’t wear yourself out “catering to others”.  Let the Divine do all the work.  You just let it work through you.

(See also Free Will is Just a Veiled Consciousness State post.)

Lightworkers, you got this!  Blessings to you all.  Time to truly know what powerful creators you are.



At the same time I’m writing about Bill Nye telling people what to fear – to just “not worry your pretty little heads about what we are doing with food (which you still have other options / choices on anyway)” and instead “worry about this virus which you, on a personal level, can’t do one whole hell of a lot about anyway (and wouldn’t be harmful anyway if you ate real food)”- then someone is visiting my blog and brings their fears of things “out there” here.

It may not have been their intent to fear monger and yet the end result is the same.  Reading one of their comments about made me want to hurl.  And they kept posting comments here, there and everywhere and regardless of the post, they found some way to work it back to “Folks, fear this!” (Bill Nye, is that you?!) and over something that at best Joe Average might be able to protest about or write their congressman about, but other than that not much for Joe Average to do… but worry and fear, which is totally counterproductive to this whole ascension effort.

And I’m not interested in fear mongering and am not going to enable anyone else who is (intentionally OR unconsciously) doing so.  It won’t happen here, thank you very much.  Sorry, not sorry.

But this whole ascension thing is for everyone.  It’s not an elitist type thing, it’s here FOR EVERYONE and it all comes down to personal choice and… healing, clearing and releasing fears.  Healing and ascension is something available to anyone and everyone.  The “big, bad cabal” can’t keep you from doing it!

And as I’ve said before, we have everything we need.  3D Earth and the Divine will provide you with all that you need to support yourself in every way.  You just need to make the right choices and you’re set.  It’s the choices we make about our day to day personal lives that have a big influential impact on the world.  Energy flows where attention goes.

This person claimed they were a forerunner, but obviously not, since a forerunner would not be carrying fear about these things “out there”.  We forerunners have cleared all our fears “in here”.  That’s how it’s done.

We forerunners were also used to hold off destructive forces so a forerunner would know that measures are being taken to fend off such things because WE TRANSMUTED SUCH THROUGH OUR OWN PERSONAL FIELDS, which we could not have been used for if we were not clear energetic channels ourselves, which was the case because we completed our healing and ascension work.  Believe me, if you were used for such, you’d have known it.  Those who have been used for it, DO know it.

And this also is right on the heels of Eireport’s message, which I brought additional clarity to on some things, including that one need not worry about any big and sudden horrific sh*t happening on 3D Earth because those above the veil (including higher selves influencing their humans in key places, even the more sleepy humans and ETs) and some advanced humans below the veil can, have and will continue to hold off such destructive forces.  For all of those who haven’t already experienced transmuting off crap energy from the world, you may very well be used for such down the road.  This tidbit of information seemed to be news to this person.  Forerunner my ass.  Sorry again, not sorry again.

If you still have fears about the cabal and / or the “out there”, then you still have work to do “in here”.   Acknowledge the fear and work to release it.

On the flip side, even though WWIII has been kept from happening, amongst a whole host of other nasty sh*t, there are ongoing destructive forces that are more slowly but surely creating a scorched earth scenario.  And who is doing this?  Humans.  Not just the cabal, who’d be hard-pressed to create as much destruction on their own as the entire collective have done together.

So Joe Average has been an unwitting pawn in the cabal’s agenda… and with things that Joe Average absolutely DOES have some personal choice in, that they don’t need a big group of friends to make these choices and changes with, they can make them quite on their own.  Awakening and healing play major roles in people changing their choices.  High time to get our priorities straight.

No matter how you slice it, the answer for this entire scenario is for people to wake up and heal.

The answer is NOT that people, lightworkers included, continue to keep their focus on the cabal’s doings “out there” and try to get others all fearful about these “oh so scary things out there” that are beyond most people’s mundane-level influence anyway.  Who cares?!  Ya all could stand to quit concerning yourselves with such and tend to what you DO have control / influence over – your own healing and consciousness raising and influencing others’ healing and consciousness raising.

For any and all of you who understand what I am saying, it’s key that you step out of all that fear.  You are creating a new space, a new energy and SOMEONE NEEDS TO DO THAT, so please, those of you who get this, please keep yourself and the new space / energy pristine.  We can’t expect those who don’t understand this to do this, so… those who do understand, this is what is being asked of you.

There are also plenty of places where acting / doing has its place also.  Here again, there are plenty of folks who get that part of things and they’re on it.  It’s the stage of their growth / evolution that they are in.  But if you are beyond that, there are very important ways for you to BE and you could stand to BE that because, here too, not everyone understands the significance of such, so it’s really important that those who do understand play that role.

Info about the cabal has its place and there are plenty of places where people post about and discuss such for those who still need to learn about it, but as my One of These Things… page says, those topics are not for THIS blog.  I am keeping this blog a pristine space concerning such.

But hey, go to all those oodles of other sites that just love to discuss all that sh*t until they’re blue in the face.  Go get your fill!  Perhaps if you do that you’ll get sick and tired of it and finally release it.

You are all powerful creators.  Be very careful about where you are putting your energies because your “in here” is creating your “out there”.  Seize the opportunity to change the things you can… and that would be YOU.  YOU are who / what you can change.  Please do so by facing your fears, then healing, clearing and releasing those fears… so that you are not participating in creating the very thing you don’t want.  Then you also serve as a good example to others of another option.

The cabal only have influence.  We too have influence.  The cabal like to dabble in insane destructive nonsense.  When we are advanced enough, we can fend off any harm from such b.s.  So… stop worrying about “out there” and tend to “in here.”  You want to help this world?  “In here” is where you’ll get the greatest effect at influencing the world for good.

The “evil”, “bad”, “darkness” which is “out there” is not your concern.  Clean out the darkness from within yourself.  That is what you have the Power and Responsibility to change.

If you haven’t already done so, read Create Anew!


Just being a good tool of the Divine here.  More being dictated to / through me.

This message is from God, directed to the ~15 million lightworkers who are taking on light holding duties right now.

The message was given to me through a Tarot reading.  It’s short and sweet and God wants it left that way, so here it is:

  • Psychic talents will unfold if you hold to your spiritual path.
  • You can achieve an emotional balance at this time.
  • Empower yourself as you conceive, create and experience in a conscious way.

You’ll Know Them By Their Fruits

Chelsea Handler has a new show on Netflix.

One person she talked to was Bill Nye (the science guy).  In the few minutes they talked Bill Nye really pulled a typical cabal trick.  Is Bill Nye cabal?  Lord knows, but even if it’s at an unconscious level, he’s certainly serving the cabal and in similar fashion as to how they do things.  Programmed much there dear Bill?

He was there to talk about GMOs (Genetically Modified Organisms).  He said that viruses introduce their own genetics into foods and sometimes new foods are the result.  He uses this to justify humans messing with food genetics, ya know, since viruses do so.  I think I can safely say that the viruses that naturally alter foods don’t have the same agenda as Monsanto and the cabal do.

He gave absolutely no details whatsoever about GMOs, only said that it was his opinion that GMOs were safe to eat.  It’s like a Wizard of Oz Xmas ornament I once had that said, “The Great Oz has spoken!”  In this case, the Great Bill Nye has spoken.  Well, to that, I’d say – pay no attention to the man behind the curtain.

When they were talking about viruses, he brings up a particular virus and tells Chelsea and her audience if they want to be scared about something, that virus is the thing.

So right there, in a very short span of time, he told people what to fear and what not to fear.  Such typical cabal antics.

Folks, if you give a sh*t about yourself, don’t eat GMOs and don’t fear viruses just because the cabal and their pawns (unwitting pawns or no) tell you they’re a scary thing.  *yawn*

I really had to chuckle since another segment of that episode was about a new movie about magic and Bill Nye was totally doing the whole magician’s “Look over here!  Look over here!” bit, distracting people from making choices about what they actually have a choice in, such as what food (use that term loosely with GMOs) they put down their throat AND directing them to put their energies towards something they have no control over, such as viruses.  And if people would bother to eat natural, whole, organic food, and quit fearing microbes, then viruses would be of no concern anyway since eating REAL, healthy food and thinking proper thoughts actually support your immune system.  Go figure.

Gaia Portal

Various… (being dictated to me.  Significance?  You decide.  Significant now?  Maybe later?  Prefacing more to come?)

In Eireport’s June 1st message, they said this:

The rise in frequencies of this collective planetary body, called “Earth”, “Gaia”, etc., has, until this moment in the evolution of Gaia, been relatively constant. In other words, the increase has been similar to a straight line. This is about to change… drastically.

And by “drastically” we mean “dramatically”, not in a manner which will cause any major adjustment to the planet’s 3D structure (such changes are occurring in a very “managed” way… we are, in large part, “The Managers”). But it also is affected by hu-being and Hue-Being consciousness. Such consciousness has been rising at an unexpectedly (to us, at least) high rate. This is, in the end, speeding up the awakening of all, and increasing the planetary vibration to such an extent, that a strongly “perceived” breakout is poised to occur.

We cannot say when in the 3D timeframe this will occur, but it is very, very close.


I am to address a few things here.

Concerning that in bold above – the 3D structure, “The Managers” and some other things…

First, the we of “The Managers”.  Without getting into any specifics of who the we are, what can be known (go inward, ask your own questions on this and get your own answers) is that these are beings above the veil (atv) that are being spoken of.  I just want to put an exclamation point on that for anyone who may still be confused on such.  Yes, those atv are indeed assisting in various ways with this ascension.  No doubt about it.  Just as there are parts to this that can only be done from within the Earth program, like what we all are doing, there are also components to this that can only be performed from outside the program.  So, there’s that.

And… 3D Earth being managed.  Yes indeed, from both atv and below the veil (btv).  The forerunners (Original ~ 145, 000) were used to hold off destructive forces of the 3D timeline at one time.  My friend and I chuckle when we see supposed “lightworkers” (or whatever they choose to call themselves, “truthers” or whatever) talking about the collapse of the financial system, etc. just so wanting to bring it on, or whatever other calamity they can dream up.  We laugh because we know how very disconnected they are from this whole ascension agenda as evidenced by where they are putting their energies.

Make no mistake and I’m one of the biggest advocates of this I know of – it’s you first.  You have to put yourself first – self-love, self-respect, self-healing, self-empowerment, etc. etc. BEFORE you are of much help to others.  It’s YOU FIRST!  But, it’s not “you only.”

I’ll remind you again, we’re here to get Gaia ascended AND as many humans as possible.  The 3D Earth structure blowing up right now would work against this whole human ascension effort.  It would actually work more towards the cabal’s agenda.  It’s not gonna happen folks.  There’s a possibility that all the lightworkers / lightholders coming up now, you may be used energetically to hold off destructive energies also, to buy people more time.

There is plenty enough to be concerned about here on Earth, not the least of which being how long the environment can support life, plenty of reason to maintain a sense of urgency throughout this effort – not panic, not fear, just urgency – but make no mistake that “the light” is absolutely MANAGING this situation to some degree.


Ok, next:

But it also is affected by hu-being and Hue-Being consciousness. Such consciousness has been rising at an unexpectedly (to us, at least) high rate. This is, in the end, speeding up the awakening of all, and increasing the planetary vibration to such an extent, that a strongly “perceived” breakout is poised to occur.

First, this “high rate”… this is what happens when millions of lightworkers get this close to their completion.  Don’t ever underestimate the value of your own inner work to the entire ascension project.

Gaia Portal has defined “Hue-being” as “Gaia Companions” and “hu-being” as “Gaia Travelers”.   Those who assisted Gaia with her own ascension process are the “Hue-beings”.  That would be the Original ~ 145,000 forerunners.  hu-being (little ‘h’) is basically anyone who has awakened to some degree, is on path, the lightworkers.

The general, unawakened masses?  For the most part, Gaia Portal does not talk about them.  They have here though in this passage I quote from Eireport’s message.  The “all” are the unawakened masses.  They are neither the “Hue-s” nor the “hu-s” that Gaia Portal  speaks of.

Ok, so now what God would like me to communicate is the significance of the “in the end” part of what I bolded above… putting some of this info together then adding some more…

3D is being managed from both atv and btv, to hold things together enough to buy people time to wake up, IN THE END.

The “when” of the increasing Hue and hu consciousness affecting the “all” is AFTER those individuals in the “all” have awakened.  Before then, 3D life is just 3D life.

But these days, with the increased consciousness levels of more and more lightworkers, when someone wakes up they’re stepping onto the fast track.  4D, the transition zone, is where the increase in consciousness speeds up as compared to how it used to be.

Gaia Portal had recently said (June 4):

The trudging paradigm is relinquished.


And that’s it for now… (here, I’ll *shrug* with ya 🙂  )

Near-Death Experience & Close Encounter

Too funny not to share.

I’m having a vision of an “Ascension Experience” episode.

The first two characters are your run-of-the-mill lightworker types that are all blissed out, fluffed up, all sticky, syrupy sweet in their mutual admiration relationship… complete with purple, flowy dresses…

… while the last gal represents the Original ~145,000 Forerunners (of the forerunners).  The whole sex-starved thing she has going on might be a bit too nose-on though.  😉



These Are Days

“These Are Days”

These are the days.

These are days you’ll remember.
Never before and never since, I promise, will the whole world be warm as this.
And as you feel it, you’ll know it’s true that you are blessed and lucky.
It’s true that you are touched by something that will grow and bloom in you.

These are days you’ll remember.
When May is rushing over you with desire to be part of the miracles you see in
Every hour.
You’ll know it’s true that you are blessed and lucky.
It’s true that you are touched by something that will grow and bloom in you.

These are days.

These are the days you might fill with laughter until you break.
These days you might feel a shaft of light make its way across your face.
And when you do you’ll know how it was meant to be.
See the signs and know their meaning.
It’s true, you’ll know how it was meant to be.
Hear the signs and know they’re speaking to you, to you.

From Surrendering to Reveling

This big group of lightworkers (LWs) who are about to be unleashed into the world, the ~15 million strong (Release the frickin’ hounds! – you know who you are), you’ve all had much practice in surrendering.  You may still have plenty enough of that to still do in some ways.

But now it’s time to segue into a different way of being.  There is still much “work” ahead, time for that “long haul” stuff, but hopefully a “labor of love” in more ways than one, in every way.

So, surrendering is / was like stepping in dog doo.  It sucks, now you’ve got some shoe cleaning ahead of you but you completely surrender yourself to the task, to the moment and just git ‘er done.

Reveling is more like a dog comes upon that same steamy pile of poo, takes a sniff… and… does a barrel roll in it.  Little doggy Nirvana.  “Look at all the sh*t I’m stirring up!”  lol

Just get it all over ya.

Fully, very consciously acknowledge your beacon that shines into the dark places in your fellow human.  And when that light has stirred their pots, has roused their rabble, has shattered their beliefs, when their arrows come flying at ya, just let ’em fly right on by and beam love at them.

Let yourself smile and laugh at it all – the sparks igniting, in more ways than one, the healing… and the absurdities of the world, especially those.  Allow yourself to have a sick sense of humor about all the 3D drama because it is so very outrageously hilarious.

Enjoy yourself.  Time to bloom.


A clip from the movie Erik the Viking where a bunch of vikings set out to find Valhalla.

A Catholic monk travels along with them, not  expecting them to find anything since it’s not part of his belief system.

Earlier in the show, along their journey, the monk would see things and point it out to the vikings, but they couldn’t see these things since they was not part of their belief system.

They finally do find Valhalla…


As a forerunner, I can so relate.  As I’d recently said in comments, in 2010, when I was in my own personal ascension process, I’d emailed my list of lightworker (LW) friends about what I was experiencing and my sense of it.  One thing I’d said was, “We’re being asked to step up in a much bigger way into a much more significant way of creating.”  I got no response to my emails. It didn’t take long to realize they weren’t going through what I was.

I still have that email address that I used with my LW friends, and yet over the years and most especially in a big way from 2010 on, I have heard very, very little from anyone at all from that old group.

A couple years ago, one of these LWs emailed something to me.  I made a comment back to them.  They then asked me what I’d been up to.  lol  I told them.  I wrote a big long email about the planetary / collective service work I’d been doing.

They then responded again and by what they said it was apparent that they literally didn’t even “see” the story I’d told them.  I forwarded this email exchange to my friend who also saw what I did – this person just flat could not “see” my paradigm.


Let’s toss in a little Self-Love too, eh.  This is getting to be a nice brew.


Doctors have come from distant cities
Just to see me
Stand over my bed
Disbelieving what they’re seeing

They say I must be one of the wonders
Of God’s own creation
And as far as they see, they can offer
No explanation

Newspapers ask intimate questions
Want confessions
They reach into my head
To steal the glory of my story

They say I must be one of the wonders
Of God’s own creation
And as far as they see, they can offer
No explanation

Ooo, I believe, fate smiled
And destiny laughed as she came to my cradle
Know this child will be able
Laughed as my body she lifted
Know this child will be gifted
With love, with patience, and with faith
She’ll make her way, she’ll make her way

People see me I’m a challenge to your balance
I’m over your heads how I confound you
And astound you
To know I must be one of the wonders

They say I must be one of the wonders
Of God’s own creation
And as far as they see, they can offer me
No explanation

Ooo, I believe, fate smiled
And destiny laughed as she came to my cradle
Know this child will be able
Laughed as she came to my mother
Know this child will not suffer
Laughed as my body she lifted
Know this child will be gifted
With love, with patience and with faith
She’ll make her way, she’ll make her way

Kind and Generous

Woo hoo!  youtube’s working!  I know… it doesn’t take much to thrill me.  *sigh*

Well, I was listening to songs online the other day, then youtube went out.  This was the last song I had listened to so it was downloaded and still working, so I just kept playing it over and over.  I felt like I was getting gratitude from God, Gaia, the Multi-verse.

So, I’m gonna pass that along…

All who have healed and are working on their healing, all who have assisted Gaia and who have, are and continue to assist their fellow humans in their awakening and healing, I want to…

thank you, thank you
thank you, thank you
thank you, thank you
thank you, thank you

Group hug!     O

“Kind & Generous”

You’ve been so kind and generous
I don’t know how you keep on giving
For your kindness I’m in debt to you
For your selflessness, my admiration
And for everything you’ve done

You know I’m bound…
I’m bound to thank you for it

You’ve been so kind and generous
I don’t know how you keep on giving
For your kindness I’m in debt to you
And I never could have come this far without you
So for everything you’ve done

You know I’m bound…
I’m bound to thank you for it

I want to thank you
For so many gifts
You gave with love and tenderness
I want to thank you

I want to thank you
For your generosity
The love and the honesty
That you gave me

I want to thank you
Show my gratitude
My love and my respect for you
I want to thank you

I want to…

Thank you
Thank you
Thank you
Thank you
Thank you
Thank you

How to Parallel Park

lol  But seriously folks… not kidding.  lol  No really.

In recent years, in my visits to future 5D Gaia, I’ve often had imaginings of other ascended humans, but who were perhaps at a “5D-only” level ask me, “If you could go to 3D and teach humans just one thing, what would it be?”


I suppose you’ve guessed my answer by this point.

Hey!  It’s OBVIOUSLY a sorely needed skill in 3D.


So… here goes…

As you are approaching the parking space and slowing down, turn on your turn signal, in the direction of the parking space.  That gives the folks behind you some heads up on your intention.  A little communication goes a loooooonnnng way.

You pull up next to, you know, PARALLEL to, the car you will park behind.  You’ll want there to be about 12 – 18 inches between your car and that one.  Pull up ALL THE WAY until your car sits right next to the other.

Then, you start to back STRAIGHT up, do not turn yet!  Move slowly.

When (and only then) your back axle is in line with the very back edge of the other car (the bumper or whatever else is back there) THEN you start to turn your wheel.  Your car will pivot on its back inner tire and you want to pivot around the back end of that other car.

You then want to think of aiming the inner, back side of your car at the back, inner corner (curb, if there is one) of that parking space, as you continue to back up slowly into the space.  

When the front end of your car (I almost said “your” front end, but we’ll just leave that alone… for now, lol) can safely clear the back end of the car in front of you, then you can start to slowly turn your wheel the other way to swing the front end of the car into the space as you continue to back up slowly.

If you’ve performed well, then your car’s inner tires should be within 12 inches of the curb (you’ll learn how to adjust your car to get closer as you get better if you desire).

Jockey the car  forward or backward as necessary to center your car in the parking space.

When parking on a hill, last thing, turn your tires toward the curb, with the downhill side of your inner tire to the curb.  Then if your transmission (almost said tranny, but we’ll leave that one alone too, danged p.c. crap anyway) or brake gives out while you’re out of your car, then it won’t roll down the hill, perhaps ruining many a person’s day.


Now, sit and read through this slowly, visualizing being in your car as you do this, converting the words into images.  Keep doing that until you no longer need this handy dandy “cheat sheet” here.  See.

Then take it to the street.

Hope this helps ya.  I’m quite sure that if it does, it ABSOLUTELY WILL , no doubt about it, help to make you, everyone around you, and the world a much happier place.


Today’s Lessons:

  • Visualization.
  • Consideration.  (GAF?  as in Give A F*ck!?)
  • Motivation.
  • Laughter is the best medicine.
  • The little things matter, there is energy within every Thought, Word and Deed.  All your little things add up to changing the world.
  • When do you shine your light?  Always.
  • Else?  Did I miss anything?   😉


God, where are You?

One day God and the Devil were talking.

God said, “Ugh, all these humans praying to Me and petitioning Me for this, that and the other.  Sometimes I just feel like hiding behind the furthest star.”

The Devil said, “You don’t have to do that.  Just hide right behind their eyes.  They’ll never look there.”

What of the body during ascension?

There seems to be a bit of confusion about what is happening / will happen to one’s body during the ascension process.

Many have said that this time we are “taking our bodies with us”.  What is meant by that is that we do not have to die to leave this world.  Instead we can ascend.  But technically, these bodies we are NOT taking with us.  We are taking our human FORM, but not these actual bodies.

We are talking about two different bodies here – the 3D physical carbon-based body and the 5D physical crystalline body.

Well, we could also include the light body but when it comes right down to it, we are not “creating” a light body, but our human self is just reconnecting to it in a conscious way.  The light body is the vehicle / vessel that our soul resides / travels in, no matter what dimensional level we are in / at.  It’s always with us.


The physical 3D carbon-based body does go through much change during the ascension process.  It needs to in order to facilitate the energetic, frequency and consciousness changes that we go through.  More DNA is activated,  pineal gland activated, etc.  Without these physical activations, we  cannot FULLY access our Divine essence.

And yet these physical “upgrades”, well, technically, they are not something “new”.  They are part of being in 3D!  They’re part of our 3D physical vessel.  They’ve always been available to us, whenever we are here, but we, as the human race, hadn’t been using our 3D vessel to its capacity for quite some time.

You could look at this as the 3D body’s awakening, if you will.  Just as you, your mind, has come to “re-member” (put the members back together – body, mind, emotions, spirit) things from before you incarnated, your carbon-based body is also remembering what potential and access it has, here in 3D… it’s FULL 3D-level potential.

Just remember, WE HAVE EVERYTHING WE NEED, right here, right now, always, all ways.  Everything we need to pull this off is available to us and always has been.  That includes the proper food to eat provided by the planet, the physical vessel having all it needs BY DESIGN, access to the Divine for guidance.  All we need to do is make the right choices and we’re set.


And your awakening assists in your body’s awakening because your body’s cells respond to their environment.

Receptors on the cell membrane “read” what’s outside the cell.  It’s at the cell membrane / wall where it’s determined what will be allowed in.  (hope I get this right, from memory, what’s that?)

The proteins inside the cell, align themselves with the… whatever it is outside the cell that wants in –  a food or water molecule, whatever.  Then the proteins makes a mirror image of it.

If what’s outside that wants in is a common, regular thing, that the cell has seen a lot of, then the cell will recognize it as such and knows just what to do.

If it’s something new, then the cell takes that mirror image, that the proteins created, to the DNA, which is just a map, a blueprint.  DNA doesn’t change or control anything, it’s just a reference that provides the cell with an answer to “What is this and what do we do with it?”

And that right there is some clue to “junk DNA” or what had been unused in most silly humans for far too long.  No “junk” to it.  It’s very valuable.  Once something new comes along in the environment and stimulates the “need to know” if you will, then all that so-called junk now has purpose.

Your thoughts, beliefs and state of consciousness are ALSO a part of your body’s “environment”!  Ya know, that “environment” that your body’s cells are responding to.  

When your beliefs and your attention shift, that shifts your body also.  Our bodies are the outward manifestation of our energy.

If you’d like to learn more along the lines of what I’m talking about here, then cellular biologist Bruce Lipton is your guy.


And yet, there is only so much shift your 3D carbon-based body can do.

One thing to remember here is that not only has Earth been 3D and Duality, but due to past traumatic collective catastrophes and the cabal’s influence, people have been even more dumbed down, have succumbed to the separation paradigm and disempowerment to the point where some don’t even know what spirit or the Divine is anymore.  And we hadn’t used some parts of our DNA because of it.

And through poor diet and brainwashing, our pineal gland got calcified and deactivated.  I’ve heard some say “well how do you know this?”  Well, how one can know such is through Divine communication and doesn’t have to be through medical means.  But what the Divine tells me on this is this: calcification of glands does happen.  The reason for it is nutritional, not the least of which being magnesium deficiency, which is very common and not by accident.  For more on that, see the post Alzheimer’s and Cholesterol, Water and EVERYTHING, Listening to Your Body… and some other things.  And yes, you can bet that calcification does affect the pineal’s ability to function fully.  But yes, just flat not using one’s pineal / third eye can cause it to “get out of shape”, if you will.  But being out of shape is a bit different than the calcification.  I can’t stress enough the importance of a natural, whole, organic diet.  See post Healing – Physical.

And… it is my understanding that we are NOT getting more strands of DNA as many like to report.  I can’t say such things don’t ever happen.  It’s a mutation.  Mutations happen.  But additional strands of DNA is NOT ascension-related.  We don’t need more than the standard 2 strands of DNA to ascend.  We just tap into / utilize more of our DNA that we weren’t before.  It wasn’t that what we are now utilizing wasn’t there before and we had to create it.  It’s been there waiting for us to wake up enough to use it.

Here’s something to run past your own inner knowingness to check for resonance – our new 5D crystalline bodies won’t even have glands or DNA.

As I’ve said elsewhere, when it comes right down to it, our 3D carbon-based bodies are “smarter” / more conscious than our 5D crystalline bodies are / will be.  Why?  Because they need to be.  At this dense, slow, 3D level our lower minds have enough to deal with without having to monitor every little body function.  When we are in 5D, our own consciousness will be much higher and our crystalline bodies will just resonate, literally, with whatever it is we are asking of them.  And we can and will control our body functions at the same time we’re doing whatever we care to do.  And we’ll have plenty enough consciousness for all of it.

Our 3D carbon-based bodies also feel things about our energetic state – blockages and the release of them.  Your energetic blockages are ultimately what is responsible for “ascension symptoms”.  The ultimate solution is to do your inner work, but in the moment, treat the physical symptoms – if you’re tired, rest; if you crave a certain something, then eat that.  Get the food and supplements you know will help with the physical-level symptoms.  Listen to and take care of your body.  (See info on ascension symptoms at end of Useful Healthful Tips post.)

Then, past your own personal completion, then there’s the whole human antenna energetic service work, which takes even more toll.  So plenty going on with the 3D carbon-based body during all of this and it would serve you to honor and support, nutritionally and through your thoughts / communication,  your carbon-based body as it will need all the help it can get.


But during our ascension process, one of the things that happens is we create our 5D crystalline bodies.  Where are they?  In 5D!  … along with the rest of our 5D Gaia creation.  While you’re still in 3D, get used to not physically seeing “out there”, in a manifested way, most of what you are creating.  Why?  Because you are not creating it in 3D.  You are making a 5D creation.  You’ll have to use your higher consciousness if you want to “see” it in a clairvoyant way while still residing in 3D / 4D.

At the point of transition, our consciousness will move from the 3D carbon-based body to the 5D crystalline body.  The same thing is happening with Gaia.  She will leave her old 3D body, Earth, behind.  Now with us, our old carbon-based bodies will just turn into energy and go back to Infinite Light / All That Is, so no carcasses laying around in 3D.  lol  But Gaia’s old carbon-based body provides a home to billions of people and many more lifeforms so it kinda needs to be here for them.


Also see post 3D Earth.

The Trickster, 4th Ray Energy, Divine Love

Ah, but humans just hate it when they are subjected to trickery.

Over the years, relationships and synchronicities brought so many healing opportunities and much Divine guidance to me.  But, in 2010 when I was in my own personal ascension process, I was isolated and shut in, so under those circumstances relationship and synchronicity can’t work their magic.  Sure, maybe the internet or TV or something could still bring some synchroncities but, eh…

… that was ok because the Divine will do what it needs to do, including playing the trickster.  The Divine may be the best / worst (however you choose to view it) trickster I’ve ever seen.

So, with this particular incident, it was the Divine working directly with me, not through my fellow human or what have ya, so can’t even factor in a human component (relating / interacting) as there was none.

I was doing a lot of Tarot as it was hard to “hear” in any other way as I rode the peaks and troughs of the ascension process.  But my higher self (HS) and I were quite the team and we utilized Tarot well together to get me info.

So, this one time, I was led to believe something by my HS.  That started a process in me, a release-type thing, and since it was part of the ascension process itself, these sorts of things tended to be a deeeeeep clean.

About the time that I was finishing up what I was to get out of this process – accompanied by a wryly smiling HS – I realized I’d been duped.  I was livid.  Jesus H. Christ!  If ya can’t trust your own HS to be straight up with ya, who can ya trust?!

And yet, I couldn’t deny the benefit of the resultant process.  I knew that my HS was coming from proper intent and just doing whatever it took to get the job done.

Reminds me of the line – “There is nothing inherently good or evil in the world (or cosmos apparently 😉 ), it all depends on the intent behind it.”

Have I played the trickster myself?  You. can. bet. I. have.  Yeppers.  I’ve learned from the best!  And then had the best’s, the Divine’s, guidance to do just that.

And I am evolved.  Just like the Divine, I come from proper intent.  I allow myself to be used by the Divine, for the Divine to work through me.  There are many routes to getting the message across and trickery is one of them.

And being used by the Divine in such a way is not for the faint of heart.  It takes some strength, courage, big *ss cajones and also the ability to dodge the subsequent bullets like Neo in Matrix… ‘cuz I know that none, and I mean NONE of that whole process is about me, including those bullets.  And I know the medicine that the Divine trickery is delivering and know its value to my fellow human.  I’m just getting the hell out of the way and allowing the Divine to work through me, energetically beaming love the whole time.

Yeah, after all these years, I’m no rookie at much of anything in this whole healing arena, including serving some of the not-so-savory “duties” in assisting in healing people.

Through Soul-Centered Astrology, I had learned years back that I came to bring 4th Ray energy into this world, which is Harmony Through Conflict.  Omg, the re-actions just to that title when I’ve discussed such with some lightworkers  – “We don’t need any more conflict!”  Obviously, yes, you do!  As an old lightworker friend of mine likes to say, “Why do you think God sent me to you?!”

These types are often passive aggressive and have some major confrontation-avoidance issues.  They don’t understand what 4th Ray energy is about and don’t want to, would just rather re-act from a place of programming and ignorance.  They’ll come right out and advise “Avoid conflict.”  They may as well be saying “Avoid harmony!” for that is the end result.  Yes, often the “road to Heaven” goes through “Hell”.  Be courageous enough to cross that Lake of Fire because Heaven awaits on the other side.  (And when going through Hell, it’s best to keep going.  🙂 )

An analogy of Harmony Through Conflict energy working its magic would be… Person A has some pent up thoughts and feelings about Person B.  They have not talked about it and yet they are holding a grudge towards Person B who has no clue wtf but may very well be feeling the effects.  Eventually an argument erupts.  Now all the emotions are finding expression.  Communication is happening again.  Cooperation can now happen.  Ah, sweet Harmony… that came… Through… Conflict.  Score!  Guess that whole confrontation / conflict thing weren’t so bad after all, eh?

And someone who carries 4th Ray, Harmony Through Conflict energy delivers that energy to others.  The cosmic crowbar here to get you unstuck.  Oh no, don’t mention it.  My pleasure!  pssssfft

When we talk about compassion we talk in terms of being kind. But compassion is not so much being kind; it is being creative [enough] to wake a person up. ~ Chogyam Trungpa Rinpoch

… even if waking them up may take a few sticks of metaphoric dynamite.  And this isn’t just about someone’s initial awakening, but also all the continuing awakening throughout their healing and ascension process.

What often happens is that when that 4th Ray energy works on someone with inner conflict, they project that outwardly and yep, you guessed it, right onto the person carrying the 4th Ray energy.

Oh to joy!  Whoopti-frickin’-do!  *looking up* “You shouldn’t have!  No really!”

Yep, what was on my soul’s mind?

Yeah, when the Divine first started to really kick in my soul-centered astrological energies, it was not all so fun.  Nope.  But I did it anyway.  It’s what I have to bring to the world.  It’s necessary.  And in my own evolution I learned to dodge people’s arrows, which weren’t about me anyway.

It’s funny to hear people re-act with “we don’t need no stinkin’ conflict” when they know they are talking 4th Ray energy.  What?  Some Divine Rays are good and some not, don’t have a place, we can live without?  So some astrological signs are bad too I suppose?  “Sorry folks, no births this month, you’ll just have to wait.”

From here:

“The rhythm of the 4th RAY flows from: a relative state of harmony >>> change appears >>> tensions of struggle >>> a battle >>> death to old form >>> construction of a new form >>> harmony.”

The conflict that is at the crux of all this has to do with a conflict between the inner and the outer.  Someone may have learned some tidbits of wisdom, which, on a completely conceptual level, they totally “get” it… but are not applying it, not actually living it.  Well, for any of you who have experienced this, you’ll know that conflict between inner and outer does not sit well with you energetically.   It may make you feel like you’re being ripped apart by two diametrically opposed energies.  You are.  You have not allowed your outer experience to reflect your inner knowingness.  You’re not showing yourself, not shining your light, not living your wisdom.


Someone recently said, and I paraphrase, that Divine Love is not some blissed-out, ungrounded thing, it has a mission.  Yep.  I agree.  Divine Love is not milquetoast and neither are those who embody it.

Divine Love has many faces, many energies, many tools to use.  They all matter.  They all have purpose.  The Divine does not only love you when you are progressing along just fine, it also loves you when you’re stuck and the Divine loves you too much to just leave you stuck.

Folks could stand to let go of their funny notions / programming about what Love is, how it looks and what it can be.  Love has no limits.  You can’t put it in a box.  You might not initially like the way it looks in some guises and yet… it’s just gonna love ya just the same.

Secret Life

How’s about ya all make your secret lives not so secret anymore?!

Show thyself!

Indeed, enough with ignorance and despair!

“Secret Life”

From red giant to supernova
Back to you and me
A cloaked entity within
A virtual reality

Mechanised and organised
To me it’s plain to see
The hand that’s been busy
Weaving fantasy

It’s so hard to understand
And often we are blind
But if truth were an ocean
Would it fit in the pool of a human mind

You’re all alone
And it doesn’t seem quite fair
Why we’re all left in ignorance
Turning to despair (turning to despair)

Philosophy and theology
Offer us a glimpse
At something more incredible (incredible)
Than you and I

So call on the secret life
Call on the secret life
Show me the way of life
Bring on the secret life

Evangelists, scientologists
And others I won’t mention
Offer lessons in codology
To all with good intention (intention)

Listen at your peril
Put your soul in detention
Resensitize yourself
To this incredible dimension

When you’re all alone
And it doesn’t seem quite fair
Why we’re all left in ignorance
Turning to despair (turning to despair)

Philosophy and theology
Offer us a glimpse
At something more incredible (incredible)
Than you and I

So call on the secret life
Call on the secret life
Show me the way of life
Bring on the secret life

I think, therefore I am
I think, therefore I am

And you’re all alone
And it doesn’t seem quite fair
Why we’re all left in ignorance
Turning to despair (turning to despair)

Philosophy and theology
Offer us a glimpse
At something more incredible (incredible)
Than you and I

So call on the secret life
Call on the secret life
Show me the way of life
Bring on the secret life

Call on the secret life (turning to despair)
Call on the secret life (turning to despair)
Show me the way of life (turning to despair)
Bring on the secret life (turning to despair)

Call on the secret life (turning to despair)
Call on the secret life (turning to despair)
Show me the way of life (turning to despair)
Bring on the secret life (turning to despair)

[Fade out]

My Twin Flame

I’ve considered writing about this before but God had not given the go-ahead… until now.

I met my twin flame, in person, in 2003.  They were involved in an activity that my then partner (now ex) and I were also in.

I found them attractive but I couldn’t help but notice, especially when standing / sitting next to them that the energy was completely overwhelming – through the roof, make your skin crawl, downright unnervingly overwhelming.  And this is not typical for me.  Just because I’m attracted to someone doesn’t mean I get all whacked out about it.

Also, my partner (now ex) and I just kept running into my twin flame.  It was uncanny.  Everything that had to fall into place to make these synchronistic meetings happen was just nuts.

I’d also sent an email to the whole group once, many of which commented on it when in person, but my twin flame actually answered the email.  Some of the things said, well, really the things misspoken (mistyped), totally jived with what I later found out about experiences we’d had together before.  Accidents never happen.

Well, I couldn’t help but take note that this person was significant to me in some way.

Now, mind ya, I am describing this person as my twin flame and yet, back then, that term twin flame hadn’t even entered my paradigm yet.

Well, the activity we were